[T/N] I apologize for grammar mistakes and incoherencies
Chapter 58 <1000> #5.
But even though he had already cummed, the center of the other party’s cock still pointed straight up, after measuring the size with his naked eyes.
Sangwoo is surprised that this thing has entered his body before. When he saw Jaeyoung picking up a new condom, he crawled on his knees and grabbed the other person’s arm.
“Not like this. Let’s change and do it outside like before.” [I think frotting]
“Why? No, I haven’t done well yet.”
“It’s not about not being able to do it. Just doing something better is enough.”
“Who said I can’t do it!”
Jaeyoung stammered with a red face before exhaling softly.
“Because you’re too tight. And... it’s too sexy.”
“Just think about it. Something that’s tight can’t expand. And something that’s sexy can’t stop being sexy.”
The other side laughed, still looking relaxed, their gaze fixed on Sangwoo.
“But I’ve cummed once. We should focus on something else now.”
Jaeyoung ripped open a new condom packet without giving Sangwoo a chance to refuse. He grabbed the tip and quickly rolled it on before leaning down to be close to Sangwoo’s face.
“Give me another chance.”
“...”
“Just five minutes.”
Despite being tempted to refuse, Sangwoo couldn’t help but be captivated by Jaeyoung’s serious expression. He was completely drawn in by that gaze.
“...Okay, just five minutes.”
It wouldn’t make much difference whether they lasted or not. Sangwoo stayed lying down as before, thinking that if the other party wanted it that badly, he would agree to do it again.
The sound of the gel tube squeezing ended and Jaeyoung pressed down again, but this time the other party flipped Sangwoo over. Adjusting to the force, when he finally moved, he ended up in a prone position.
“...Hyung?”
Sangwoo turned to look backwards with an uneasy feeling, but Jaeyoung pressed down again and slowly entered, replacing the answer. Sangwoo clenched his teeth and started counting backwards from 300. Maybe because this was the second time, he didn’t feel the same pain and discomfort as the first time. If it went in all the way, it might feel better when repeated. So Sangwoo just waited, but Jaeyoung refused to go all the way in.
Jaeyoung attached himself to Sangwoo’s back and began to move subtly, resembling someone writing a book or scraping a wall, unlike the moment before when he only barged in abruptly. Judging from the posture that resembled an animal and the internal organ structure, especially the prostate, Sangwoo immediately understood Jaeyoung’s intention.
“Ah...”
That was because the tip of the rod grazed against a certain point. Sangwoo clenched his teeth, trying to count backwards again. 220... 219... 218...
“Sangwoo, are you still counting?”
“215. And... don’t worry—, ah...”
Jaeyoung hugged his waist tightly and pushed harder, once again hitting that spot. Sangwoo tightened the bed sheet automatically, secretly thinking that it might be just a coincidence, but then the other party stabbed at the same spot again.
“You are only halfway through. What has it become? Is this enough?”
Sangwoo couldn’t answer that question. Just as he was about to respond, a strange feeling intervened, causing him to grit his teeth. If the previous act was a slow exploration, now Jaeyoung was truly digging. It felt good that he was being opened and delved into deep without being violent, unlike the direct stimulation of the cock through frotting. This experience was a sensation he had just experienced for the first time in his life.
“Ah, ah... Ah, ah...”
The complex feelings became increasingly chaotic. Even though he bit his lip to suppress the moans, the sensations were pushed back in immediately, causing him to inadvertently keep his mouth open.
“Wait a moment... Wait a moment, ah...”
“Why? Is there a problem?”
“Slowly... Slowly... No, go faster...”
Sangwoo didn’t know what he was saying, he closed his eyes tightly, trying to hold onto himself and not let go with the strange happiness. Yet, deep down, he also wants to surrender to that feeling. He doesn’t know what his heart truly desires.
Jaeyoung rested his chin on Sangwoo’s shoulder and pressed their bodies closer together, his hands that used to wander around Sangwoo’s chest and neck now move up to his hairline. Then, the way Jaeyoung caressed the other’s hip and smashed straight forward. Jaeyoung searched and pressed a point that makes Sangwoo’s arm tremble like a coordinate lock and then attacks suddenly. And then he increases the speed continuously.
“Uh, uh, ugh... ah!”
