Happy New Year !
It was a tough one that 2021, so all I can say is good riddance and good bye!
I know its almost the end of January but nevermind.
Personally I have always hated new years eve and the whole concept of starting a new. Wether its the fact that life is moving forward, the change or the fact I feel like I am not living up to what I wanted in my life; I couldn't tell you. I have recently been away on a little trip to Norfolk so the photos I share with you now is from that trip.
The first photo (Seafront) - Gives me a feeling of freshness that every day is a fresh chance to improve on the day before. Optimism and hope. A clean slate.
The second photo (Church) - Reminds me to have some faith. Although I'm not overly religious theres always a sense of power and peace at places of worship like that church. At times where I feel overwhelmed and alone, I need to remind myself of that feeling of faith.
My mental health recovery isnt linear as my therapist would say. Peaks and troughs at all different heights and depths. Its been really really really tough as of late especially after the past year. Counselling was a huge eye opening experiance, however unforunatley theres always good and bad. Memories come seeping in which you now see without those distorted glasses I was wearing. Thats been hard, but what I have learnt is talking about it with your close and trusted people around you helps massivley. Triggers hide in places you never expect. This is coming from a girl who has spent the whole weekend in bed after suffering a big breakdown on friday. Like I said in my previous post I'm hoping I can use this as a safe place to help me navigate my recovery.
I'm chatting too much now. I start a recovery course this week which I'm not too sure wether I am ready for but is anyone ever ready for that.
I want that fresh start. I want to have the life I dreamt about. In fact I deserve it and I will get there. With the unbelievable support from my partner and my friends I can do this and theres no reason why you can't either.
Stay Safe, Take Care of Yourself and most of all take it easy.
Until next time,
Meg x
