[T/N] I apologize for grammar mistakes and incoherencies
Chapter 6: The Heart Doesn’t listen to reason
Knock moved slightly after three hours had passed, and now it’s ten o'clock... I spread out and lay on my back, gently placing my hand under my head. I secretly laughed a little at myself acting like a high school student who has just fallen in love with my own boyfriend and can sleep for several hours without getting bored.
The truth is that Knock is ‘not’ and ‘not even close’ to being my boyfriend. Yes, even though we’ve had sex twice, but by Knock’s nature, it won’t change our relationship just because we had sex. For Knock, this is too insignificant.
Knock is like a book that you just can’t wait to open the next page. He provokes and tempts, and lures us to go and search for the answer.
And when we realize it, we’re hooked on that book, and we won’t stop reading until we reach the last page, the last line...
The difference is that Knock is a person, and he doesn’t have a last page...
I couldn’t find the answer from him.
I never knew what he was thinking.
Quite appealing... I’m quite a perfect guy to some extent. My appearance is acceptable and my family background is considered good. If I want to find a woman or someone to understand me or be my girlfriend, it’s not difficult at all. There are people who like me...
But I think I want to end up with a small girl like Plernpleng...
A bad thought popped up in my mind. I know that Knock has not had sex with her. It’s just a casual encounter, but he is not a player. He doesn’t think about anything inappropriate with women. He doesn’t take advantage of women and bring them to his condo without their consent.
Not often like those who only love someone when they are at their worst...
The person I saw who truly loved someone was Pai.
Once I went to N club to have beer together with Knock. He drank heavily without saying a word. At that time, we weren’t as close as now, but when he got drunk. He started talking.
“I think me and Pai. We’re probably really done.”
“Why?”
“Pai probably found the right person. Someone who is sincere and ready to get serious with him, but that person is not me.”
“If you know that, why did you still go back and forth with him?”
“Because I love him. You’re not the first person I spoke to like this... Damn it. Even my close friend Na warned me before... Hey... Did you know? I once asked Na before, why did Pai do this with me? I have a heart too, do you know what Na answer?”
“I don’t know.” I said, and no matter how anyone tries to comfort a heartbroken friend, my way is to open a beer can and hand it quietly before handing him a cigarette...
A broken-hearted man only wants that...
He doesn’t want a hug.
He doesn’t want to cry.
We rarely cry because of a broken heart...
Except for Jen, another friend. He looks tough and stubborn, but believe it or not? He’s that kind of vulnerable man. I’ve heard that he cried when his girlfriend broke up with him...
Jen is a sensitive man.
Knock and I are also sensitive men. We just don’t cry as often...
Knock just keeps drinking beer continuously, alternating with heavy smoking. I sit next to him, drink beer with him, smoke cigarettes with him, and listen to the silent sadness in Knock’s eyes...
“She said that I have a caring heart... but Pai doesn’t.”
Even though his face looks calm, his eyes are hurting...
I stopped thinking about the past when I saw Knock sit up and actually sit on the bed, then pick up the phone and answer. His thick hand struggled to control his trembling face. His hoarse voice became louder.
“Hello.”
(...) I don’t know what he said, but Knock turned to me.
“What time is it?”
I’ve been lying and looking at him since seven in the morning, alternating between looking at the clock. I should know the time by now.
“Half past ten.” I replied shortly.
“Are you going back to Bangkok? How will you go back?... Are you crazy! Now that... I can’t even drive you Pleng.”
Knock looked stressed. I understood why. Knock wiped his face with a cloth that covered his lower body, like it was really annoying. I tried to avoid looking at his bare, naked body, afraid that if I did, he would catch me and become my wife again for several more rounds in the morning.
He never paid attention to time when he was with me.
Because he never cared about me, right?
I saw him rubbing his face and putting on pants before he walked straight to stand by the door to make a loud phone call.
“I don’t want to argue, Pleng...” Knock lowered the volume.
(...). I don’t know what Pleng said, but it seems like Knock is getting more angry.
“A woman?!!! You think I stayed with a woman last night?!! Pleng, you made me argue so much that you had to call me this early in the morning? Knock is with Korn! Not a woman!!”
Knock walked straight towards me. He handed me the phone right in front of me.
“Say hello!" He ordered in a strained voice.
“Hello.” I replied hesitantly as I followed the line. Knock then put the phone back to his ear.
“Did you hear that or not?”
(...).
“Oh, so no matter what, you are going to leave right??” While Knock was still complaining, his face became worse every moment. I got up from the bed, put on my pants, and went straight to find him and I stood behind his wide back. Knock’s back leaned forward, suggesting that he was upset, bored, and exhausted, then suddenly, without giving any signals, Knock fell to the ground.
