You have a legitimate disease that can be treated and you deserve to feel better, live a productive life and not feel miserable. Most of all, love yourself and keep your head up. I speak from experience when I say I understand how difficult it is; I struggle everyday as well but at the end of the day, I am alive and functioning as best I can.
Life is hard and unpredictable and clinical depression and its symptoms can really wreak havoc in your life. There are so many people who enter our lives for various reasons and we can often be naive. You must be careful about who you allow to enter your immediate circle especially when you are vulnerable. Some come with a hidden agenda that may take you off course and down a path you never intended to take. They befriend or interact with you for selfish reasons and because you are feeling emotionally down you allow them to come into your life. Depression sufferers must guard their hearts and be aware of what is happening around them.