*betrayal*
My thoughts are dark and crippled,
Wondering why things ended like they did,
Asking myself why you hid the truth from me,
That you had the one you loved,
So it beats me why you led me on,
Making heavenly promises,
Despite knowing that your heart beat for another,
You know that you did not have to play along,
Attending the dates,
Accepting the gifts,
Responding to the sweet nothings
The evening walks to watch the sun set,
You honestly should have cut me off,
Maybe told me that you had a beloved,
But now that you did not,
I do not even know what I am angry with,
My self for letting you carry me along,
Or you for leading me on knowingly,
I am yet to establish what is hurting me the most,
The fact that your betrayal made me drive a bullet thru your beloved’s head,
Or the fact that I fell for you and now I can’t let go,
Or maybe the possibility that I have gone insane,
Because the thoughts of you with someone else enrage me,
I cannot even visualize you with anyone else,
So that’s why I did what I did,
And it doesn’t matter if whatever you wanted with me was a short time escapade,
So it’s without regrets that I am letting you know,
That I will eliminate everyone that comes between us,
If that’s what it’ll take to make you mine alone,
Today, tomorrow, ad infinitum.