[T/N] I apologize for grammar mistakes and incoherencies
Chapter 3: Not Jealous is Not Jealous.
[Vee Vivis].
Collapse.
The bed and the person collapsed together.
I saw the person lying next to me and I could only restrain my own desires. The bed is in disarray, indicating how heavy last night was. The white shoulder that peeks out from under the blanket bears faint marks because I always think of Mark asking me to not leave deeper marks. The appearance of the person who couldn't sleep at night looks exhausted but also satisfied. Satisfied enough to make me want to bend down and forcefully claim him again. If it weren't for the fact that last night I was too self-indulgent, I would probably continue in the morning.
"Hmm." Mark shifted closer, maybe because the sunlight coming through the curtains indicated that there was still time left to sleep. I still didn't wake him up. As he adjusted the blanket covering his body, it slipped down to his waist, revealing a beautiful backside with fading marks that I deliberately left. Yes, regarding marking the upper portion of his body, I followed Mark's request, but the lower portion made it clear that he should also comply with what I wanted. And now, seeing it like this in the morning, it reminds me of the intimacy we just experienced.
"You're too tempting." I've complained like this several times, but I can't do anything about it now. I can only pull the blanket up to cover him halfway, to prevent his body from teasing me beyond this point. After all, this is just a nap. If it were to move, he would probably sleep the entire day.
"Hmm..." I turned to look at the person who made a dry, pitiful sound in their throat, but I still refused to get up and get them water. I wanted to see them wake up with sleepy eyes, and then rise up to mess with my own hair.
"It's morning." I said, reaching out to Mark and gently shaking his shoulder.
"Not yet."
"Are you still half asleep?" I leaned down to whisper in his ear and playfully nibble on that area. Mark forgot to open his eyes and looked at me.
"Almost, just a little longer."
"Huh, don't tease me first."
"Ah, um~" I leaned down and kissed those swollen lips again before pulling away.
"I'll go get water for you."
"Hurry." He said and tossed the pillow under my head. I held onto it while pointing at him.
"You'll suffer more than this."
"Don't make empty threats, Phii Vee."
"Do you want me to?"
"I don't want..." he replied.
I grinned when I saw his sleepy face in the morning. Mark measured me with his eyes, staring at me when he saw me smile like that. His mouth opened and then closed, as if he wanted to complain, but then realised that there was no sound.
"So cute in the morning, aren't you?" I teased, running my fingers through his long, tangled hair.
"Water..."
"Yes, sir."
I have been living with Mark since we first started dating. Actually, I secretly lived with him before we started dating. After we started dating, I didn't go anywhere when I graduated. Even though I only live here, I don't go back home, except on days when my mom wants to see Mark and he is free. The reason I stay is because there is nothing else for me outside. Besides, my older brother still lives at home. He finished school and got a freelance design job, so he's still there. How can I take Mark back with me?
"Can I have breakfast on time?" Mark asked after coming out of the bathroom. I turned to look at the clock and paused.
"What do you want to eat?"
"Asking seems to make me eat."
"I'll warm it up for you. You know I can't cook." I replied. Neither of us can cook anything that requires skill, like curries, soups, or stir-fries, so we avoid them. At most, we have scrambled eggs and toast to survive when there is nothing in the refrigerator.
"I feel like eating grilled pork." He said.
"Then, let's stop by and buy it and eat in the car." I replied, and I went in to get the dark-coloured towel and slowly squeezed the water out of my hair.
"Hmm... after swimming today, I'm done." Mark said, his face wrinkled as if he was annoyed by something.
"Whatsup? I'm waiting for you."
"Did Mom tell you to go find her?"
"Hmm, it seems that someone wants me to work with them." I said, and the person who wrinkled their nose at me moved away.
"Where?"
"Chonburi." His handsome face frowned visibly. His eyes that sent me signals showed that he didn't like it, but his mouth didn't say anything.
"It's far."
"I haven't said if I will do it or not, just going to see my mom." I replied.
"But you have to answer Mom if you will do it or not."
"Hmm... I have been avoiding it for a long time."
"Tell her to wait until you graduate. It's only a few more months."
"I'm afraid I won't have enough money to support you." I said, trying to make it sound like a joke, but deep down I didn't want to go anywhere.
"I don't think you need to take care of me. I have money."
"It's your father in law's money, he earned it. He is going to kick me away from the son in law position if I don't take care of you well." I thought to myself and handed Mark over the way.
"I only have a little bit of stock money, but I still have some."
"But I don't have it like you do, so I have to... work and spend it with you." I said, looking straight into Mark's eyes. If it was just me trying to survive, I wouldn't bother struggling, but now I have Mark. I want to take care of him, make him proud to have me as a boyfriend. I want to show his parents that they can trust their son with me.
"I'm hungry." A soft voice murmured and the beautiful eyes glanced down at the floor for me to notice.
"Do you understand?"
"I understand... but I don't want you to go."
