It's very hard to pretend to be ok constantly.
It's even harder when you feel you have no one around that cares about you or your existence.
They just care about what you can do for them or how you can help them.
It's not like I'm that helpful or resourceful.
I really genuinely feel like I don't provide anything to anyone but a slight reduction of stress if I can complete a task for then. Other than that... I've proven on a few occassions that I can leave right now and no one would care.
No one would be upset.
No one would bat an eye.