Dear friends,
I have been going back and forth about following through with this. I LOVE the concept of this membership space, the exploration of universal themes and I really love seeing familiar faces every month at the workshops. But it's coming to the end.
Please read through all of this to understand where I'm coming from.
Things are shifting and changing at a rapid pace for me these days and I must move with the flow. I still love making time to write and to share and to draw within themes every month, that feels so nice in so many ways.
Seeing as how next month we're moving into Sagittarius who is always about FREEDOM, I feel I need to work with that theme in the way that it feels in my heart.
The pressure of not "giving you enough" and to keep up with things, is weighing on me more than I'd like to admit, but more so, I am trying to clear my plate and set some more focus in my life and business, and it's HARD. I'm sure you can understand having a lot of different ideas and not enough time to do it all!
Another reason for this decision is the fact that I am walking into a mentorship, in whatever shape it takes, I am beginning my time as a student in some capacity and I want to breathe more space into my life so that I can focus on the things that are ahead. There are big steps laying out before me though I can't fully see what they are yet.
I feel guilty ending this container earlier than I originally committed to, which is something that I often hold a lot of shame around "that I don't finish things." And as my own shadow work around this, I am trying to look at all the ways that I have finished many things as well and ask myself deeper questions around aversion to certain long-term commitments... It always comes back to freedom.
If you know or have any interest in the Gene Keys (a system akin to Human Design, Astrology) my life's work is Gene 55, which is all about Freedom (It's also about the next chapter in human evolution- it's a very intriguing concept and I'll share the link here )
I appreciate each of you so much for being here, it's been wonderful making connections with everyone and I feel like this space gave me a lot of direction when I wasn't feeling I had much of one majority of this year. Leaning into the monthly themes was a HUGE benefit to me, and I hope that you felt it in some way and I hope that it inspired you to find a rhythm with the energies of each month and to find your own cadence.
This space will become FREE to you who are a part of it now, I won't be advertising it, those who know, know, so if you were hoping to go back to do any workshops or read anything, it will still be there until next April for sure (to complete the full year)
*I will still be sharing monthly posts about the monthly themes still, because it's become an important reflection for myself. I also will post occasional things because I still love writing and working with these themes!
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WHAT THIS MEANS:
For those who are paying monthly at the Dreamer or Alchemy tier:
If you wish to stay in this space and just browse my writings and imagery, go back to previous months, the space will become FREE (I will probably move the information to a different platform after next April) But I will be sending the same upcoming reflections to my email list.
For those of you who have paid for the full year, I have two options:
Refund of remaining months and directly pay you back
Receive a Custom Simple Portrait!!
I will personally cancel everyone's subscriptions so that you don't have to.
I don't think I can refund through Buy Me A Coffee, but I will email those directly who have signed up for the year and we can work out what option you are looking for.
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What I have been leaning into with this decision is that I need more SPACE.
And because I can see that we are in deep universal themes of letting go, I also want to ask you, is there something in your life that you need to let go of to free up space for yourself?
Is there something that you can release yourself from that would allow you to fly forward in pursuit of your dreams?
Can you name things in your life that have some weight to them, and if they could change, what would that look like, and ultimately how would that make you feel?
By making this free, I feel free.
By giving something in return for your gracious support as I close this, I feel fairness.
By being authentic to myself and honoring that I need to let this go in the way that is has been, I feel lighter and more aligned.
I tried to hang onto this, to simply rewrite the space and to just scale it down so that I didn't feel like a complete "failure." When I heard myself say that... I realized that I was doing it out of obligation, not out of pure heart, that I was judging myself for my lack of commitment, though, I'm rewriting that story within myself. It's not to say I don't love this concept, I really do and I will continue working with this idea in ways which can't be seen yet but I can feel.
I hope by reading through all of this you understand where I am coming from and maybe you needed to feel inspired to let go of something in your life to clear space for what's to come. Because let me tell you... big things are definitely coming.
So much love to you all,
Nica
PS we're still having our Shadow Workshop on November 30 @7pm UK (1pm CST)!!