“Knock!!!”
I called out loudly. Knock’s phone bounced onto the floor. I then reached out my arm and placed it on his shoulder, then hugged his body and put him to sleep on a nice bed.
Knock, Knock fainted...
He slept soundly, knowing the nonsense and the face that used to mock him anxiously...
I knew immediately that he had a high fever.
Rrrrrrrrrrrrr.
My phone rang louder, so I had to answer.
“What’s up, Yihwaa.”
(I’m going back to Bangkok today, there’s an urgent job I have to do. It’s really frustrating. Can you pick me up on your boat, along with that annoying Knock?)
“Where are you?” I asked, looking at the sleeping Knock with concern. He just fell asleep like that. I’m really worried about him.
(In front of Knock’s house with his girlfriend, and most importantly, Pleng is crying like a funeral with hundreds of dead relatives! Hurry up and come. I’m waiting in front of Knock’s house..)
“Oh.”
I hung up the call and left the house to find Yihwaa and Plernpleng with a heavy feeling in my heart. As I walked across the bridge towards Knock’s house, I saw Pleng’s pale face, tears flowing heavily. Her shoulders trembled as if about to collapse every now and then. She was wearing a white chiffon dress and a light-colored woven hat, looking young and innocent, while Yihwaa wore a tie-dyed t-shirt with vibrant colors. Her multicolored hair was tied up in a messy style, and she wore dark jeans and sneakers. She carried a slanted tote bag with a nonchalant look on her face.
“It took you so long, Korn! And where’s Knock?”
“Not feeling well. He has a high fever and was on the phone, then he collapsed.” I spoke honestly but didn’t mention that it was because of me.
“Oh!” Yihwaa widened her eyes in surprise. “What should we do? Let’s take him to the hospital!”
“I’ll take him myself.”
“I want to see Knock.” Pleng said to me with a hesitant tone, but Yihwaa pulled her arm back.
“It's burdensome. You should go back and see Knock, Korn. I’ll take Pleng home.”
“But Yihwaa, I want to take care of Knock. I want to stay with Knock. I won’t go back.” Pleeng’s face twitched, her beautiful face filled with worry as if she was anxious about something. She looked at me as if expecting something, but I didn’t say anything.
Yihwaa turned to look at Pleng.
“Korn, knows him and he can take better care of Knock than you! Admit it!”
“But...” Plernpleng made a gesture to object, but I interrupted.
“It’s dangerous for two women to drive together. I’ll have a friend come and pick you up...”
I made a decision to call two close friends who live nearby. The first one is ‘Toey.’ He’s gay, tall and lanky, but really tough. As for the second person, ‘Pan,’ he’s Toey’s boyfriend. These two can be trusted.
"Hey, Yihwaa and Pleng are my friends. Can you help me send them? Knock isn't feeling well, so I have to take him to see a doctor."
Toey nodded easily when he heard me speak. He reached into his jeans pocket and tossed the car keys to Pan.
"You go ahead, I'll go help Korn and take Knock to the doctor."
"Why can't Korn go by himself? Why do you have to go with him?" Pan whined, frustrated.
"Stop nagging and go send the women. Korn and I will go together." Toey spoke calmly and walked away, saying goodbye to Yihwaa and asking her to take care of Pleng before following Toey and shouting after them.
"Toey, take your phone with you."
"Uh, hurry up and go!" Toey said annoyed with a slight hesitation.
These two are so confusing, 'the wife is more manly than the husband,' is it funny? Isn't it?
"Did you two fuck?"
As soon as Knock's sleepy condition was seen on the bed, Toey turned to me with a calm voice as if talking about the weather. I reluctantly admitted that Knock and I seemed like friends, judging from our situation. It was hard to tell who was at the top or bottom just by looking outside. Knock was handsome. I am a man. Moreover, I look somewhat handsome, composed, beautiful, or something like that. It was really strange.
"Maybe."
"Maybe my left foot, it's clear." Toey said with a firm face. He is gay and has a husband, so he had encountered a fate similar to Knock before. I looked at Toey curiously as he sat on the bed before reaching out to touch Knock's cheek, "He's hot."
"Um." I nodded.
"Did you wipe him down?" Toey turned to ask.
"Then go get a warm towel." He ordered in a calm voice, then lifted up his own shirt sleeve and helped Knock lie down. I then went to prepare a warm towel and a basin of water for him, laying them on the table nearby before removing the blanket covering Knock's body. His skin was as smooth as honey, so calm and serene. Knock was much larger than Toey, with a taller and more slender physique.
