I wasn't going to make a post this Wednesday. I figured I would save it for next Wednesday when I had some progress photos to share from my super frustrating paintings, but I got another Stripe email today, and I had to share how grateful I am.
You see, when you support me on Buy Me A Coffee, I get a notification from Buy Me A Coffee telling me that someone has supported me. I see your name, email, and the note you leave me about why you want to support me, and I get a wave of joy, pride, and lots of gratefulness to have people who believe in me supporting me.
But then I get to experience this feeling again as your contributions hit my bank account.
Buy Me A Coffee has a working partnership with Stripe, so I get an email from Stripe every time your monthly or one time support is processed. It's such a good feeling to see your money go into my bank account, knowing I am making things that resonate with you so much you pay me to keep making these things and exploring artistic avenues and taking risks. It's truly beautiful.
Today, I was feeling a little guilty for buying myself a coffee this evening. I knew I had to go somewhere to work on my acting resume because I was being completely unproductive at home. I was getting absolutely nothing done. I knew I needed a change of scenery, and I was craving a cold brew something fierce. Honestly, a cold brew doesn't cost that much money, but I already committed to an event on Friday, I'm not getting paid Friday due to being sick a few weeks ago, and I still have to buy dog food and a few staples for the week. I felt bad for spending the money when there was a chance I couldn't afford it. I'd already gone out to eat too many times this week. But without changing my environment, I knew the work wouldn't get done.
Then I got two emails, one right after the other, telling me money was on my way to my account. because of your support, I covered not only coffee, but also dinner. It's because of you I'm not a starving artist. It's because of you I don't get scared to take a day off work to make some art. It's because of you that I keep making plans, and I feel confident that somehow, someway, even in this economy, I'll find a way to get the money to make it happen. I am so grateful to each and every one of you. Thank you so much for all you've done for me, and your continuing support. It means the world. Thank you.