Of all these systems of oppression, I hate capitalism the most. I hate that the severity of my depression and anxiety increases as the money in my account decreases. I hate that every waking moment is just a reminder that I live in poverty. I hate that because I don't meet the Beauty standard people ignore my mutual aid posts.
I'm so tired of not having. I'm tired of convincing myself I should be grateful for scraps. I deserve better. My child deserves better.
Universe, drown me in basic comforts. A comfortable home. A working vehicle. Being able to eat what I want, not what i can afford. Stable health. Community. Rest.
Life is a marathon and the universe shot me in the leg at the starting line for shits and giggles.
I hate it here.