"Did you clean your cum out of him?" Toey asked, making me blush and stumble over my words and my face quickly turned red. From the situation and the kiss marks on Knock's body, he could probably guess that Knock was the bottom and I was the top, but even so, it was embarrassing. I didn't expect it to come to this extent.
“Not yet.” I replied softly.
“Why didn't you clean him properly then?” Toey asked angrily.
“Why?” Because I’ve never been gay before (?). So I don’t understand why Toey is angry, “Are you afraid Knock got you pregnant or something?”
Smack!
Toey kicked my leg hard as soon as he heard the question.
“Why are you hurting me? I really don’t know.” I felt guilty and confused.
“Men are not like women! If you want to have sex, you need to study first! If you don’t clean your stuff out of him it will hurt his stomach! Do you understand?! And another thing, if you’re afraid of the complications of cleaning him, wear a condom!”
“I’m sorry, I didn’t know.” I could only make a guilty face.
“You guys are so annoying. We have Korn, a manly man, who has to endure the pain of your selfishness…terrible. If you can't take care of your wife properly before and after sex, you should go back to dating women...” Toey complained loudly. He wiped my confidence away, but I thought he must be taking revenge on me.
“I didn’t know.” I apologized again, “Pan may not know either.”
“No need. You don’t have to apologize for him. That asshole is too good.” Toey complained after wiping Korn’s body and turned to me.
“So, are you going to clean your cum out of him or do you want me to do it?”
“No need. You can go outside and wait. I’ll do it myself.” I quickly responded. Toey threw the towel at me and left to wait outside easily.
After taking care of Knock. I walked out of the room blushing. Toey smiled mischievously at me.
“You don’t have to go to the hospital for this. He must be exhausted. You go to the pharmacy, buy what I tell you to. Painkillers, anti-anxiety medication, and also mineral salt.” He ordered calmly.
“I understand the painkillers, but why anti-anxiety medication and mineral salt?” I asked, confused.
“Mineral salt compensates for the sweat loss. As for the anti-anxiety medication, it will help him sleep. It’s a gentle sleeping pill, not dangerous. Nowadays, if you don’t have a prescription from a doctor, you can’t buy sleeping pills.” Toey explained. I could only pause and follow his instructions easily.
Toey has so much power. Whatever it says, people listen. Even though I’m not his partner, I still have to listen to it.
After I came back from buying the medicine, Toey would order me to wipe his body, take care of Knock, until he recovered. I would also make rice soup for him, and give him mineral salt. Knock remained silent. He didn’t say anything to me at all.
“Are you angry at me?”
“...”
He was quiet, lying down with his arms resting on the forehead, with a neutral expression.
“Knock.” I called his name softly, but the feeling was completely gone... What should I do if he gets angry?
“I don’t want to talk to you.” He said with a cold voice.
“Hey, Knock...” My heart stopped, his face was very still.
“No need. You like fucking me hard.” Knock looked tense, but I couldn’t hold back my smile...
“What the hell are you fucking laughing at?!” He pinched my face, his face turned red, and his eyes grew large as if he wanted to punch me. He was feverish and weak, so he couldn’t get up. I looked at his face, and then laughed softly.
“You thought I was angry you fucked me… I am angry because you are too rough.”
Can you believe it? I saw faint red marks on his cheeks...
Is he embarrassed? You idiot...
“What? Just shut up.”
“Your face is so tanned but it’s all red now. Hahaha.” I laughed so much that Knock threw a pillow at me.
“Keep your mouth shut. Remember, next time it won’t be like this.” Knock wagged his middle finger at me. I just looked at him and smiled.
“Get up and leave now.”
“Alright, consider me the loser this time.” Knock replied shortly, and then Toey entered the room just like that.
“Has he eaten and taken his medicine?”
“I’ve eaten.” Knock answered shortly.
“Then I’ll go back. Pan has called a hundred times already. I forgot to bring the phone with me.”
“Oh, do I have to send you?” I turned to ask.
“Go see your wife.” He replied playfully, with Knock’s eyes slightly widened.
“Hurry up, Toey. You talk too much, really!!! I’m not his wife! I’m not anybody’s wife!”
= = >> My face and Toey’s face.
“It’s alright, you don’t have to send me. Look after the person who is not anybody’s wife. I’ll go.”
I laughed a little when I saw Knock’s angry face, and when Toey left, I turned back to find it.
“Do you want to lie down a little longer?”
