Image credit goes to me. I took this image in Morocco in 2023 in the beautiful Anima Gardens.
A Journey Through Presence and Transformation
Lately, I’ve been moving through a deep shift in how I experience the world. It’s something that can’t be explained through traditional teachings or common knowledge. What I’m discovering feels raw, real, and incredibly unique, like stepping into an awareness that exists beyond what most of us are conditioned to see.
In the past, I used to think my way through life—constantly analysing, judging, and trying to make sense of everything. But now, something has changed. I’m learning to feel the world instead of thinking about it. And it’s been a process of slowing down, of pausing in a way that goes beyond the idea of “being in the now” as we’ve always been taught.
You see, the mind is always racing, always trying to hold on to a moment, trying to control. But what if the present is not something to grip onto, but something to move with? This has been my realisation: the now is not still. It’s constantly shifting, and so am I. Instead of being trapped in my mind, stuck in judgment or a time loop, I’ve begun to move with my body. I’m flowing through time and space, learning to be in harmony with life as it is, rather than trying to force it into a box my mind has built.
It hasn’t been easy. In fact, it’s terrifying. Moving with my body, especially when my mind wants to resist, brings up a lot of fear. There’s no way around it, just through. What makes it even more challenging is that while my body is beginning to feel a deep sense of calm and satisfaction—probably due to my design as a Generator in Human Design—my mind remains uneasy. It hasn’t caught up yet. My body seems toknow what it needs, even when the mind is struggling to let go.
I’m learning that the body is more accepting of this process than the mind. The body, in its natural state, is always connected to the flow of life, whether we’re aware of it or not. It’s the mind that needs more time to heal, to surrender. And though it’s scary, I’ve come to understand that this journey is not meant to be “easy.” It’s not about avoiding the fear, but about growing my capacity to hold it, to keep moving forward despite it. To stay with it until it reveals its gift of intelligence and emerging awareness. Its new thought and present insight.
What I’m experiencing might resonate with others going through something similar—especially those who are also learning to trust their body’s wisdom over their mind’s need for control. The more I practice, the more aware I become of my body’s ability to navigate this new energy. And even though it doesn’t necessarily make the journey easier, it helps me realise that I’m moving in the right direction.
I may not have all the answers yet, but that’s okay. I’m learning to trust the process and to trust myself, knowing that everything is unfolding as it should.
Ultimately, this journey of feeling the world instead of thinking it is about trust—trusting my body, trusting the process, and trusting that I am exactly where I need to be. It’s not about eliminating fear or discomfort, but expanding my capacity to hold both as I continue moving forward. The mind may take its time to catch up, but my body knows the way. I’m learning to let it guide me, one step at a time.
As you reflect on these themes, here are a few questions you can explore to deepen your own awareness:
1. How often do I allow my body to lead, rather than my mind?
2. What fears come up when I try to release control and trust the flow of life?
3. In what ways can I cultivate more presence, even when it’s uncomfortable or scary?
4. How can I begin to honour my body’s wisdom and signals, especially during times of transition?
Take time with these questions, and see what arises for you in the space of contemplation.
In reverence to all that we are
Juanita x