So it’s time to break my silence, I have been a victim of narcissistic abuse. And it took me a year to speak up about it because I believed that it was my fault overall within my first and last relationship. Overall, it wasn’t ever my fault, yet I took all the fucking blame, but everything I tell you is all from heart because I am no dickhead who wonders around the fucking streets acting like a fucking badman, no, I am the nice and honest guy.
Ex-girlfriend, if you come across this video, if you put a restraint order on me, you are pretty much supressing the truth.
How do we begin this whole statement? So, in 2019, I started dating this girl, whom I will not disclose her name, this girl who was interested in me because of one thing common, Goku Black, no lie and so we started talking, despite the fact we both went to the same secondary school but had small talk back then. So eventually I started getting interested in her and we spoke a lot as the days went by until I had to go to Italy for a small holiday where of course I promised her that I would keep in contact with her even when I am in Italy. And I kept my promise as what a gentleman should do. Before I start highlighting her narcissism, the only thing that I was at fault in this relationship was my horniness and that’s it. In this relationship, my loyalty was witnessed by my close mates and classmates. Every now and then I would drop her off near her college and pick her up whenever I finish college before her just so I can escort her safely home which is a duty for a man. There was one time a classmate of mine back in Sixth Form witnessed my loyalty and she was impressed. She did become good friends with my ex but there was one time, where my ex accused of having an affair with my classmate because I was talking to her, even though all we were talking about was future of our lives like me marrying my girl but that fucking short lived didn’t it? And since we went to the same Sixth Form, I always kept keep a short distance like full arm length between myself and my classmate while we had continued with our conversation just so others would not have the wrong ideas and get accused of cheating. I took these drastic measures to keep my loyalty.
Now here is the main point about her, she posed a certain number of red flags which I fucking hated.
Flag 1 about her narcissism was she didn’t give a shit of anything that I said especially when I am entitled to have an opinion. Everyone is entitled to have an opinion, especially a based opinion. What she kept on doing was not listen to my opinions especially when she is in the wrong and did not want to take any fucking responsibility despite teaching her the facts that in the Real World you have to be responsible for your actions, I was at fault for my horniness, and I took responsibilities into my own hands. Also, one good thing she did was not to tell others about my relationship with her publicly, only those whom I trust can know. And so, I listened
Flag 2, her male best friends whom I fucking hated, they are Husein, Kushlan and Prince. These are their fucking names. I said it, you know what fuck it, these pieces of shits were the absolute worse, I hated them to the core, where I even as far as to tell her to fucking block them completely from her contacts. Literally fucking ghost them. So what do you her excuse was? “He is my best friend”. So you prioritise a fucking femboy best friend over your own fucking boyfriend and she is of course stupid to not even think twice that is form of disrespect within a relationship. They were all fucking blue-pilled. Here are two things that went down between me, Husein and Prince. Kushlan was a full-on pussy, he was fucking afraid to speak.
Situation 1, she has done perhaps the biggest fuck up ever in the relationship where she didn’t even fucking apologise, what a fucking low value bitch. The situation began when she was telling me that she was texting Husein and I told her not to, so then she initiated Manipulation Mode, and this mode really wanted me to have a jealousy reaction, but it did not bring any jealousy, all it brought was depressing disrespect within this relationship where I refused to talk to her about this. She did this because she wanted me to fight over her, but I was not interested in a petty fight over a weak guy who creates tough times. As I am saying now, Weak men create Hard Times.
Situation 2, I received death threats and abuse by Prince. After completely breaking the bond between her and I, she of course did what she did, smear campaign on me to the three of them. And the one who acted was Prince, just another femboy. On Instagram, he DM’d me calling me a “prick”, “asshole” and whatever slur he can say out of his dictionary. All I could do was sit and watch a weak man pretending to be strong. He eventually sent me death threats and all I could do was Laugh because I know he doesn’t have the balls to do it. And so, what happened at the end? Nothing (LAUGH).