“No, I don’t want to. I’ve already slept enough.” He said and slowly got up, before walking lightly to sit down. He looked for a movie on the TV instead. I walked over and sat next to him, but when I saw Knock’s expressionless face, I couldn’t bring myself to ask.
“What are you arguing with Pleng about?”
“I don’t know, I think Pleng is suspicious of me, but I don’t know what she’s suspicious of. She thinks I have a girlfriend, but her tone doesn’t seem to imply that’s true.” Knock’s words made me quiet. It’s true... I’m doing something that can be considered immoral.
“...”
“You were thinking about yesterday, weren’t you?” Knock asked, looking at me.
“I...” I was about to answer.
“Wait, before you speak, go pick up some fritos. I want to eat some.” I had to suppress Knock’s enthusiasm. Then I walked to get the lemonade mineral water and handed it to him. He immediately opened the bag and started drinking, then turned to ask, “What do you want to say?”
“Yes, I know I didn’t do well yesterday, but I don’t know, I just did it.” I spoke shortly.
“I’m equally immoral, I don’t really care. Right?” Knock asked with a nonchalant expression, then continued drinking the lemonade, “It's just sex. It’s not a big deal.”
His words astounded me...
I only smiled.
It seems that between me and Knock, it was just ‘sex’. Nothing more than that...
He already has a girlfriend. That’s how it should be.
“Well then.” I replied shortly, but in my mind, I thought that I had to change his mindset and observe. A person like me isn’t someone who easily gives in...
“Drink up.” Knock handed me a frito. I took a bite from the bag he was holding.
“If Pleng still yaps on and on about me so much, we might not survive. I don’t know, I don’t like clingy people.” Knock continued, his face looked tense when he spoke, “Maybe Pleng doesn’t ask me if I want to do it or not, just listens. Is that a burden to me? She just uses my earphones without my saying so, her reason is that she’s my girlfriend.”
I looked at his tense expression and smiled.
“You think that I’m your husband, so anything your girlfriend doesn't have to listen... but I as your husband will have to listen to you.”
“Hey!!!” Knock shouted and flicked my middle finger towards me. He snatched the bag of lemonade fritos and started drinking it alone, “Let’s watch a movie then. You talk too much.”
I sighed softly and shook my head. Knock was still Knock, indifferent and emotionless, but even so, I still cared about .
Chapter 7: Even though I am far away, My Heart is Close To You
Current situation.
After that day, Knock and I stayed in Amphawa for a few more days, then we both returned to Bangkok. Because my semester had started and I had to go to school. It’s strange that Knock and I probably won’t see each other again, simply because he has his own things to do. He’s also studying at a different university. It’s not necessary for him to come all the way here. Well... I, but not like that. I and Knock meet each other more often because Pleng, Pleng, his girlfriend, is studying here at my university. Often while waiting for his girlfriend, he would come sit and eat with me and other friends. Me and him have become even closer than before.
I have no idea whether Knock has forgotten about what happened in Amphawa or not, but for me, even though it has been weeks since that incident, it is still deeply rooted in my mind. And it’s unbelievable that it has come to this day. I have to sit down and let Yihwaa interrogate me about the true story of what happened in Amphawa. The fact that she insisted that I tell her is just crazy.
“And then you just let him go after he said that, just like that.” Yihwaa asked me, with a face that made me feel like a fool.
“So what should I do then? Get down on my knees, hug his legs, and say ‘Be my wife, please Knock, accept the truth’ like that? No way, I can’t do that!” I protested.
“Oh really? You can’t do it, huh? Then why are you sitting here acting like an idiot? Oh well, if it were me, I would have already registered for marriage with Knock!” Yihwaa said with a painful expression in her eyes.
“That’s how you are, isn’t it? This is me. I’m a man who accepts the truth. What can I say? From what I’ve talked with Plernpleng when she came to apologize for Knock’s behavior in the room, I felt that she didn’t really like me. But believe me, Pleng doesn’t know anything compared to what you know, Yihwaa. If not, I would be hated hundreds of times more.”
“Then go ahead and hate me! Just like how you look at me now. Stop pretending to be a fallen angel, Korn.” Yihwaa said, narrowing her eyes. She even reached out and grabbed my shoulder, forcing me to face her.
“A fallen angel? What are you talking about?” I furrowed my brow in confusion.
“As long as you still secretly love Knock, how can you say that you’ve moved on!” Yihwaa said, raising her voice. She let go of me and touched her chin with her fingers as if she were thinking about something. Her beautiful eyes were filled with a cunning plan!
