reality

I cried all morning > cleaned myself up > did two self-tape auditions. Thought about my financial struggles, cried again. Doom scrolled on tiktok for an hour. It is 3.30pm and i haven't eaten today.
I'm just trying to keep my health insurance valid.

Update:
I was washing the rice and i had an epiphany

"YOU DIDN'T SURVIVE AN ABUSIVE RELATIONSHIP TO GIVE UP NOW... YOU DIDN'T SURVIVE A COMA AND AMNESIA, TO GIVE UP NOW"

So f it, yeah, just gotta stay on that horse and keep pushing forward.