Today I’ve given myself a long overdue rest day there is “a lot” going on in this life of mine just now and last week threw a wholly unexpected and soulfully painful curveball, but I do what I do best and just carried on regardless, swimming against the tide to bring a life raft to the one who needed it to stay afloat. But my life has changed exponentially over the last 3.5 years. The childhood family home that had acted as my safety night during this time sold and I no longer have the luxury of just being able to drop everything and run back when I’m needed. I’ve nowhere to stay and having GM in tow complicates things. Life, once more, will never be the same again. My energy was running on absolute dregs yesterday, so today, as I said back at the beginning has been a rest day, for me, for my narrowboat and for GM. I went to the garden centre and replaced all of the plants that succumbed to the summer heatwave and having living, breathing greenery back on board feels wonderful. I just needed to make the time and time seems to be something I don’t have much of. I’ve booked a beach break for my birthday in December, another much needed act of self love. An “extravagance” perhaps, but one I work bloody hard for. I’m in my 50s and at a time in life where I should be able to enjoy a slowing of pace “retirement” if you will and yet I’m working harder now than I was as a single parent and then as a carer for my parent’s. I don’t think in my adult years I’ve ever experienced a time of not being “in service” so when I decide to give myself a rest day to those on the outside looking in they may see laziness but to me it’s an act of much needed self care. Supporting a single life in my 50s in a society that’s “made for two” is I reckon, my biggest but most hard fought achievement to date. But I’m tired boss, I’m not going to lie, I’m bone tired… but pretty plants 😍🧡
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