"Mark."
"I know already, I'm hungry." He said and walked away, turning to get his shirt from the closet. I was left not knowing what to do. I reached out and took my own shirt that had been left in the drawer for a long time, and handed it to him.
"Wear mine."
"...". The smaller person didn't say anything, he turned back to accept my shirt.
"Don't worry, Mark." I said and walked towards him.
"I just don't want you to go."
"I'm not going. I'm just going to talk to my mom. Well, I'll wait for you then." I said and went out, and Mark's eyes narrowed as he looked at me.
"Mom can’t wait. I don't want to be silly, but I just..."
"..."
"I'm just scared that I'll miss you too much." He said, raising his spoon to look at me.
"Then if I go, I will miss you more."
Missing someone can kill many people, especially me. The distance scares many people, and the change in lifestyle worries many more. I'm one of those many people, and Mark is the same. So I understand him and try to find a way to deal with the upcoming changes.
I have grown up and now I have to live like an adult. Love like an adult, love steadfastly, love with trust and understanding. Even though we are already like this every day, still, it has to be more. Everything has to be more.
"When will you come back to pick me up?" I turned to look at the person who asked and took a deep breath.
"When your class ends..."
"Three in the afternoon."
"That's it." After saying that, the other person paused, as if understanding but still seemed disappointed.
"Just go."
"You haven't gotten out of the car yet." I said, and Mark glanced at me.
"Hmm." He said and turned to open the door.
"Mark."
"What?"
"You haven't kissed yet." And the handsome face started to frown, indicating anger, but I continued to tease, "Hurry up." I said and leaned towards him.
"No kissing."
"Then you don't have to get out." I said and locked the door.
"Phii Vee."
"Kiss me."
"..." I was then kissed.
"That's it." I said.
"Do you want more than kissing?"
"Do you want to get hurt? We can still get it in the car. We can do it here." I said and looked around the parking lot.
"Shameless." He said with a clear face, blushing.
"Well, then I won't go. I'll go have lunch with my mom and come back to watch you swimming." I moved closer and whispered, making Mark widen his eyes and look at me.
"You can go. I understand."
"Don't speak yet, it will be a long story. I'll listen first, no matter what, I'll still ask you later." I said.
"Uhh."
"Go study."
"I'm going now. Unlock... Oh!" I moved closer to Mark and pulled him in for a slow kiss, a kiss that Mark did not expect, but I was determined.
"Kiss! Pay attention to your studies." I pressed my lips against his sweet corner and whispered softly.
"I know."
"Don't blush, or you'll get teased."
"Just go already!" Ugh. If we're apart today, I'll make sure to kiss him until he feels embarrassed tomorrow. Whatever it takes, I'm willing to stay away for that long.
…
I drove home around noon. I said I would come to eat with my mom, so I came to eat. I didn't bring anything, I didn't know what my mom wanted me to bring. I only brought myself, my heart was not there, my heart was in school.
"Where's Yuu?? Mom, is he not awake yet?" I asked as I walked into the house.
"Why don't you call your brother, Phii? Hmph."
"He was born one year before me, that's why, mom." I said that and sat down at my usual seat. Before, I had four chairs at the dining table. Now there are five.
"The reason was born one year earlier too." Dad said.
"If you; dad is my dad, you don't have to call me son, just call me Ai’Vee instead." I replied.
"Oh, you brat."
"Well, your day is your dad. Why are you scolding your son?" Mom said, telling dad to go first before he starts bothering me. As for me, I just gave a playful smile to dad and waited for food from mom, that's all.
"Wait, I am waiting for you to go to the temple, so I can scold him."
"Well, that is not nice." I said and turned my face back and forth.
"And when I go to pay respects, will you wake up and scold your son?" Mom turned and asked dad with a smile, and dad fell silent.
"Uh?"
"Dad, you're not really my dad."
"Are you the husband?"
"It's a joke."
----.
"Uh, uh, you have fun and talk to your mom quietly." Dad said and walked over to sit at his own place.
"It's the same with you dad. When you talk to mom, you are so quiet too."
"You wanna repeat everything you said?"
"Husband, it's time for us to eat." Mom said and started serving food for dad.
"So, Yuu isn't coming to eat?" I asked.
"He just went to sleep in the morning."
"Working?"
"Playing video games." Mom answered and smiled at me.
"Wow, what a jobless person." I complained and started scooping rice to eat.
"It's the same for both older and younger siblings. But you just finished your semester and didn't play games yesterday, so it's good to take a break." Mom said.
"Mom, you coddle him too much."
"It's the same with how your father coddles you. How is it? You're almost graduating." Mom said.
"A few more months, Mom." It will be more than three or four months until I graduate, then find a job, go for interviews, and have appointments. It will take a long time.
"And how about Barr and other friends? I haven't heard any news. They don't come to see me either, like before."
"Mom, don't mention your child's friends. Your child is hardly ever home." Dad said and mom laughed.
