Thank you for your kind words for my loss

I just wanted to let you all know why I’m so devastated. When my daughter just turned 5 I met a guy that tried so hard to win me. I had recently gotten separated and was just having fun. But this guy, his name was Jeff wasn’t giving up. Eventually he got me. We got engaged, I shortly got pregnant and lost the baby. This would happen several times. But we held strong. We bought a nice home in a good neighborhood and things were pretty good. But there was a guy that lived across the street who rented the house for him and his family. He also was a functioning crack addict. Jeff ended up doing it often and became another person. So after almost 10 years I left. But our story was far from over. He’d tried to win me back for the rest of his life. We always stayed close and my daughter considered him as her step dad. He went around the country even to Costco Rica partying hard. He came home to NJ to win me back. But I never thought in a million years that he would finally come back home to NJ, only to pass away. It just feels so surreal. Especially when you don’t have the opportunity to say goodbye. Love while you can, because death is so final! Love you all so very much. Barbara Jeanne ♥️🙏🏼💔❤️‍🩹