Sangwoo tries to stiffen his arms to support himself, but no matter how hard he tries to close his mouth, he can’t contain the explosive sound that comes from within, before he even has time to prepare for the first wave of emotions, another wave follows. Sangwoo began to be overwhelmed by that wave that came without resistance, the frequency of movement became faster, counting one number per second. He doesn’t know when but he failed to count numbers anymore.
“Ah, oh, ahh!”
His mouth emits strange sounds, sounds that would never escape in normal times, and the breath that hits his ear becomes more intense each time. Then Jaeyoung covered his earlobe tightly, pressing against his body forcefully. Sangwoo felt the overwhelming pleasure reaching his abdomen and let out a moan.
The arms that have been supporting his body shake until Sangwoo finally collapses. Even though he tries to lift himself up again, fails. Sangwoo is exhausted, leaning his cheek and shoulder against the bed, breathing heavily, until Jaeyoung drops his weight down and hugs him from behind, whispering in his ear.
“What... is this, want me to stop?”
Sangwoo turned his face even though he’s still lying face down. Although his body feels strange, even though he’s tormented to the point where tears almost flow, he doesn’t want it to stop. He wants more than this, faster than this, rougher than this. Sangwoo gritted his teeth and screamed in his heart.
Suddenly, Jaeyoung stopped. Sangwoo, who has become accustomed to the continuous bombardment of happiness, suddenly becomes irritated and turns around to look back. Jaeyoung withdraws and flips Sangwoo over.
The other party quickly moved in, assuming a position with both legs of Sangwoo draped over their shoulders, forcefully spreading them apart. They used their hands to pry open the rear entrance and inserted his cock back in.
Jaeyoung emerged and leaned down to silence Sangwoo’s lips. Sangwoo tightly gripped both of Jaeyoung’s arms, closing his eyes and gritting his teeth to endure the pressure as the strong and rigid flesh penetrated him for the third time.
Jaeyoung acted aggressively from the beginning, thrusting in forcefully until the flesh collided with a loud squelching sound. Then he violently shifted his lower body and began stirring up emotions once again. Sweat dripped from the tip of Jaeyoung’s nose, his face looking so serious it seemed like he was angry.
“Ah, ah, uh... Ugh, damn, wait a moment...”
Sangwoo didn’t know what to do, so he held Jaeyoung’s neck tightly. Jaeyoung pressed his palm against his cheek before sliding his fingers, which had lost all patience, into his mouth. Sangwoo clenched his teeth on the fingers in front of his face with great force to prevent himself from succumbing to the mixed sensations of torment and pleasurable swallowing. The storm of intense desire that he encountered for the first time made his body drenched in sweat. At the same time, he automatically lifted his hips to meet the impact. The louder the sound flesh colliding, the more intense the pleasure became.
Sangwoo was overwhelmed and had to cup and rub his own cock, desperately trying to alleviate the increasing need, while moaning and whimpering. The signs of heightened abnormal male heat trembled in response to stimulation, if even the slightest touch would bring him ultimate pleasure.
But just then, Jaeyoung grabbed Sangwoo’s moving hand and quickly intertwined their fingers, doing the same with the other hand. Sangwoo was rendered powerless, his arms bound atop his head while his cock was screaming and leaking.
“Let go. Ah... and let go!”
Sangwoo struggled, but Jaeyoung used his body to hold him down. The other party only shifted his hips slightly while staring into Sangwoo’s face, silently deciding to attack at the same G spot once again. And every time he collided at that spot, the image in front of Sangwoo blurred, and his previously resisted sexual desire surged higher, as if sprouting wings. His body twisted with the immediate need for release.
“Fuck you hyung, how many times do I have to tell you to let go!”
“Huh... Huh... Why are you behaving so indecently? If you are still rude to speak so vulgarly... I will be stopping.”
Because his hands were held back, preventing Sangwoo from touching his cock. Sangwoo only shifted his hips instead. He couldn’t wait for the person above to enter him again, so he took the opportunity and thrust his hips forward, the sound of flesh colliding creating waves, a faint sound echoing in the small room, and a strong breath bursting out of the lungs like a marathon runner. Sangwoo tightly squeezed Jaeyoung’s hand and bit into his shoulder.
