Spiritual Battle Fatigue

Spiritual Battle Fatigue

Aug 02, 2023

Imagine, you and your team have been under siege on the front lines for two months. Command and Staff are demanding you hold the line until reinforcements arrive in a week.

How do you boost your own morale to stay and fight, let alone that of your troops?

What if you are an army of one? As much by choice as by design? From where do you pull reserve energy?

Can you hold off your inner demons and the enemy? How much longer will you be able to tell the difference?

That was me yesterday. Just staring into the void of the battlefield of life wondering where I was going to get the fight to go on.

A life with Complex PTSD is always ready to throw a curve ball. Just when I was feeling happy to be me and free of fear Kaboom a brain landmine. How dare you be happy without a home, a job a place to call yours? There must be something amiss.

Then my old friends Fight Flight and Freeze show up on the scene, debating who gets to take the lead. All while my Protector identity attempts to pile drive her way through the roadblock.

Unlike the movies, I remained cognizant and was able to put all the players in place, and with the assistance of those I've come to appreciate, get myself to a safe space.

Today, I focused on pouring into myself. Not licking my wounds but regrouping. Regaining the necessary courage to muster through a few more days.

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This was much easier with Cannabis. I have a high level of contempt for those who refuse to see the benefits and, more importantly, force others to bend to their will and whims, because they have all the means.

Thank you to our newest Allied CityZen, thanks for joining this little community!! Keep Your Spirit Up and I'll See you in the streams

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