Self Reading: How should I go about healing from this? APR-22-2026

Queen Swords (Rx): use logic more rather then emotions to figure this out

Devil: lack of control

Strength: Inner strength, putting others first, compassionate

Empress: nurture, nature

Queen Swords (Rx): Bitter, resentful, isolation for a number of reasons

8 Wands: Protecting self, clear purpose, dedicated, and overcoming

2 Cups (Rx): imbalance, bad communication, Open Up

Page Swords (Rx): cynical, scatterbrain, distrustful

2 Wands: planning, first steps, start of stepping out of this

Stepping out of a pretty bad past relationship, that effected my communication quiet a bit 🙃 Anyway, I gotta work on the Strength & Express, cause it is good, but that was taken advantage of and obsessive behavior towards that side of myself. My boundaries were disrespected, too. Advice to be more logical about this situation, rather than be emotional about it. Which is tough to work on, cause it a lot of emotionally toying with me, in general. I'm just an emotional person 😅

I have definitely developed distrust and cynical of communication now, due to this past experience of a relationship. That relationship should have been for personal growth, but it really had nothing to offer for growing, tbh.

Should probably be dedicated to stepping out of this and try to get back into how I normally communicated before this relationship, cause I was seen as someone that always checked in with others, cause I became that person no one had. I actually really don't like the one post: "I stopped checking in on people, cause no did the same for me. And now no one checks in with me". I hate it, cause it just makes everyone stop checking in with each other. Like, I just checked in, cause I had a lot before. Than I met someone that was just greedy, and had nothing good to offer in-return. They be stuck in the past and refuse to move on from their life experiences. Which I am just trying to wash off and clean off myself from them leeching onto me

I have a hard time trying to trust others, cause I personally deal with a lot of online And in-person stalking. This ex in particular, was the worse case scenario of being both types of stalkers. Borderline, No Case File (at all), and Lock up, cause too good to be true thought process of meeting me.

Last paragraph is me being open about it, cause that be a crazy and difficult experience to try and talk about

"Just leave him!" - that's easier said then done with this cray-cray guy 🫠🙃🤣 Moving far away was what got rid of his in-person stalking, and it took me a long while to have the courage to block him, so he'd stop online stalking me. Cause he'd make multiple accounts and literally contact me through anything online. He eventually learned that was crazy, but that was too late for me. He just learned how to be better at hiding that side of himself for someone else and this guy, he needs to be flagged everywhere as a walking red flag. He has no police record for this behavoir and just, he should really have a record 😬

I guess that's what I need work on, cause having my accounts found, triggers that anxiety of mine 😅 Might need to address that, cause yeah. I didn't listen to my guy feeling screaming at me, "Turn around! Go home! Leave right now!". Since I didn't listen to my intuition and walked into that door-Literally *and metaphorically*. I struggled to get rid of him ever since. He actually opened his front door when my intuition just screamed at me. He even saw that, cause he always sees that face on women when they look at him, and they don't want to be around him anymore. Now, I know better, cause geezus 🫠💀🤣😅 I can see why no woman wants to deal with him

Honest to glob, that guy needs police records to be taken seriously for the behavoir he hides. I could've had decent life experiences & progressed before turning 30, but he didn't progress before he turned 30-I got stuck for a while

[Deck Used: A.E. Waite Holographic Tarot]