Life struggles

It's been the most challenging several years for me,
I would call it extreme, as a whole bunch of bad things that many people fear has been falling on me one after another.
I am still at the very beginning of my recovery journey, which is now fully dependent on money I have to make while not being in a good shape at all both mentally and physically, but I'll try to get through this...
Don't know why I'm writing this, maybe I was just hoping for understanding and forgiveness for missing the deadlines or isolating myself from the world sometimes, or just for an extra cup of coffee that would keep me a bit more alive through these hard times, idk