A Candle For The Biological One Known as Gina...
I’m not dead dragons bahahahaha just realizing this title might imply that. I’m alive!
I wrote too much and then deleted most of it. Still there’s lots to read…take it as it is…read to the end or skip to the end (tears)…LOVE to hear how YOU relate in the comments!
No matter where I go or what I do, I’ll always be me.
Don't let your roles cause a blurred sense of identity, something I super struggled with.
I spent most of my life trying to have a role because I confused having a role with having an identity, a life of meaning and purpose. I didn’t know my place in the world, other than having taken on the role of daughter, sister, cousin, peer, and later I would take on the role of friend. I’d go on to take on more roles like colleague, cashier, teacher, dishwasher, union representative, director of operations, facilitator, hypnotherapist, and more. I felt it was exciting to “upgrade” roles.
Without a role, I felt like I didn’t belong and felt disconnected from the community.
Taking on roles helped me to embrace the community, while learning life skills and training.
Despite the roles I took on, I was always me under those uniforms, newsletters, presentations, desk, grill, ice machine… and that was a big problem for me. I was spending too many hours not embracing my authentic Gina-ness.
You see, it was one thing to take on roles and learn some skills. It was also one thing to take on employment I wasn’t thrilled about, if it was safe, it was an opportunity to provide for myself so I took it. Eventually I was able to find a job in my field and life went on.
Yet as life went on, my roles were snuffing me out. It became more and more challenging to be me. There was no time to be me. I joined dance for a few months when I was 25. It wouldn’t be until age 36 I’d join again! WTF?
Despite all the happy times and joy I experienced, how could I be me when I’m constantly in survival mode? Even though I was working in my field, I was still in survival mode. Sure, I pissed money away on things but the point is my student loan debt was always haunting me…Despite earning a professional salary, I was still living paycheck to check. I intentionally blended my work life with my personal life, seeing them as one and the same.
As the years passed by it was a harsh reality check that this student statis type lifestyle was my lifestyle. I felt if I took on the role of wife things would smooth out, in terms of the cost of living, moreover, I desired to take on the role of mother. God when I was a little girl that was my little girl dream, like many children, to some day have a family of my own. I remember being eager to take on the role of girlfriend and caretaker all in anticipation of this…I never wanted a career; it’s how my life unfolded as I strived to survive and make the best of my life.
I took on the masculine role of protector and provider, which made it challenging to take on the role of receiver. It was confusing to provide for men, and I never was one to get hung up on gender roles. I honestly figured someday I would be in the role of mother and not generate money at all, so I felt like I was offering men a pay forward type of lifestyle. Those men were self centered, and I was idiot for not asserting my own value to myself! I always knew my value, yet I never honoured it, because it seemed like life wasn’t honouring it. It seemed like my role was to take the shit end of the stick. I ended up having victim mentality trapped in the triangle of disempowerment. I’m not interested in the hero’s journey anymore, yet I recognise my conscious mind requires the structure to help me make connections.
I took the bus most of my life and I never appreciated standing out there in the dark, it never mattered if it was morning or night, it was dark. How much did I really matter, personally, to the employer and community… or was it my role that mattered? Most people don’t care about the person serving them at the coffee shop and I can appreciate that in this way we have a business relationship… Genuinely, there were many who personally cared about me, yet we had a healthy professional collegial relationship, and despite the benefits of workplace community, there were healthy boundaries, I mean I could never expect my colleagues to pay my bills for me or move in with them temporarily at no cost or very little cost, for example.
I got tired of my roles clouding me.
It’s not my roles’ fault, it’s my fault.
Roles are like clothing we put on and take off, I was clinging to mine.
My roles became masks, as did my archetypes.
Eventually I didn’t even know myself. One day the masks came off, and you can read all about that in my book series: Dragon Dreams.
As I sink deeper into the shamanic teachings, I feel super mega beat up, and yet I’m feeling pretty good!
There are so many things I don’t like to admit to.
