Through all of this I have been asked if I am ok a handful of time and I am not ok, and that scares the fuck out of me. ‘Cause I want to be ok, I want to be understanding, strong, logical and in control. And I am not. I am exhausted, over emotional and scared.
And for that I’m sorry…
I’m sorry for being a burden
I’m sorry for seeking compassion and comfort
I’m sorry for not being strong enough to do this on my own
I’m sorry for reaching out and sharing my pain
I’m sorry for asking for help
I’m sorry that I am failing and have no idea what I am suppose to do
I’m sorry that I hurt so much that I can’t control the tears
I’m sorry that I am supposed to rest but I can not sleep
I’m sorry that I bothered you
I’m sorry that I am
Look I have been through and survived too much in this life to let this break me…
I’m exhausted, frustrated, annoyed…But not broken. Sometimes you have to feel your feelings, even the ones that shatter you a bit.
To any of you that are a part of my life I truly appreciate your kindness, friendship and understanding.