“I didn’t say I’ve moved on. I said I accept the truth.” I shrugged Yihwaa’s hand off my shoulder.
“Hmm! Such a slick person!” Yihwaa replied.
“Hm...” I didn’t answer, I just smiled. “Try teasing me like this. Ever since you saw the bite mark on Knock’s chest, you must have teased me a lot before. Right? Do you understand his tough talk or not?”
“Ugh! I admit that my clumsy tongue is as heavy as dragging feet! What we need to do is make his tongue lighter, little by little.” Yihwaa smiled mischievously.
“What crazy plan are you thinking of?” I hoped it wasn’t some crazy plan.
“Don’t worry, my plan is a perfect ten! It’s not something like pretending to be a transgender and accusing Pleng of giving herself to Knock or going to fight with her to snatch Knock away.”
“...”
“Don’t give me that guilty face. I’m here to help you know? Ugh!” Yihwaa complained.
“Uh, what else are you going to do?” I asked curiously.
“Well, what’s so difficult about it? Pleng still uses controlling methods on Knock. There’s no need to confront her. Because think about it, how does she get hold on Knock? She is skilled at women's games and so am I! If she wants to control Knock, I’ll make sure to get hold of her hands firmly. Because I’m the one who will squeeze Knock to confess the truth and cut off her hold on him!”
I flinched when Yihwaa laughed sharply like a demon. Her laughter echoed in my ears!
I’m concerned and worried about Knock.
Rrrrrrrrrrrrr.
The ringing of my phone grew louder, catching Yihwaa’s attention. She quickly turned to look, and when she saw it was Knock’s number, she urged me to answer. But I didn’t want to answer Knock’s call in front of her because I suspected that she had a sinister plan!
“Answer it, Korn. Or else he will hang up first.”
“Uh, I will call him back later.”
“If you still don’t answer, I’ll snatch it and tell him that I’m your girlfriend. How about that? Huh?” Yihwaa threatened. I couldn’t possibly snatch the phone away. I’m not afraid of women, but Yihwaa is not someone I should mess with. I decided to answer instead. Otherwise, I would have to deal with Knock for a long time, whether he cares or not.
(I should probably take the nonchalant approach rather than caring too much).
“I’ve answered. Now back off.” I pushed her away before reluctantly accepting the call.
“Hello, what’s up?”
(What are you doing?) He asked as if he didn’t care, despite dragging me along last time.
“Nothing much, just cursing a damn person who dragged me along.”
(Whoops, I'm sorry, I got carried away~ You're a man, you have to understand me Kornhol, hahaha). he laughed unexpectedly, making me even more frustrated because I could clearly hear that he and Plernpleng have a ‘deep’ relationship, and it was becoming evident that I couldn’t say anything.
“K.”
(Oh, why so quiet? Are you really mad at me?) Knock made a noisy sound, (I have many sides, but I promised not to be jealous anymore. So don’t be mad.) He pleaded in a long-drawn tone, just hearing the intensity in his voice. I couldn’t do anything because the event had already passed.
If Plernpleng intends to get back at me with this method, it would be considered a beautiful success because it really hurts.
“What should I be angry at? Do I have the right?” I spoke calmly.
(Kornhol, words mean that he is still angry at me. I will pay for your meals for seven days and seven nights, you know.” I remained silent, considering his offer calmly, but the idea of seven days and seven nights disturbed me. He seems interesting.
“You must watch your words.”
(You’re not wrong, but you’re quite annoying, you know? Are you trying to tempt me with food? Well, good try!) Knock interrupted. I smirked, knowing that he must be struggling internally. Suddenly, Yihwaa rolled her eyes at me. I flinched and turned to look at her. She spoke without making a sound.
“You’re always stuck on that topic. Get to the point!”
Am I the one getting agitated or is it her? = =
“Um, why did you call?” I argued, feeling like I was stepping on thin ice. (?) No matter how much I step on it, it doesn’t sink. There’s no way it can reach your ears. I will follow what you said to be safe in the end.
(Would you like to join us for a soccer game tonight?) Knock invited cheerfully. As I thought about his thick, tall, dark face wide with a smile, I smirked.
“Um.”
As soon as I hung up, Yihwaa flashed a smile at me.
“Hey! Korn, you are an easy-going husband.” She winked her eyes. As for me, I just shrugged, then stood up tall.
“Where are you going?” Yihwaa quickly grabbed my arm.
“Buy water. Are you going to follow me everywhere like a spirit?” I asked playfully.
“I told you, I won’t let Knock’s stubborn mouth bother me anymore. No one can walk in front of me in this game. Everyone has to walk where I tell them to go. Because I am the owner of the board.” Yihwaa pouted, her magical face glowed with satisfaction.
