I face it every single day. I looked up, in a moment of sudden sober realization, crowd surfing the audience at a show in London back in 1994. "I am not really a part of this am I?" Bands? We are drugs?! We are used and spent. Therapeutic tools. Fetishes. Dildo's. Phenomenal fuckdolls. Caffeine to reach the goal. Hell of a thing? Positions. When you finally detach from the social position and iden...