In short, I wrote a book called: 40 Going on 14. Now it’s like I’m 44 going on…well that’s just it…going on what …it feels like going on nothing…going on timelessness…going on age I don’t give a crap…that’s how old I am…because I am what I am not…I am not an age…that’s the biological one known as Gina…I am multifaceted, spirit and biological wrapped up into one…
The questions are not: what am I; where am I; who am I; how am I; where am I…For me at this time, the ultimate question is: when am I?
When am I…
When am I happy, at peace, and simply being me?
When am I expressing my true self and true essence?
When is me?
When am I?
The answer is: Now.
When? Now.
We exist in a constant state of alchemy and therefore we exist in a constant state of now’ing.
In truth, the only role is not to have a role.
Not having a role is how to fulfil your role as an instrument of the higher source energy we all belong to. The subconscious mind knows everything and our conscious mind can function like a secretary, not a puppet.
In the past I’ve done countless activities on atonement, and all those journals are flashing through my mind, so many thoughts.
My titles I highlight today, energy medicine practitioner and hypnotherapist, could change because I’m always learning alchemizing titles, but no matter what, I’m always going to be me, and I like that.
Recently I had yet another intrusive entity extracted…I’m undergoing what is better known as soul retrieval. It’s not pretty-I’ll tell you that much, and not because it’s my role to tell you, but because it’s me, and I’ll be offering soul retrieval 2026 to you dragon dreamers. It’s something I’ve been doing on my own for years and it requires the assistance of another, which is where I’m at in my journey…or when I’m at on my journey…the more I expand my thinking the more I don’t even know how to communicate anymore…
Point is, after the recent extraction, my colleague gave me homework to burn a candle honouring the person I am, not my roles. Unbeknownst to my colleague, it was extreme synchronicity. I never thought to burn a candle, yet everything she said was exactly about me remembering who I am, the person I was before I even came here…
If you’ve been following me, I just posted a video all about an extended vision quest I went on, which was also unbeknownst to my colleague.
So the intrusive entity had a mental illness and was very scared and confused. He wasn’t always like that. He was a lightish black cat with small yellow eyes, that someone experimented on, giving him people-like legs, and he didn’t know his own breath or blood or mind anymore… I was able to come from a place of indifference and nonjudgment during the extraction…yet in this moment, I’m bawling…he was just a little kitten when this happened and he got away, but was left to fend for himself…he was scared and ran up a tree never to come down…that tree part of my heart…he took on the role of protecting my heart because it’s the only safe place he’s ever known, he didn’t mean to become an intrusive entity…it was difficult having him extracted because he wouldn’t go and at one point pretended to go…he’s been with me since ancient times…when he finally left me, he didn’t just leave me, he gave up his role, which was protecting my heart…
Isn’t that special…I’m like…so super touched by this story…and also concerned by the wtf was going on in that timeline when the cat lived…He didn’t know what to do with himself, so he gave himself a role to protect my heart, but he is not his role. He is simply he.
No matter the intension, we are not our roles.
Today I’ll be doing homework stamping out all my roles.
I might take on a role, but I’m not the role, I’m me, the biological one known as Gina.
What are you up to this weekend?
In when’ing and now’ing,
GVC
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Gina emphasizes that the Akashic Records do not serve as a permanent archive. She asserts that contracts represent intentions and that it is your inherent right, as the primary author of your life, to make modifications.
Gina highlights that humanity is fundamentally a storytelling species, and these narratives serve as our healing. She encourages individuals to transform their stories in order to alter their lives, noting that the strength of this process lies in its simplicity.
Furthermore, she affirms that spiritual independence belongs to you and urges you to possess the bravery to embrace your true self reaching your fullest potential.
Finally, she inspires you to have the openness to dream.
Gina was a public-school teacher for 20 years, now specializing as an Energy Medicine Practitioner and Rapid Transformational Therapist Hypnotherapist. Gina is focussed on a results driven practice, offering mind reprogramming and safe extraction of intrusive entities. She also provides intuitive insight from her one of a kind Gemstone Reading, complimented by the Dragon Dreams Oracle.
You can anchor yourself with Gina, by stepping into your authority as the master scriber of your Akashic Record, that is your birthright to be.
So, Gina wonders…did you have a dream, or did the dream have you?