Shadows

There has been a lot of moments in life where I laughed and laughed and ended up crying coz I couldn't laugh anymore. There were also moments where I couldn't stop crying but ends up laughing realizing how ridiculous life has become. I've always wondered if I was ever happy. Not just smiling or laughing, but happy being in a moment. Even after that moment passes by, did it stay? looking back at those moments, did it make a difference?