“Hey, give me a break. This is love, not your board game.”
“For me, this is a game.” Yihwaa smiled again.
“You will be a very charming lady. A hundred men will bow down to you. But if you stop smiling like this, I will warn you, men will no longer want you.” I patted Yihwaa’s head lightly before walking away with a bag of water. She rushed after me and kicked my leg until I shouted in pain.
“Ouch! You little troublemaker.”
“Even if you offer yourself for free, I won’t accept. I like Knock. You just came to compete with me!” Yihwaa glared at me.
Yihwaa blinked her eyes at me.
“And why would I help you?” I smirked.
“Because you’re my friend!” Yihwaa jumped and hugged my neck. “I only accept you.”
“You’re still not polite. Come on, get down. You’re heavy.” I complained as Yihwaa climbed onto my back.
“Hey, get down.” I hesitated, afraid she was not going to get off me for real. After all, she is a woman. She’s small. I’m afraid she will get hurt just like me.
“What are you playing? It looks fun.” Knock voice rang out causing Yihwaa to jump down from my back and run to hug Knock’s arm immediately.
“Are you here, little Tanned Duck Liver?”
Poke!
And then Knock slapped her forehead.
“Ouch! You scoundrel, how dare you hurt a small, beautiful, sexy girl like me?”
= = >> Me and Knock.
“Hold on, Yihwaa.” Knock pretended to be shocked, “It’s good that Pleng is not like you.”
“Of course, that girl can never be like me. Because I am prettier!” Yihwaa smiled mischievously. Knock laughed heartily, even though Yihwaa was currently scolding her boyfriend.
“You’re still as funny as ever, Jokester.”
“Where are we going?” I asked Knock, seeing him in a football uniform. He also had a backpack with him. There must be clothes to change inside.
“The nearby soccer club, they have a big football field. You should come with me, I came on my motorcycle. But let’s stop by to pick you up first.” Knock said, and just like that, Yihwaa suddenly appeared, clinging onto my arm without consulting me beforehand!
“Korn is not available anymore.”
Oh!
“What are you talking about, Korn? You’re going shopping with me instead!” Yihwaa exclaimed, without even asking me.
That girl, she never bothers to consult me!
As soon as I turned to look at Knock, I saw him staring at me with a puzzled expression and saying, “It’s up to you.”
Then he turned around and walked away!
My heart sank. I had never seen Knock stay silent like that in front of me before. Usually, he would bother and flirt with me. But seeing him like this made me afraid that he might be angry with me and not talk to me anymore.
“He must be angry.” I sighed as my legs automatically followed Knock, almost without me realizing. But Yihwaa slapped my head hard!
Ouch!
“Ouch!!” I raised my hand to protect myself and cried out in pain.
She hits like a monster! This woman is crazy!
“You just keep following him like this, how can you not care? Stand up for yourself a little. No, not just stand up, fight back!” Yihwaa scolded me, and her words made my face burn with embarrassment. How could she be like this! Yihwaa laughed when she saw my flushed ears.
“Ahem, You can pretend to be a handsome virgin, you know, Korn! It’s embarrassing to act like this.”
I don’t care about Yihwaa, but I turned to look at Knock and saw him riding a motorcycle with a calm expression on his face.
“Hey, I have a plan for you later, then he will be angry with me.” I thought about running to find Knock, but Yihwaa held my arm, and at that moment Knock’s motorcycle left just in time.
“Hey, no way. If you follow him, he will treat you the same way as before!”
I pulled my arm away from Yihwaa and turned to talk to her, “You’re so annoying, I won’t let him get angry for real.”
And then I ran after Knock’s motorcycle without thinking about my life...
“Knock! Knock!!”
I screamed as I ran after his motorcycle, my tongue wagging. He didn’t have a romantic reaction like in the movies at all. The protagonist ran with a cool look, but I ran like a dog in the scorching sun!
“Knock!!” I shouted loudly, hoping that he would hear. He stopped the motorcycle and turned to look. At that moment, I was panting and sticking out my tongue like a mess. Knock looked puzzled. He parked his motorcycle and ran back to me, reaching out to grab my shoulder with concern.
“Korn! What’s wrong? Why did you run after me? Why didn’t you call? You’re acting like a silly Korean star.” Knock scolded, while he patted me on the back and burst into laughter.
“Enough! You! I shouted at you, but you didn’t hear!” I pretended to be angry, Knock still laughed without stopping. He sat down next to me and leaned his head on my shoulder.
