I feel disappointed and afraid. I don't like the way people treat us. The conditions are awful; it has been a mistake to join this place; I get paid less than I deserve, so why am I not leaving? I mean, I should move forward; the first step is to quit this job. It brings no joy, no value, just sitting all day, receiving negative Comments.
On the other hand, I need money to afford my living, and I deeply know I won't look for a job until I lose it, so what to do? Should I apply for another job, should I be patient or should I... I don't know.
What if I didn't find another one? I feel insecure; what if I won't adapt to the new environment? There are many what-ifs in my mind.
I should give it a shot and see what will happen: there are many advantages I can gain if I quit my job and instead work in my home city:
Living with my parents
Save more money
Have support ❤️
Get healthier
Earning better
Feeling proactive
New experience and face my fears
Once I get my driving license, I will apply to Akdital so my living will be better and it honestly becomes a necessity to come back home because I am worrying about my health, I don't cook just on a few occasions so why not move to my parent's house and get delicious and healthy food. I need to stay with my family so before when I go abroad I can spend some time with them, it seems like a good decision.