"That's right. Have you met? How is it going?" Mom asked.
"Barr is with his boyfriend."
"Is he handsome? I really like him."
"I'm more handsome!" Dad and I said at the same time, and then mom stopped admiring Tossakan and turned to look at us.
"You two are such a harmonious family." Mom sighed.
"I'm more handsome than this. Stop talking about him. Nuea has gone home most likely to help him with his family business first. Yihwaa is still rotating around here, like she's going to continue studying. As for the others, they already have jobs." I said.
"You rarely see each other like this anymore."
"That's true, mom, but we're still in touch. In this chat group." I said, pausing for a moment.
"It's great these days. We have phones, we have the internet. Are you still afraid of being apart? The world is so close." Mom said.
"Come on, mom. We can talk on the chat, but we can't hug. Not hugging will make me."
"But you need to work and earn money to support your wife, right?" Dad sighed. I looked at him with a concerned expression.
"Do you want to work here? Your dad’s friend is the manager there." Mom said and handed me some documents.
"It's far away, mom. I don't know who will take care of you and dad, if I go to work far. Yuu... well, who knows where he is now." I said, and mom smiled while dad sighed.
"Are you worried about me and mom, or are you worried about your wife."
"Worried about you and mom, but worried about my wife." I said, feeling a bit gloomy.
Let's think about it. Close enough, I am always watching. Those sleazy guys who seem to bark every time they look at us, some of them are really annoying. But my boyfriend ignores them. It's easy, my boyfriend is a good man. He just needs to only say how much he loves me once and there's no reason for us to argue. But I miss him, nothing else, but I miss him. Because I miss him, I will not let go. I'm not afraid. It's not that I don't trust him, but my love is just too much that I can't let go, just like him.
"Don't bother him too much, Vee, he will get annoyed." Dad said.
"If he could be annoyed, he would have been annoyed from the beginning, dad. Before, I bothered him more than this." I said.
"Not anymore. I think now Vee you miss him more than when you just started dating."
"Really?"
"If he doesn't class, you'll probably drag him along with you everywhere." Dad said, and I burst into laughter, like a real father and son.
"Dad, you are talking too much." I said.
"And is what your father is saying true?"
"It's true, mom." I answered, feeling embarrassed.
"Well, the reason you won't go far is because of your nong, right?" Dad asked again. I paused for a moment.
"But I will go see it. I'll ask Mark about it." I said and grabbed that document, pushed my plate aside, and took a sip of water.
"It's not a problem if you understand and trust each other, even if you are far apart,” said Dad.
"Have you and Mom ever been far apart?"
"Well, no. What would make me distance myself from my wife?" Dad is like this, so it doesn't make him feel like he's still a bachelor. The words he uses, his actions, and the way he speaks are just like how I talk to my friends. There is nothing wrong with that. But the lesson has been taught to me so many times.
"Then let's stop talking about it.” I said.
"Well, it's because I understand. That's why I'm giving you this position. This position has weekends off. The work is a bit heavy, but the pay is good. You'll be able to make money quickly and come back to be with your wife." Dad said. I looked at the documents in front of me. They've been on my mind since the weekend.
"You can make plans for after you graduate or make plans for next year. You can go on vacation with your wife first and then do it. You can meet on holidays or if you miss your mother, she can come and see you." Mom said.
That's what I'm thinking too. My work plans are similar to what my mom said. There must be days that we set to meet or see each other. I can't stand not seeing Mark's face for too long.
"And don't think that I want you to do it. I will support you if you don't want to. If it can make your life easier, go for it. Others do it too."
"Why do you have to impose these thoughts on your child? Especially when you know he doesn't want to do it. Don't let him think they have to."
"That's what I meant. As a child, you have to learn to work well. If you can't pass, it's okay to quit. If you can't do it well, you'll be pressured. Just having more opportunities than others doesn't mean you'll have them all the time. You know how other people see you. You have to prove to yourself more than others, understand?" Dad spoke at length, and I understood every word he said. But when did I say I agreed to do it? I want to do it, but I still need to ask Mark before making a decision.
"Didn't I already say I would do it?"
"You, kid..."
"I want to talk to Mark first." I folded the documents I was reading and put them back in the envelope like before.
"Just talk to him. Talk until you understand each other and come up with a plan, okay?" Mom said. I paused and nodded.
"If my father in law wasn't the owner of a multi-million business, I wouldn't have gone through so much trouble in life. It's better to have millions of dollars like him. Oh well, make some money first, Vee. Make some money." Dad said. I let out a sigh of understanding.
Mark doesn't have to do much. Like he said, he doesn't have to work and still has tens of thousands of money to spend. Even if his Dad and Mom don't support him, he still has money from the shares in Dad's company. It may not be a lot, maybe half or a fraction, but it's enough for life. It's tens of thousands of money that he can use easily. It's different for me; I have to work hard to get it. Even though his life is not too difficult, I don't want Mark to have a harder time than he already has.
