Comparing me to me!

Tomorrow I have a ninja competition.
And the next day I have one too!

It's the first time I've had two back to back, and I'm excited and nervous.
I'm mainly doing two because I need my daughter to do two to boost her points up
so we can both qualify for worlds WITHOUT having to go to regionals (which are all the way in Brooklyn. We live in Northern Virginia!)

I should be fine points wise, but it will be good to have a boost.
After this double header, we have one the following weekend, and that will be it until Worlds for competitions in this specific league division.

I saw the course for tomorrow; you can see it here.
I'm worried about only a few things, and I think I may just be able to clear the entire course, which would be a first for me!

And there are four women in my division, which means I'm not guaranteed a spot on the podium.
OH I WANT TO WIN SO BAD!

I'm really competitive, and I want to do my best
and I want to BE the best.
But sometimes people are just better than me, and I need to be okay with that.

What I'm really trying to focus on now is comparing myself to myself.
I did that at the last competition I attended.
I felt much stronger at it than I did at the first one of the season,
and I'm hoping to feel equally strong at this upcoming one.

And why should I compare myself against the people in my division?
The competition will do that for me for free!

Instead I've been looking back at my ninja videos from last year.
WHEN I STARTED.

Yes, I only started a year ago, and I'm doing so good now!

I'm really proud of how far I've come,
and I need to make sure I remind myself of that tomorrow.
And the next day.

And the next comp and the next comp and the next comp.

Thanks for listening and stay intentional!

Kathy Ellen