It won't be a clean win for you because you'll have to pry your win from my cold fingers
No, this wasn't a choice
It's simply part of the deal
Unyielding, non-negotiable
I could only forge ahead
because there's no other way
My stubborn, rebellious streak
Is the force that keeps me going
Resisting every shove and every pressure
In these unchosen circumstances
in this inescapable
destiny of mine
i would brace myself
for whatever lies ahead
for better or worse
but i won’t go down
without a fight
it’s a tough battle
against the dark menace
trying to dominate
my very existence
their ugly side
is on full display
perhaps
there’s no longer
a need for pretense
the darkness
has taken root
spiraling out of control
even if the peace
i seek is temporary
i would still stand tall
casting my shadow
in defiance
against the
prevailing darkness
for every fallen moment
there will be a resurgence
for i will rise again
after each stumble
because that’s
the only way forward
i’m determined
to resist until
the very end
each step forward
each stand taken
this isn’t just a rebellion
it’s a three-way battle
against both
external adversaries
and the shadows within
I won't go down without a fight
They can crush me, but they’ll have to pry every inch from my cold dead fingers
©Britt H.
💥Best used as a pep talk before you face your nemesis—or your in-laws (kidding… unless I’m not)
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✍️Previously published: 2nd February 2024
🎞️ Visual Edition: 16th May 2025
✨ Revised Edition: 21st May 2025
📖 This piece was editorially approved for publication by Iceberg's Poetry.
Part of my consolidated writing portfolio.
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