Hello there, my precious rocks! How's life going? Too fast? Too slow?
For me it's... I don't even know. It changes every single second. Sometimes I just want to stop the planet and get off. Other times I want to write 24 hours straight. It doesn't even matter if it's words or code. I'm that desperate sometimes.
But those are not the times I want to talk about. I want to talk about the times you feel like every single thing you do extra is worthless. Those times when breathing almost feels like some extra work.
This is what I feel today and actually this triggered the question, which is the title of this post, How bad do you want it? The answer is: very bad! But I need to keep reminding myself that. I need to keep thinking about why I started in the first place.
So when you think about writing, how bad do you want to do it? And even more important, why? Why do you want to write? Why do you want to press that "Publish" button? Why do you want your words to get out there?
This is because today I'm thinking about what I started, what it involves and what should I do. And I somehow feel a pressure of finishing what I started, and it's not a good pressure. It's a pressure that paralyzes me. But then I remember nobody cares except myself. So I should write whatever the hell I want whenever the hell I want for whatever reason I want. And that's what you should do too.
Fear of judgement? Guess what: nobody cares! Sure, some might leave some mean comments, but that's on them. If they have the time to leave a bad comment, they have too much free time. And they just don't expose themselves to see how it is to become vulnerable through words.
I'm asking you again: how bad do you want it? Honestly, I just want to keep going even though some days are actually a lot more productive than others. It's just about developing the habit of keep moving. Nobody is perfect and everybody has a fair chance of moving forward. With what pace and for how long, it's up to everyone.