Poland absorbed me completely.
I feel it in every cell of my body. It is vibrating with love and joy of being alive, being part of this surrounding wholeness.
Writing the new story belongs to us today. Changing misleading narrative starts with understanding the clue of that narrative. Where it comes from and what it tried to fix, change, upgrade. Next step would be to understand why it is misleading today in relation to tomorrow’s story. What we want to see tomorrow, even if that tomorrow will be not my tomorrow anymore.
I went to the sky today. I touched the sky today. It was the same as down there, between the trees and talking stones. It was the same as down there between whispering creek and golden leaves of autumn. The only change was that I could feel my heart I could hear my heart and I felt that I am alive. That aliveness was so pure and beautiful. That aliveness started with meeting fox and asking mountain to speak to me. She said “trust the One who brings you up to the peak”. In the palms of his hands my soul I entrusted in the beginning of the journey uphill.
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Priest looked at me, in his eyes was readiness for help. Support to me and my dear Sister. Quick blink of eyes to check if that support is needed and her voice - you are my priest. Big hug, grounding hud of Mother Earth. Thank you. Hermitage was a incredible place. Full of mystery and sacredness of the land. Calm walk to the chapel. Deep breath in and out. Cooling and warming energy at the same time. Nuns. That was their love and trust of their journey. Nuns inviting us for a prayer. We pray. We pray for the love and harmony. We pray for the unity and oneness with the universe with the surrounding nature. We are the nature and nature is us. Understanding of the now.
Love.
When it happened I don’t know maybe never. Maybe it was just a dream. Rebirth in the cave. Understanding the pleasure and fear. Understanding that fear. Understanding the fear of the pleasure. Pleasure of being. Pleasure of love.
What are you doing ladies in the cave? He asked.
We take darkness she said.
Why?
There is not much darkness left out there. Do you want to try with us?
Sure. He said.
Turn your torch off. Open your eyes and listen. Listen to your body listen to the dropping water. Be with it for a moment and breath.
That is so nice he said, we will go now to find the other cave, the “erroneous” cave. Is this the one?
This one is not erroneous but incorrectly leaded you here. All the best people.
Few minutes later rebirth had place. Rebirth of me my sisters and those who visited us.
What hides behind the first religion - what Judaism tried to solve and what Christianity tried to solve in Judaism. What was known and now is forgotten. What is kept in the cave in Hebron? Why sin was created? What is sin? Why something is seen as a sin? What it tried to protect from? How to love what was asking for love - how to love what was cursed once? Bringing love there is the best cure - the best healer is love through understanding. You only can see if you bring light to the darkness - the only proper amount of light will give you the ability to see what is needed to see in the darkness - but don’t try to overlight the darkness. Darkness is needed too.
Go and find you quiet space to understand the sound- go to find your darkest place to understand your light.
How I know the narrative is misleading? Because I can see it. Through the pain of the labour. Life is for us to live. We can do it with the pleasure (pleasure of life) We can do it with the joy. But we must understand that all is needed the sun and the rain- the rainbow is the gift of the appreciation of the rain. Snow and the burning sun. Death and the New life. All in Harmony all in natural flow of life. We are just visitors of this place. Let’s live it with grace.