“Hahaha, you’re so handsome like this, you won’t miss any girls all year round~” He laughed and laughed, and I started to get angry at him.
“Um, yes, what did I do for you? You think it's a joke.” I spoke calmly. Yihwaa shouldn’t have chased after him. He might have realized that it was not the right time to tease me. So he changed the topic and stopped laughing, and he hugged me tightly before leaning his head against my shoulder.
“But now I’m really tired. I’ll sit here for a while.” I said, catching my breath. Knock pulled my shoulder to face him before lifting his shirt and wiping my face!
“You are sweating all over. Use the phone later to call me so you don’t have to be a sweating dog. Hey, a dog is so cool, right, Kornhol? Haha!” Knock laughed heartily, but he didn’t realize how charming he looked in my eyes, with his honey-colored skin and perfect masculine body. Every time I saw Knock in this form, my heart skipped a beat, as if my soul had been awakened.
Knock pulled my shirt down. Meanwhile, I just pretended to sit calmly and look at the sky as usual...
At that moment, there were two beautiful girls walking by. Being a mischievous guy, Knock flirted with them.
“Hey, ladies.”
It was obvious that the girls looked at Knock and we exchanged glances, blushing and feeling embarrassed. Knock is so handsome. It’s normal for girls to feel shy when a handsome guy passes by. As for me, I just smiled when I saw the slender white legs of the girls wearing shorts or the slim waistlines when they wore fitted shirts.
That’s fine...
It’s strange that this nervousness only happens to Knock. I kept glancing at his blushing face, which was still smiling at the girls. Everything about him, everything he did, inexplicably aroused me.
“Is this a football match or are you inviting the girls to sit on your lap?”
I asked Knock annoyedly after he kept pretending to be single and flirted with the two girls. How lucky he is to have the freedom to choose. He should not choose just one! Knock, please share! I want to have them too!
“Maybe, just in case I get their phone numbers.”
“If you say anything that offends them and they get mad, I will hit you.” I said seriously.
“What can I say, I think they are cute." He said, smiling and cheerful.
“Where did you take Pleng, the one you love the most?” I asked, not understanding. After all, love is a serious matter.
“Pleng is Pleng, and this girl is this girl. How can I have both of them at the same time?” Knock kept joking, until I had to grab his collar.
“Don’t play with other people's feelings like this, Knock. I don’t like it.” I said, seeing his dissatisfied expression. He shrugged.
“Ha, I was just kidding." He said softly, “I didn’t mean to insult women.”
No! I didn’t think he was looking down on women. I knew he was not like that, but something else. I was afraid that he would become someone who wasn’t sincere to anyone. That’s what I was most afraid of! If one day he treated everyone’s feelings as a joke, he would distance himself further from me. I will never allow him to be like that. Never!
It seems like I have to be serious for a moment.
“Are you angry with me, Korn? Hey, I don’t mean anything!” Knock’s voice disappeared because I covered his mouth with my hand. He looked puzzled. I just smiled.
“Stop saying that you don’t think about anything, I’ve heard enough of it. Can we go or not?” I asked, but he refused to release his hand from covering his mouth. Knock then took a step forward in his place. He and I got up from the edge of the soccer field where we were sitting and walked straight to Knock’s motorcycle parked a reasonable distance away. He got on first. Then, I climbed on top.
“Hug me around the waist, Korn, don’t act like a novice.”
I forcefully pushed Knock’s head back so that his face hit mine immediately.
“Serves you right, troublemaker.” I scolded him.
“What? Are you worried?" He replied arrogantly, then he murmured as he turned away. I looked at the broad back of the person in front of me. Then, I lowered my gaze to his waist.
Do you want a hug??
Shut up!
“Ouch!” Knock flinched when I hugged him tightly. And I even pressed against him until my chest pressed against his back.
“Well, how do you want me to hug you?” I whispered close to his ear, without putting on a helmet, doing whatever both Knock and I are comfortable with. Otherwise, I probably won’t be able to tease him like this anymore.
“Yes, but what you did is not called a hug. You’re almost straddling me, rubbing against me!” He complained, pretending to move his motorcycle a little, but I didn’t give him a chance to do so. I hugged him even tighter.
“Drive properly or do you want to overturn the motorcycle?”
“Hey, Kornhol, your hand. It’s in the middle of my legs!! Would you like to stop and go to the grass for a moment? You jerk!” Knock said, with a slightly annoyed tone, but not too serious. So, I raised my hand a bit higher, placing it on his slightly swollen abdomen.
“Is this enough for you??” I asked.
