Releasing all obstacles to just letting it wash over me
and not feeling like I have to do something about it
because that's what ties my body and my mind in knots
and then I'm not doing what I came here to do
and I'm no use to anybody when I'm in that state
feeling all of the truths move through my body like water
and the places where I'm resisting are the rocks
Huh, okay...
and I love sitting at a rocky river
with the water having something to splash off of
for little animals to take refuge on
and if my body is a river
why would I want to get rid of the little rocks
which are all these little spots of tension in me
So it's not the fact that the tension is there that is causing the pain
the tension is a natural balance to "untension"
I'm making up words now
All words are made up!
So if it's not the tension itself that causes the pain
what causes the pain?
It's the resistance to feeling the tension
It's the resistance to allowing the tension to be there
and the natural tension that goes along with holding that form together
If there was no tension, that form would dissolve
so there has to be tension to hold it together
the trick is knowing when it's time to not hold it together
knowing when it's time for that form to dissolve
and sometimes when we hold too tightly
that's when the lightening bolt has to hit
to break up that resistance
so the dissolving that it's time for can take place
but that doesn't mean tension is bad or wrong
or that we don't want tension
because sometimes we want to create things that have form
the freedom comes from realizing that you can create anything into form
and uncreate it, and go do something else
nothing that is created has to continue in its current form indefinitely
everything in nature goes through death and rebirth
Having some thoughts that bring up my butt tension
Ok, why are you there?
What is your purpose?
How are you helping me?
What you are helping me hold together
that I'm afraid to let dissolve?
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