Now Flag 3, she gave 0 fucks about my feelings. How can I explain it? Every time I told her how I felt whenever she neglected me, treated me as an option and played mind games with me, she would not care, she always attempted to divert the conversation into something like Horniness or Gaming, especially when it’s a serious matter. All she wanted was I kept praising her for her beauty. By the way she used to have a great personality, as time went forward it became shit. Furthermore, into this relationship, we both asked each other for a break in order to have our time and space (Show Dialga and Palkia on the screen for jokes). So, during I started learning about Dropshipping which I dropped because it’s a very saturated side hustle and my profit margin was about 5%, and so much cost upfront especially, and it wouldn’t expand even when adding new items into the selling list, so I left that completely. Then discussed with my brother about spending just over £2000 on a gaming PC, which he built it, which is the one that I am using now to record videos and play the Best Tactical Shooting Game ever which is Rainbow Six Siege. During this time, I discovered a dark revelation, during this time and space period where we were supposed to improve our ourselves disciplinarily, I found out that she was cheating on me, what did she do to cheat on me you ask? Saying “I Love you” to another behind my back. But how did I discover this? Well, she is a moron, she put it in her public story on Instagram and guess what happened next? She retaliated by saying “He is just a friend” and not only that, her female best friend, Sumaya, that’s her name in fact, she brought enough disrespect where I am publicly saying her name because of this. So Sumaya decided to defend the cheat saying that she was not cheating and creating excuses which is ironic because she wouldn’t even acknowledge my side of the story. What really amazes me is not Sumaya because fuck her, she can fuck off. It’s that when my girl did this, she didn’t even consider about how I feel, I was treated as an option, she already had a backup option, when she left me. Now let me tell you an aftermath story that happened, that completely showed my cold side. And in this period, she was doing all her best to “apologize” but little did she know that I gave 0 fucks about her “apology”. So the story starts that I was going to return the 2 gifts she gave me, which were a romantic canvas painting of Goku and Chichi because we both like Dragon ball. And A small wooden box that contained a photo of us together and small multilingual love cards and glitter. Which was in fact adorable. I gifted her, books, jumper, 1 year Nintendo Switch Membership, Cookies, Digital Birthday Card, Minecraft because she always wanted to play it, remixed music for her because I used to amateurly remix but now I stopped completely, fed her food that she never ate like Pasta with Squid and Fresh Tomato. And an I love you necklace written in 100 languages that she broke. By the way, we both had a string bracelet that had a magnet on it, I kept it on ever since she gave it to me and never removed it, even though it broke and I apologised and blamed myself, this is a way to show you how loyal I was in this relationship. So, continuing with this real-life story, I returned her the gifts just in time for Sumaya to witness it right in front of her eyes and then I walked off to the station because on that day I had uni. As I am making my way to the station, the cheat and protector were following me telling me to turn around, but I had my headphones on. When I reached the gates of the station, my ex decided to grab my hand and pull me as I was tapping my bank card. Then I retaliated by stating directly to her to “PISS OFF!”, I went through the gates and boarded the London Underground, but there was a problem, she boarded the same fucking train as I did. She sat next to me and said “Hi”. I responded by getting straight to the point, “Where were you when I was at my lowest?”. She couldn’t reply, I then continued with “When you were at your lowest, I was there for you but when I was at my lowest, you did jack shit. Why?”. After that, I changed train and went to Uni. On that day, I even apologised for my behaviour, but thinking thoroughly, she didn’t deserve an apology from me despite the manipulations she inflicted on me.
Flag 4, Hating the truth. Within her life, I was the only one who gave her tough love, because I was raised through tough love as well, and those who give you tough love want the best of you, those who don’t give tough love want the worst of you. Now recently, her new boyfriend who is a content creator of almost 60k subs stated in a live stream “she also had terrible exes”, well that is an example of not only a lie but also a smear campaign because he did state that they did talk to each other about past relationships and indirectly referred me as an NPC, which is ironic coming from a guy who doesn’t believe in God and swallowed the blue pill.