"Dad, don't look down on me.” I said that.
"Do you think money is easy to find?"
"It's not easy at all.” Nowadays, I manage to save some money every day, and my parents give me some as well. But once it's gone, I don't want to bother them, so I use my own money. Before, when I was in my second year, I used to do some freelance work and other jobs. My dad would help me with some of his work, but it's still not enough.
"Do you have any spending money, dear?"
"Yes, I do, mom."
"If you don't, just let me know. Don't starve yourself.” said mom.
"Well, if you have money and you have no use for it, can't you just give it to Mark?" dad added.
"Dad, it's not like I've never had a lover before. I used to give my own money to them.” I said.
"I know you've had a girlfriend before. I heard Yuu say that you're stupid, and I thought you didn't know."
"Dad! I don't want to talk about this anymore. It's annoying." I said, getting ready to leave.
"Stop pretending to be annoyed. Do you think I don't notice that you're going to see Mark?" dad said, looking at the clock.
"See him? It's just the afternoon.” I replied.
"And aren't you going to meet Mark?"
"Yes, I am."
"There you go.” dad said.
"If you're free, why don't you bring him to have dinner with us?" mom suggested.
"If we have time to eat together, it's a blessing, mom."
"He doesn't have time, so give him our free time.” dad said. "It's already the afternoon. Just go have dinner with him or choose to have dinner later."
"Dad... You're amazing, you know that?" I said.
"Of course, I have to be amazing. You only have one dad.” dad said. I started laughing, and mom gently hit dad.
This is how our family is. Our home is like this. Without dad, my life wouldn't be as sweet, maybe a bit tough, but mom accepts it all. Mom orders me to do everything. Dad is very talented and independent, to the point of refusing offers from famous companies to open his own repair shop. He refused all those high paying jobs so that he could be with mom all the time. He understands the difficulties of life, so he told me to work. He taught me to give time to the people I love and to build myself. I want to become at least half as capable as my dad, both in talent and in the ability to love.
I drove back to the university and parked near the swimming pool. I went to study and wore my student uniform. I had friends and a group of people. At least there was Fuse and Kampan with me, always by my side. But when it came to swimming, there was no one there except for a first-year student who was looking at him. The girls were jealous, and the boys were looking. My boyfriend could be pregnant with my child, and those sleazes will try to woo him.
But I'm sorry but the only person who could have him is me.
"Isn't he amazing? Phii Mark’s body is really good."
"Uh, it's just fair skin."
"Take a picture of him."
"Sexy, huh?" I stopped and turned back to look at a group of kids who were talking. One of the kids was speaking, and his eyes were looking at Mark who was adjusting himself. Mark didn't hear anything, nor did he see the redness behind, but how did they know? Did they follow us with that big camera?
"When is he going to take off his shirt and go swimming?"
"You're crossing the line, Tew."
"Well, I like him."
"Doesn't he have a boyfriend?"
"Uh, he does. His boyfriend is handsome. You can't compete with him."
"I can only look. Won't say anything." My friend teased, and the other kid made a fake expression and moved his eyebrows.
"I know, it's Phii Vee, right? Phii Mark loves Phii Vee. I've known for a long time. I won't fight. I'll just watch casually." That tall kid said. I shook my head and continued walking to find Mark.
It's just another kid who likes Mark, just like everyone else, but I'm sorry, Mark belongs to me. Likes me, falls for me, loves me, and it's not like an ordinary relationship. Everything that Mark gives me, it's so much, just like everything I give Mark in return. It's so much that there's no way to look at anyone else... The person who can only look, don't cry like that. Forget about being older and look at the two people who love each other. We'll love each other deeply for a long time.
"Mark!" I called the person who was looking at one of the first-year students and walked to meet him.
"Just got here?" Mark walked towards me.
"Yeah, are you going swimming?" I asked and scanned him. Mark and I weren't into PDA, when we were out we did not show sweet moments or skinship. If I felt comfortable enough, I would just put my arm around him, hold his waist, or grab his arm. But right now, I just stood close and used my eyes to express my attachment.
"No, I am going to watch the other students swim a little more and then go back, Chat, keep watching."
"Alright, I don't want to take it off." I said and I placed my hand on Mark's head. He flinched a little and then smiled at me. Mark looked at me with confusion because we don't usually do this, but right now I don't care about the confusion in Mark's eyes. I'm more interested in the gaze that is looking at us. What do you think? Just come and look, okay? You can take a picture if you want..
I know that you just came to look.
As for me, I declare myself the owner.
TBC.
Chapter 4: The Ownership.
[Mark Masa]
"What is it?" I frowned and looked at Phii Vee, who still hadn't taken his hand off my head, and then he slowly let go of me.
"Declaring ownership.” said Fuse, and I had to frown even more.
"On what? I don't see anything."
