I tweeted about this a little while ago, but I’m still laughing so I’m going to share more. For one of my beloved readers’s birthdays, I wrote her a paired set of fics in different styles with different tropes she chose. One was an instant fan favorite - the fic that became Absolute Pin. Her request was something on a size kink, but she left the rest up to my fevered imagination, so I picked it up and ran with it (probably screaming or laughing maniacally… or both).
The other one she put into my brain was something I wanted to write but the amount of research I would need would be… involved, to say the least. I don’t write anything without doing a stupid amount of time looking up anything i could find useful. In fact, I made a joke about weeping for my search history for the poor agent put in charge of reading mine, only to find out I write fan fiction. Poor bastard.
Anyway, back to the point. I wrote this fic, put in the notes what I knew I’d have to research, researched the balls out of it, changed a bunch of stuff to more accurate depictions of the scenario, second guessed the whole thing, published the first chapter, panicked again and almost took it down, then rode the comment train as I worked on the next chapter.
They were fucking funny, guys. Like. Enough for me to sit in my office and laugh out loud as I munched avocado toast and researched the kinds of rope least likely to leave marks on a struggling sub. I am a firm believer that the world is shitty enough and I won’t write satisfying endings (satisfying to me, at least). I’m also of the belief that everything meant to cause pain should serve a purpose or kept the fuck out of my writing. So, when I say the comments surprised me, I’m not kidding.
“Oh boy, BDSM, that never ends well for Will.”
“Will’s first time? It’s worrying that Hannibal enjoys hurting him…”
I could go on but those were my two favorites. I knew there might be some backlash, but fuck. Anyone who has stumbled on my work knows I like to treat Will like the pillow princess with a side of sass he deserves to be. No pain without reason and the pleasure it causes… yeah. I had fun with this fic.
I digress. The funny for me is this fic is now only second to Doctor’s Orders. Just as it should be. After all the fuss, it’s now a fan favorite and it makes me laugh even more. You know which one I mean. The fabulously delightful Reckless Behavior.