In the past, I called her out her narcissistic behaviour despite barely knowing the meaning, the reason behind it was because she was living in her own fantasy world when I told her to not be this fucking deluded and look at the real world to which she refused, which is typical for Modern Gen Z Women. She hated that truth and got angry at me for calling her narcissist, which clearly made it obvious that she hated the truth. Since I gave her tough love which she believed was a personal attack on her, I pointed the time she fucked up badly and had to take responsibility, how she acted like a brat, how she needs to leave that shitty fantasy world of hers, how she has to stop talking to Kushlan especially and how she has to stop having herself to be devoured by the ego that Amino is giving her. I used Amino once because of her and let me tell you something about this shit social media app. It is made for the sore losers who live in their parents’ basement and attic. This app is so shit that it becomes even shittier when you Join the Anime Server. Now I myself watch anime but I would not join a Fanbase where there is cringe at every direction for instance, The worst fanbase ever is the My Hero Academia Fanbase. Now I have witnessed the conversation between her and her online friends in Amino and let me tell you. It’s like watching the worst of geeks having a conversation. Not only it weirded me out, but their conversation was also so out of touch of reality. Whenever, my ex posted something on Amino, she would have these online morons praising her and massaging her ego and I was the only one who had to put her in her place by getting her back to reality because I told her that they want to see the worse of you not the best of you but since she hated that truth, she blocked me on that day for being overreactive and “an idiot”. Often when I just can’t be fucking asked to discipline a spoiled Gen Z brat like her, I told Sumaya about it but Sumaya being Sumaya, I don’t even know if she ever fucking listens.
Flag 5, Not Supporting your grind, now I did tell her to support my content that I do on Youtube, when I dated her she liked Warframe and Minecraft and let’s just say as a support she did absolutely fuck all. She didn’t even subscribe to the channel or even watch any video or leave a comment as support. But she watches this dickass who plays a rip off of Need For Speed, whom I am going to talk about now.
Now, 3 to 4 weeks ago, my ex DM’d me on my Instagram, Link in Description, rubbing it in my face that she entered in a new relationship, and I responded by predicting that her new man will be a douche named Sid. As it turns out I was correct, this guy is a guy with clout and money which tells me that she now became a gold-digging slut bitch. Now this Sid is such a fucking idiot, now because he made his new relationship public on social media, which is not only idiotic but put her in danger, common for the idiot that he is, he literally did the “LOOK AT ME, I HAVE A GIRLFRIEND. NA NA NANA NA” and this guy is not even serious anyway, which is common amongst blue pilled males, even one of his fans contacted me saying that they are both going down a dark path and when shit goes down between them, I’ll just be sat here playing Rainbow Six Siege.
Well, All I can say now, he is next as a body count and as another option in her life. I know she did this make me suffer and that she moved on but no, it’s one of her manipulation tricks where she wants me to suffer and have a glow down. So here I am breaking the silence that she made me suffer even after the breakup due to her narcissistic midn-game Manipulating attitude.
Now what am I going to do as I just exposed her in this long form video? Well At first, I wanted to screenshot the photos that Sid took while she was at his house claiming another body count and physically go to her house and show to her parents these photos as revenge. But then I thought nah because by doing that not only I was going to bring hatred into my own heart, but that dick-arse was going to tell his fanbase to look for me and abuse me both online and in person, so the toxic revenge was out of the question. So now my revenge would be best kept secret. All I can tell you that this bitch may have attempted to break my spirit, but it was not strong enough for me to stop doing what I do best. Living my life without her as a red pilled Serious content creator.
It’s the beginning of the end. I don’t need her now and I don’t need her ever, she can apologise all she wants when she eventually starts guilt tripping, but I do have a say “Apology Accepted, Access Denied”. She made me suffer for 2 and a half years of our relationship due to her lack of responsibility, dignity, discipline and outrageous behaviour. Now to all of you who watched this video and are victim of narcissistic abuse, take this video as a motivation and speak out about your relationship. IT’S NOW OR NEVER!
Thank you for watching.