"Those groups of kids have been watching you for a while. Even if you don't see them in your line of sight because you're only looking at Phii Vee." Fuse said and then gestured towards those kids. I turned to look and had to frown even more. Their faces looked familiar but I couldn't remember, but it's okay because no matter what, I can't go and introduce myself like I used to. As Fuse said, my eyes only search for Phii Vee. Even though my mouth says it's not true, my heart still waits for him to come find me for a long time.
"Are you only looking at me?" Then the tall person standing next to me asked.
"What do you want to believe? Fuse." I replied and walked away from this spot pretending to look at my little brother who was being held.
"Oh... that's true. From now on, I will record videos as evidence. It's better than doing a live stream." Fuse followed me and said.
"Keep an eye on Phii Anna instead. “ I said at Fuse.
“Why do I need to keep watch on him? He's studying. I'm free, when he finishes class, I'll go pick him up. Don't worry, I'm all sweet." He pretended to be annoyed and smiled mischievously again.
"You don't have to go look at him like that. Just tell him that we're sweet too." Phii Vee said and then patted my face.
"No, I don't want to brag. I don't like people who show off." I said.
"Don't brag? just be careful someone else might come and brag instead." Fuse said, asking me to look at it again.
"No, I don't want to. Go find your own dentist." Phii Vee said and then gestured to shoo away Fuse.
"It's not even two o'clock yet.” he said, then turned and walked in a different direction. At this point, there were only me, Phii Vee, and the eyes that were looking at us. They were looking at us without any barriers, and I could feel it, you know? But that's it... I acted like I didn't care, while Phii Vee acted as if there was nothing and followed me.
From being a first-year kid who secretly liked a senior in the club, now I have become the one in charge of this club. I look at the new juniors who have joined and see how well they can swim. But no matter how I look, I still miss Phii Barr. When it comes to swimming, he is my idol. As for love... he can be considered the first love in the university. Even though it didn't work out, it was a good story that led me to meet someone else.
"What's wrong with you? You're not cute at all.” I said, but I actually love him a lot.
"What's wrong? I'm not wrong.” I replied and looked around.
"Order them to get out of the pool, it will be dark soon.” Phii Vee said.
"Who can order them? And why are you just sitting there?" I challenged him.
"Do you like it this way?" Phii Vee asked, approaching me with a smug face. He is good at making me embarrassed.
"Step back. People are watching.” I said and pushed Phii Vee's face away.
"I won't step back."
"Phii Vee, in five minutes, Phii Pon will order them to stop.” I said seriously and moved away from him. I didn't care about the laughter that was going on there. Because now I hurriedly went to hide from Phii Vee's gaze and handsome face, and joined the staff gathered together.
This is a training session for the new athletes. It will happen in a few days, but it's not something that needs to be stressed about. Because the goal of my faculty this year is for fun, emphasising participation rather than competition. Even though the fourth-year seniors have some expectations, let it be.
Everything has changed in these two years. It changes slowly and abruptly, but I gradually accept and learn from it, with Phii Vee always there to teach and advise me. He never prohibits me from choosing my own path, even if it's different from what he thinks or what he used to do. He just asks how I felt when he was doing the hazing during my class year, and then tells me the good and bad consequences he had to take responsibility for.
"During the race, you should focus. Even though they say not to expect anything, I still want to win.” Phii Pon said, and then we all burst into laughter, unable to control ourselves.
"If we win medals, do we get prizes, Phii?" one junior raised their hand and asked.
"What do you want as a prize?" Phii asked.
"I want Phii Mark.” the junior said, and as soon as they said it, Phii Pon sighed.
"Nong Ran, can you see Phii Vee?" Phii Pon said and pointed to where Phii Vee was playing with his phone by the pool.
Ran became my junior in the first year and clearly showed that he liked me. He used the word "My Ting" which Phii Vee understood but he didn't really understand what it meant to be a "Ting" of kids these days. Even though he wasn't old, he still liked old-fashioned things. He didn't know what a "Ting" was and he didn't understand a "Ting" that didn't want anything from him. That's another reason why Phii Vee often followed me. Because I was somewhat familiar to the younger ones.
"Hey... take me with you." Ran said sadly, attracting laughter from many people until Phii Vee looked at us. He raised his eyebrows as if asking what was going on, but I just shrugged and replied.
"Enough for today, it's getting late. Today, that's it." I said, and Ran said goodbye and left, bidding another farewell.
I never thought someone like me could do something like this. To stand and watch, stand and control, and teach others like this. At first, I wasn't sure about doing it because of my personality and many other things, but Phii Barr said that if I didn't do it, who would? At that time, Phii Vee was almost speechless, but when I said that swimming was something I liked almost as much as studying engineering, he started to understand.
"What are you thinking about, you nerd?" Phii Vee came over and asked.
"Phii Barr."
"Nong Mark."
"I'm just thinking about Phii Barr in a way that even when I see water, I can't help but think of him." I replied honestly.
"Oh."
