Hi everyone! So as I write this, it’s my 30th birthday. My birthdays are always a time for reflection for me, and this year it feels extra important. My life has changed so much since coming to terms with my identity—I’ve experienced so much heartbreak, frustration, insecurity, harassment, etc. but I’ve also experienced so much joy, so many new friends with deeper connections, so many amazing new experiences, and for the first time in my life a burning desire to live. No more will I be too scared to reach for my dreams.
Unfortunately, my dreams are expensive… I don’t have health insurance so the hormones that have fixed my body and improved my mind and mood are covered out of pocket. Traveling for comedy has become a rare luxury. Rent is increasing and my pay’s not. Not even to mention other health problems that I really need addressed but kinda just have to ignore at the moment…
I’d like comedy to be my full time job. Seeing the responses of trans people towards my material has filled me with so much warmth it really does bring tears to my eyes. To think that my dumb, dry sense of humor could resonate with so many and could actually provide some sort of mental relief in these times really does mean the world to me. I’m filled with a new purpose I didn’t think I’d ever have! I mean, full disclosure, I thought I would’ve offed myself by now but after the changes to my body and life I wanna stick around for a lot longer. And while advocating for myself is the hardest thing I’ve had to do, I’ve gotta do it. If I’m gonna stick around fueling this passion, I’ve just gotta suck it up and ask for your help. Of course, only if you can!!
If you’re like me and are struggling to make ends meet, please honey focus on your own needs. But if you’ve got some extra pocket change laying around, maybe kick some of that to ya girl here…
Anything is greatly appreciated! It does make an impact, even if it just boosts my confidence knowing I have support. I plan on making even more videos, both sketches as well as longer form videos where I just gush about things I enjoy. YouTube, patreon, who knows what else. But I don’t plan on shutting up, and if I can provide just a little relief to other trans people in these times, I’ll do so until I’m dead and I’ll die with a smile on my face. (Unless, you know, my face gets horribly disfigured by fascists and I can’t smile in which case I’ll die with a smile in my heart knowing I made yall happy and them mad.)
Anyway. Idk how to end this. But thank you so much for enjoying my work, and for still being here! Not just here as in this site, but here in the sense you’re alive. I really mean that. Thank you. Thank you all 🥹
**TLDR: ur gay lmao