December 29th 7:08pm.
It's been a while since I've written to you, my apologies, I'm still fighting with my head , all the conflict going on, every time I say I'm not a killer I'm not like my father in any shape or form my mental state collapses like an old bridge that should have been rebuilt years ago. Every time I close my eyes when I go to bed I see nothing but violent images, mainly involving my partner which is strange as I'd never hurt her , I just want this pain to stop in my head it's driving me insane , should I go to therapy? No that's ludicrous I'd get sectioned! I need an answer to this insanity going on in my head and I need it NOW!!!