"Phii Vee... hey, are you angry?" I asked back, nudging him lightly.
"No." Well... Fuse once said that it feels like the world is going to explode when someone messes around with his boyfriend and he gets really mad. It's like that.
"Phii Vee..."
"...you miss him." Phii Vee said after a long silence. I walked up to him and grabbed his arm.
"I just miss him. I don't like him anymore." I emphasised.
"If you miss him, then you still like him, don't you? I'm right here." Phii Vee said angrily.
"I just... it's like when you miss your classmates. I miss my swimming buddies."
"Stop it, I never miss them." Should I pity myself for not being able to find a way to refute, or should I pity my friend for being teased first?
"Okay, I won't miss him anymore." I said and raised my hand in surrender.
"Fine."
"What else?" I asked.
"What else? I am still angry.” he replied.
"..." I raised my eyebrows, asking how he would do it.
"Come take this kind of picture outside with me.” Phii Vee said and handed me his phone. It was a picture of Phii Barr wearing a suit and Tossakan wearing a gown. It wasn't just one picture, but an album compiled by Tossakan himself.
TOSSAKAN.
30 min.
Graduated. Doctor is taking care of me. With Bar Sarawut.
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Bar Sarawut: I've received the gear.
Tone Kla: Are you afraid he won't know if you have received it.
Nnorthh: Wait for me first.
Pin pinna: Are you going with your friends?
Pandora: December graduation, let's take pictures together.
White clouds floating in the sky: Who's inviting us to the graduation?
Yiwaa: No, it's not an outside photoshoot.
TOSSAKAN: This is a pre-wedding.
Toot Li Studying Mechanics: Dead.
Lucky Man: Too much.
Rammie Ram: Pre-wedding, nnorthh.
Nnorthh: Got it.
Pandora: Where's my father, Vee Vivis?
Vee Vivis: Looking for location.
U unun: Playing big.
Future Forfun: Don't agree, bro.
"Phii you mean..." And then I think of Phii Vee's request to go take pictures outside. It means going to take pictures with him in various locations. And he wants to take pictures like Phii Bar and Tosakan as well. Can't fight it, right?
"Wow, let's do this." Is this for the graduation or pre-wedding shoot?
"Did you propose yet?" I ask.
"Not proposed yet, but we are already engaged. Engaged to the point of planning the wedding." And the eyes that used to be angry just now soften and play with the sentence, making me realise that he's not really angry or maybe not angry at all but just finding a reason for me to agree.
"Phii Vee."
"Don't you know? I want to take pictures. Barr borrowed the gown from Phii Teng, so I borrowed my brother's gown." Phii Vee says.
"You mean Phii Yuu?"
"Yuu is a year older, he's been studying for five years."
"Oh, I forgot."
"Well, don't change the subject. Agree first.” says Phii Vee.
"And after the sports competition?"
"Agreed, it's settled." He looks at me with a mischievous smile.
"And the camera..."
"Agreed first, let me handle the rest."
"Okay then, let's take the pictures." Just taking pictures outside, why does it feel like we're getting married? It's like I'm trying to escape from a wedding. Others don't rush into things like this.
But I'm glad that Phii Vee only went that far. Because not long after that, photos of famous senior models came out for everyone to admire, taken by many famous photographers. Both amateur and professional.
I understand Phii Vee's words now. His words about handling things on his own were actually very easy. As soon as we returned to the room, the tall guy lay down on the bed, pressing his phone without paying attention to me, until I showered and went to bed to sleep. Phii Vee still hasn't put down his phone yet.
"Well Dew... I want it that way." As soon as there was a phone call, Phii Vee stood up and sat in the middle of the bed to talk. He looked at me sternly before waving his hand to call me over, and my legs walked towards him without my brain catching up. As for Phii Vee... his backbone often competes with his heart, while my brain... when it comes to a person named Veevis, it doesn't work anymore.
"I've never been sweet like this. I'm not sweet like that, I want to keep it understood." Phii Vee said with the end of the line, as I walked closer to him, he moved to sit beside me. This was Phii Vee's way of revealing himself, accepting that I was there while talking to anyone. It was a confirmation of his sincerity, by hugging my neck and putting his ear next to mine to listen.
[I'm not available, leave me alone. When I called asking for photos for my page, you said you were busy. What is it that you are bothering me now?" The voice at the end of the line was Dew's voice. I remembered, she was the owner of a popular page at University. She trended several news topics and, importantly, he was very skilled at capturing photos.
"I didn't think about it back then."
[Why can you think about it now?]
"Someone secretly took a photo of him." Phii Vee said and took out his phone to open the speaker, then threw it between us. As for himself, he slumped down and laid his head on me.
"Phii Vee..."
"Yes, I'm talking." It was a phrase that meant "don't worry" and agreed to be a pillow and nothing more.
[Are you two living together?]
"Yes."
[Well, if you want to see Mark from a beautiful angle, I'll find someone who can take better photos for you.] Dew said in response.