“If you were a girl, I would be very excited. Bringing your chest against my back like this.” Knock teased.
“I’m a guy, and I can make you excited.” I playfully whispered in his ear, “You have been excited on the bed because of me twice already, haven’t you?”
I can swear.. I saw Knock’s cheeks turn slightly pale, or maybe embarrassed. But his ears turned red. He probably didn’t keep his emotions hidden like this. Even though it’s just a tiny bit, it’s like pouring cold water on a dry and hopeless heart, allowing a glimpse of light to flicker...
“What the hell did you say!!!” He grabbed my neck, “If you don’t want me to overturn the motorcycle, then stop talking about it, I am getting goosebumps!”
I didn’t answer, leaving him frustrated.
“Korn! I’ll drop you off right now! I’ve had enough! It took a lot of effort to get out of the house!” He complained. This time, his anger was genuine, and I should not interfere or cause trouble. It may cause his face to get oily, I’m afraid girls won’t love him.
The suck-up is good, I’ll give him credit when he sucks up every day until he disappears!
After driving for a while, I arrived at the football field that Knock mentioned. I got out of the car with him and walked in together.
“Oh, Knock is here!" His friends exclaimed.
“Oh, you guys. This is Korn, my friend from high school. These guys, Korn and I, used to list them from left to right. There’s Gord, Meen, Few, Piew, Beem, and the youngest brother, Fiaz.”
We greeted each other as usual. Then, not long after, a group of locals came to the field and asked to join. So, Knock and I ended up competing against them. If anyone loses, they have to leave the field. I didn’t play in the first round, but because Knock got tackled and injured badly, Few asked him to get out and I had to step in for him. I didn’t say much, but I’m not the type of person to back down, so I went on the field for less than five minutes. I tackled the guy who tackled Knock so hard that he cried like a dog. Few tried to separate us but he was too slow.
“You bastard! This is cheating!" His friends yelled while Beem and Meen tried to prevent any further escalation.
“You should calm down, Korn.”
Thud!
It seemed like the other side saw an opportunity when Pew was calming me down and I didn’t react in time, so he started hitting me first. I pushed Few until he stumbled and hit whoever was in my way. That’s while chaos broke loose and I didn’t even know who was who. No one was left standing. Whoever rushed in, I punched them in the face. Knock came out of nowhere and ran and punched someone next to me without caring that it hurt at all. He slammed his elbow into everyone who got in his way, especially the person who punched me in the face. I saw Knock hit him in the face three times in a row.
Ouch!
“You hit my friend, you jerk!” Knock yelled, and at that moment, another guy from that side came running and kicked Knock’s leg until he fell and then, he stomped on his already injured leg.
“Oy!” The loud moaning sound from Knock awakened the dormant anger in me. Really intense anger. I didn’t even know what I was doing. I just ran forward. No one could catch me. They tried to grab me but I zoomed in and only grabbed my neck and the shirt of the person who attacked Knock. I punched their face, stomped, kicked, and pulled without stopping. I was furious. I didn’t hear the screams around me until I realized that Pew and Beem pulled me away from the scene, but I still stomped on the face of the person who attacked until Knock, who was being supported, screamed out loud.
“Enough, Korn! He’s going to die. Do you hear? He’s going to die!!” But I didn’t listen. If Beam had not held me tightly like before, I would go back and hit that bastard every time until Knock had to grab my arm. He held my face and turned it to look at him.
“Listen to me!! Enough!! It’s enough!!” Knock’s serious voice made me gasp for breath, my hands clenched tightly, and sweat streamed down my face. When I turned to look at the guy again, I saw him lying there covered in blood. His friends quickly supported him, but they all looked at me with a horrified expression. I bowed down and looked at both sides of my hands. My hands were covered in the asshole’s blood as if I punched on the wall...
I squeezed with all my strength...
Knock squeezed my shoulder tightly. It was the first time I saw a horrified look in his eyes.
“Your friend is very cruel, Knock. At first, I thought he was cruel enough, but when you were trampled on the leg and just the look in his eyes, he killed the person who hurt you. That guy didn’t dare to escape after you trampled on him because he was afraid of Korn’s gaze and couldn’t move.” Pew explained with a pale, timid face while I just stood still. I pulled Knock in and hugged him tightly, wrapping him up as tightly as possible. My heart was pounding violently...
Knock was stunned.
He didn’t hug me back.
But he called my name in an unbelievably loud voice.
“Korn... you...”
“Don’t...”
“...”
“Don’t let anyone hurt you again if you don’t want me to be like that... I don’t want to be a killer, Korn.”
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