Life has become so scary that you can no longer trust anyone, including your family. Life no longer brings delight, and being with friends or family members does not energize you; instead, you feel fake and bored.
I honestly feel fatigued and overwhelmed by everything, not knowing exactly the causes behind these conflicting feelings; all I know is that I don't like the way my life is processing. I mean, my mind is racing with thoughts that I shouldn't be having. I'm worried about my future and my family.
behind social media, life is so colorful but it can sometimes be very dark. People does not understand their feelings including myself. I visited home, I felt warmth and happy and i understand that money can not bring joy neither free time can. working hard and working your path in life brings value and happiness to you and people around you.
I often worry if my parents or anyone else would love me as much if I had failed, if unconditional love is genuine or if we are deceiving ourselves, and if our loved ones will truly sacrifice themselves for us, since I wonder if I can do the same for them.