"If it's not you..."
[Don't worry too much, Vee. I'll find someone who can take better photos than me. Are you satisfied?] Dew replied, sounding like he understood Phii Vee's feelings, but let's look at his handsome face now, it's about to fade away.
"Well, I want you to take it."
[Wait until next year.]
"Uh-huh."
[Are you going to wait?]
"Find someone for yourself, I want to have a photo taken before I die." Phii Vee said and immediately hung up on Dew. After that, there was a chat message coming from Dew, criticising Phii Vee for having no manners, and I quietly agreed.
Dew Daly: Vee, you rude person without manners.
Dew Daly: I curse you for following this page.
"You do deserve criticism." I think after reading Phii Dew's message.
"I talked to her from getting in the car until now. In conclusion, she didn't give me a chance." Phii Vee complained and sent a furious sticker to Phii Dew.
"Did she ever contact you to take photos of us together?" I asked, then I lowered my head to look at the person lying on the bed.
"Oh, everyone took pictures together, but at that time, I didn't want to take photos." Phii Vee said.
"What if no one came to secretly take my picture, would you take one?" I asked back.
"I guess it's up to you."
"Up to me? This is your job." It's his graduation project, whether he comes or not, what does it have to do with me??
"My job is irrelevant. Your part is relevant." My cheeks heated up as Phii Vee said that and leaned closer to look at me.
"Phii... What about the job?"
"Change subject." Phii Vee continued, before picking up the phone to play. I caught a glimpse of him angrily commenting on the album of Phii Barr and Tossakan and then added more comments.
Vee Vivis: Can't wait to meet you.
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Phii Vee commented like that, following Phii Nuea's comment saying that he would wait for more grapes from the vineyard before becoming a lotion that no one else could use except him and Phra Ram. The overwhelming popularity of Phii Vee, however, probably weighed heavily on his mind, but for me, anywhere is fine. If you ask me, I don't need to take any photos. We can take it ourselves, but if he wants to keep it as a memory and show it to others that we still love each other, I have no problem taking it. Even though I feel a little embarrassed when I think about it, well... I should have something that he finds overwhelmingly popular to look at, before he goes on and lives like an adult and waits for me to catch up.
"Just tell me about it." I replied, as he still didn't want to open his mouth and tell me about his conversation with his mother, but I had already made up my mind that the job he had to do would be far away from here. Far away from me.
"It's a company where my friend's father is the manager, he knows me and wants me to go work there. It also has days off. Dad said the bonus might be collected quickly. And I thought the job details looked interesting...."
"Hmm...."
"But I haven't agreed to the interview date yet." He replied again.
"So, what if you were to do it?" If my brother tells me that he wants it enough to contact my father like this, I think he really wants Phii Vee to work as well.
"Well, but we have to talk first, right?" Phii Vee replied.
"Then you schedule an interview first. After the interview, you can make a decision." I said, bowing my head and looking at Phii Vee again.
"And what about you??" Phii Vee asked.
"It depends on what you want."
"I think it's good. Take Saturdays and Sundays off. If you miss me, we can arrange to meet. Even if it's a bit far." Phii Vee said, and I had already been thinking about that.
I had already thought about it. No matter what, he would have to find a job and work, and of course, I would only miss him from time to time. But no matter what, the day we are separated will definitely come. He has to live his own life, and I have to try to make my own life better when he's not around. If I miss him a lot, I'll just go find him. If he doesn't have time, I'll be the one who sacrifices my own time to find him.
Chonburi is not that far away.
"Don't think like that. I will come to your place." I said and smiled at him.
"I don't want to be apart."
"I don't want to either."
"But if we're apart and you miss me more, think of me more, love me more, that would be good." Phii Vee said and held my hand tightly, then kissed my fingers.
"Don't make me miss you too much." I whispered and gently brushed his cheek with my hand.
"Do you want me to miss you?"
"I miss you every day. I love you every day." And then Phii Vee smiled when he heard the words "I love you" from me, and it was strange how his smile made me smile back.
"Damn... I've fallen for you again." Phii Vee said and leaned down to kiss my lips softly.
"Promise me that you won't make me miss you." I said.
"You're already making a promise even though I haven't gone anywhere?" Phii Vee said.
"Let's keep it for now." I said and then pulled my face away, lowered my arms and legs onto the bed, and Phii Vee himself raised his head to look at me.
"I don't see why not. Nowadays, all I see is Mark looking for Phii Vee, that's it." And with that, my cheeks started to flush again, knowing the reason why.
"Well then... you can go take a shower now. I'm going to bed." I said, pushing Phii Vee off the tub, but he didn't budge.
"You don't want to help me with showering, huh? Yesterday, I helped you with showering." Phii Vee said, and the look he gave me reflected the image in the mirror from yesterday.
"Dream on." I said, pushing Phii Vee down onto the bed.
