So, I've reached my limit and turned off the air raid alert app. Every 30 min I hear this freaking siren, every 30 min I have to stop what I'm doing to see what flies where. I don't sleep, I can't work, cook, do chores. Whatever you do - every fucking 30 minutes there's an alert.
I know it's a bit of a dangerous move: being informed of danger increases my chance of being safe, but the constant state of high alert is killing me, too, so I have to... balance it out. I've decided that my new air raid alert is the actual sound of air defence shooting at whatever threat is heading my way. Otherwise, I physically can't continue living like this.
It's an interesting new stage: choosing to ignore danger, and deciding that it safer to do so, or that it is a necessary step, a step that is more beneficial than harmful.
I need to fix my mental health, I really do, it takes priority right now.