Pins and Needles

Pins and needles

Pins and needles

On the floor, hurry up

Shaking and shaking and shaking

Terror and horror from both parties
Make it stop make it stop

Convulsions and breath holding 

Trapped in my body, unable to react

“Can you tell me your name?”

No no no. Nothing comes out

Pins and needles 

Pins and needles

Maybe my foot just fell asleep

Shaking, shaking, my whole body shaking

“It’s just her blood pressure, give her orange juice.” 

Shaking shaking, pins and needles, pins and needles

Make it stop make it stop

Rub my sternum

Slap my face

Make it stop make it stop

Mommy I’m scared make it stop

Pins and needles pins and needles

Finally subside and the shaking goes away but I can’t wake up

Open your eyes, please, open your eyes

Breathe breathe breathe why can’t I breathe

Beeping beeping beeping

A needle in my hand and saline in my veins

“Wake up, baby.”
Mommy please it won’t work make my brain work

I can’t open my eyes I can’t talk I can’t move 

I hear everything I feel everything

Stop, don’t put the IV there it doesn’t work my vein will collapse 

I can’t speak I can’t speak

Pins and needles

Pins and needles 

Hours later 

“I’m 22” 

I can finally speak speak speak

The IV hurts take it out please take it out

Mommy I’m sorry 

I didn’t mean to scare you I couldn’t stop it

Doctor doctor please 

Please make it stop

Fix my brain make it stop stop 

Stop it please I don’t need the medicine

Pins and needles pins and needles

Shaking shaking shaking

Make it stop please 

Please I can’t live like this anymore 

Seizures seizures seizures

“We can’t help”

No doctor no doctor please make

Make it stop make it stop 

No more no more

Pins and needles pins and needles