"You're amazing, Mark." Phii Vee said in a scolding tone and then patted his own neck.
"It's not like I used much force, just a gentle push." I replied.
"You're hard-hearted. Remember that."
"Go, shower."
"Yes, sir." And then Phii Vee finally got off the bed when I emphasised again.
There's nothing quite like the name Vee. I believed that already when I was with him like this. Phii Vee never showed any less concern. When he wants to be sweet, it's like a sweet river that I dissolve into, the honey-scented nectar of his. But when he's possessive or concerned, it's not any less intense. He can get possessive to the point where I have to be silent. possessive to the point where sometimes I want to cry. Concerned to the point where I want to lock myself in the room. Not just Phii Vee who wants to close his eyes to those who look at me. I myself want to too. Not that I'm concerned about him, but possessive about him, entirely different. But everything Vee does, I know it's because he loves me. Why wouldn't I know when I myself am no different from him? Even though I remain calm when people come to take pictures with Phii Vee, deep down I want to slap them when he's that close to Phii Vee. But I just take a deep breath and keep a calm face, telling myself that Phii Vee doesn't feel anything. Because those people aren't me.
I'm not self-absorbed, but it's clear that Phii Vee is infatuated with me.
…
The morning of our day began with me waking up and looking at Phii Vee.
Looking obsessively like he himself has never seen my eyes like this. Because I usually look like this when he's not aware. I don't want him to feel overwhelmed, and I want him to continue doing what he's been doing. Making me obsessed, making me love him. In the way that I want others to envy, even though he's won over everyone in the world for me.
I moved my head up and leaned my hand against the beautiful frame softly enough that Phii Vee probably wouldn't feel it. Phii Vee is still stunning, just as beautiful as before. His beauty and charm didn't diminish even a bit, how could it? Even as he ages a few years, he looks even better than before. Phii Vee didn't try anything. I don't know how he takes care of himself, but his face is still radiant and soft every time I touch it. His body is still the athletic body that is enviable, even though he may only kick the ball occasionally. He's perfect to the point where I have to take care of myself to be deserving of him.
"Do you want to eat me instead of breakfast? If you are going to look at me like that." And I hesitated my hand at the end of my chin, slowly pulling it back when I realised the person lying down had woken up.
"Have you been awake for a long time?"
"I felt it as soon as you touched my cheek, and then I opened my eyes when you stopped touching." Phii Vee said and pulled my hand back to his cheek like before, closed his beautiful eyes again, and his handsome face snuggled against my waist.
"Are you still sleepy?"
"Not sleepy anymore, but I want to sleep."
"Oh...."
"I want to sleep while hugging you." He said, and not enough with his tall body, he leaned to the side and earnestly wrapped his waist around mine.
"Phii Vee, let go first." I said and slowly removed my hand hugging that squid from my waist.
"What? No hugging?" Phii Vee raised his face to look at me, his handsome face looked annoyed and I looked back at him quietly.
"I want to actually sleep while hugging." I said to the person with a hot heart like that, and he slowly relaxed his tense expression and pulled me down to sleep.
"Don't speak too fast." Phii Vee said next to my ear.
"Your heart is too hot." I replied.
"Today is a day off."
"Hmm...."
"Let's sleep hugging for a long time." Phii Vee asked and I paused my face and turned away.
"I'm hungry, wake up." I said back.
"As you wish, but can I have more than just a short hug?" Phii Vee said again.
"As you wish, my love." I answered like that, and the lips that I hadn't mentioned that were very soft and beautiful of Phii Vee pressed against my cheek. They kissed from there and then moved to meet my lips. The softness of the two of us touched and gradually melded into each other. Our tongues slipped into touch and slowly conveyed sweetness to each other. We exchanged breaths and slowly swallowed each other, lingering and slow.
"Hmm."
"Ah...."
Waking up and looking at my partner in the morning, followed by sweet kisses before having breakfast, is something that brings immense happiness. I have dreamt of having a love life like this, and Phii Vee is that person. It was not easy to get to this point, but he is the person I am determined to cherish for as long as possible.
kiss
"Can you not have breakfast today?" Phii Vee asked.
"What if I'm hungry?"
"You can eat me." How can he manage to be so caring?
"That's enough, tell me to hug you." I said, and he leaned in, lowering his lips to meet mine again.
"Okay."
"I want more than just a hug."
"Just a little bit, okay." I playfully repeated Phii Vee's words, and the person who said them took a deep breath.
"I'm fine with waking up." Then he complained, making me laugh.
"Phii Vee..."
"Hmm?"
Snap! I took a picture of the handsome man who still looks attractive just after waking up, and I stared at it. He frowned, scrunching up his forehead, and then stopped frowning when he realised I was up to something.
"Go take a shower."
"Think about the photo fee first."
"No, please~." And then I got kissed. I wanted to push away his charming face and scold him for being so loud, but I decided to just let it be.
Because I enjoy kissing Phii Vee.
TBC