Well these past few weeks have been hell, to say the least.
I’m currently going through a medication change - weaning off Citalopram and going onto Venlafaxine. As of yesterday, I have stopped my old medication and on Friday I will start the new one.
It’s been quite the ride; my emotions are all over the show and the heart palpitations are next level overwhelming.
I’m in constant contact with my GP who is aware of everything and after I was particularly unhinged during an appointment with him on Monday, he’s given me something extra to help take the edge off the heart palpitations.
As someone who’s quite self aware, being as manic as I’ve felt, is quite a bizarre feeling.
I know it will get better but this part really sucks.
I miss checking in with everyone on social media and sharing my journey with this, but I know it’s important for me to step back and process this without the criticism I so often get for just being myself.
Just the fact I was on TikTok posting videos elicited the most vile comments from some people stating that I shouldn’t be online.
It was disgusting. And these people were parents too. Telling me I should get offline, and trying to let others know about my “toxic behavior online”. Whatever that means.
It actually broke my heart seeing people be so cruel.
I found the people in question though - saw their Facebook profile. Saw them with their kids. And I felt a deep sadness knowing they have that poison in them and would potentially pass that onto their children.
I will be back with vengeance, and I will be sharing whatever I want in whatever way I want. But for now, taking a break from the criticism has been great.
Even if it does follow me to the oddest places ..
Hope you are all doing okay xx here’s a picture of a booknook I made last week 🥰
