I am fucking tired.
I say that a lot, but it's because it's absolutely true. I am tired of watching cops murder Black people. I am tired of them making excuses for it. I am tired of them being caught on video describing something that doesn't exist, so that they can excuse their terrible behavior.
When George Floyd died they said that he was erratic and resisting. When Breonna Taylor was killed, she was refusing to listen, even though she was sleeping and confused when the broke into their home.
At least one Paramedic has come out to say that Police are using Ketamine when they don't need to, in order to "calm" people they are trying to arrest, down.
I am tired of waking up, or going to bed, knowing that another Black man is dead, this isn't about anyone in particular, it's about all of them. Black men are dying at an alarming rate in the United States of America, and people are fighting against their government and we're not talking about it.
I am tired of not knowing if my family is safe in New York, LA, Boston, I am tired of hearing more and more about how Joe Biden is to blame for what is happening while Donald Trump is the "Leader of the Free World."
Now they are saying "Excited Delirium" is an excuse for cops to get out of hand with the people they are trying to arrest. Excited Delirium? Really? That's fucking lame.
People respond violently, when they are afraid. It's human fucking nature, and every Cop on the planet should know that.
When you have a gun pointed at your fucking face you yell, you scream, you get afraid, it's a fucking natural thing. You freeze, you freak out. It's perfectly normal for the average human whose never seen a gun to have a mild panic attack when they finally see one.
Yet cops act like we're the ones out of control when in reality they are itching to kill someone. Did you know that Norway has only had four cop shootings in the last few years? That's because of how long it takes for them to actually become cops.
Four years.
In America all you have to do is finish high school and take ninety days of training.
In America they value the lives of white cops over the lives of Black people and they always have, and I am starting to see the same thing happened here.
I got arrested on an airplane because my body was physically in capable of breathing. When I called the Press they said that my story wasn't "important enough" to investigate. Three days later they aired a story about a dog, who also had a panic attack and was given a "breathing apparatus" to help him.
My life as a Black woman in this country is less important than that of a Dog. Thank you CTV, Global, that's good to know.
Proud Boys are finding a home here, they are finding that their Nazi rhetoric is welcome in places like Alberta and Saskatchewan. Already they are showing up to protests and hosting their own "anti gay" "straight pride" bullshit around places like Vancouver and Toronto.
It's not as pervasive here, but I know for a fact now that if we don't stomp out that hate before it's too late, we'll end up just like America in a few years, and that's a terrifying thought.
We as a society, have convinced ourselves that the consequences of our actions are a result of "God's Will" and I am just fucking over it. I don't think that God or the Creator, or whoever, created humanity just so that we could destroy ourselves and each other through cruelty and hatred.
I don't believe that our ancestors and ancient beings want us to be at war, in the middle of a pandemic with our own governments. I think that is a human choice, and I think blaming it on God is some kind of fucking bullshit.
People are dying because they are diseased, people are dying because they are being murdered, people are dying because they are killing themselves. Death is the most powerful business on this planet, because something somewhere, at some point is always dying.
Lately it just feels like all we're hearing is one Black death story after another, and I am tired. All the while Donald Trump is stoking the flames of division and men like Shaun King are using that Black death to sell books that "he doesn't get paid for", as if.
I am tired of Black death and I am tired of white people taking advantage of Black death, and I want it to stop.
I want it all to just fucking stop, for five minutes, so that we can collect our breath and realize that we're killing each other for the stupidest shit. A twenty dollar bill that "might" be fake? A Drug dealer you already have in custody? because he was going for a run in his own neighborhood? because she attended a protest? really? This is why you're out there killing us?
This isn't about whether or not white supremacy is coming, it's about the fact that Nazi's are alive and well, and every single day they are doing their best to destroy the peace that our ancestors have been fighting for centuries.
It's time we do something about that.
Vote.