I think this is normal. After nearly 40 years of life, I'm almost certain that most people feel this way. We're all just stumbling along, trying to do our best, but inevitably make mistakes. The best I can do is simply Be Kind and try to make people smile.
I have committed much of my adult life to volunteerism...helping organizations in my rural community and building the kind of place I want to live in. Many of the projects I've done have been funded from my own pocket. So, I'm looking to break even with this new platform...it's a way for people to make a small contribution to the work I'm doing, and will continue to do.
I have no idea what I'm doing, but I'm having fun doing it.