“Damn... You’re already crazy.”
Jaeyoung whispered amidst moans and gasps, who said not to speak obscenely? He himself was speaking while leaning down to kiss his neck.
“Huh...”
“Sangwooya, huh... How many years in prison do you get for making someone lose consciousness for such a crime?”
“Huh...huh”
“Huh... Huh... What... Hey, you, I asked... How much is the fine for driving someone crazy?”
The sound of Jaeyoung’s moaning broke beside his ear. The other party released Sangwoo’s wrist. Then he reached out and grabbed his cock, which was wet and smiling with lubrication. Sangwoo screamed uncontrollably.
That voice didn’t sound like his own, there was no way it could be his voice, his body being overwhelmed by a man’s genitals and feeling so good that he was intoxicated, but Sangwoo didn’t care, he only cared that all the accumulated strength was directed towards the climax.
“What does it mean...?”
“Chu Sangwoo... you are so sexy.”
Jaeyoung whispered in his ear and thrust his body forward until it reached its peak.
As he saw the climax of the arousal.. Sangwoo closed his eyes tightly, the fluid trapped inside him was released like a volcano that had been set free, amidst the black image in front of him, there was a burst of bright colors. Even though his eyes were closed, he was still surrounded by light. Sangwoo had never felt like this before.
“Huh... Huh...”
Jaeyoung withdrew his body, causing a strange sound, but even so, he was too weak to feel embarrassed and exhausted from the overwhelming pleasure, Jaeyoung’s body seemed filled with sexual energy from head to toe.
Otherwise, he wouldn’t be able to feel so satisfied.
“You are still hard, huh.”
Sangwoo felt as if he heard a faint sound coming from afar, while a lingering feeling remained at the fingertips. Sangwoo stared at his sweaty hand in disbelief.
Slowly regaining consciousness, he looked at the clock, which showed 4:58 am, wondering if it was broken. He also noticed Jaeyoung’s still trembling body and overwhelming emotions. Despite feeling numb, he couldn’t even twitch his fingers. In this state of mind, he didn’t feel like doing anything at all.
“Are you sleepy? Let me change the sheets and then we can go to sleep.”
Sangwoo blinked, and amidst the darkness, Jaeyoung appeared with a freshly folded rectangular sheet instead of getting up. Sangwoo extended his arms wide on the other side. As Jaeyoung curled up and sat down, Sangwoo wrapped his arms around him, hugged him tightly, and immediately closed his eyes.
“Sangwoo.”
“...”
“Are you asleep?”
With less than an hour left to sleep, just waking up before five o’clock was already a miracle for Sangwoo. When Jaeyoung asked, “Are you asleep, you brat?” seemed to have fallen asleep for real.
Chapter 59: Yellow #1.
It had been a long time since he woke up with the feeling of someone sleeping close to him, let alone that person turning out to be a man named Chu Sangwoo, which made it even more strange.
Jaeyoung carefully examined the side profile of the man lying with his arm propped up, scrutinizing his sharp and intelligent features, with a nose and eyelashes that made his face look sharp and clever when forgotten. In contrast, the fair skin around the neck connecting to the collarbone gave a sense of boyishness. Jaeyoung greatly enjoyed the conflicting emotions displayed on this face.
Sunlight shone brightly through the window, and the sun’s rays danced on the black hair and eyebrows, creating a romantic atmosphere in the morning.
As he leaned down for a hug, Sangwoo blinked and slowly opened his eyes. The person being hugged blinked for a moment before widening his eyes and turning around to find. Jaeyoung with a confident smile.
“Did you sleep well?”
Sangwoo fully opened his eyes and glanced, seemingly reflecting on what happened last night from his facial expression. When the other party raised his hand and rubbed his forehead, it seemed like a restless movement, but that was probably because his body was more exposed. “Yes.”
Answering the question, Sangwoo sat up.
“Jesus...”
The other party groaned uncomfortably and walked away, stumbling.
‘Did I overdo it?’
It seemed like the unexpected had become a normal occurrence for Jaeyoung. It was the same yesterday. At first, he intended to enhance the atmosphere by drinking wine beforehand. Then he waited for Sangwoo to come to him. He would then melt and control the other party from head to toe, managing the game conveniently. He intended to use gentle and perfect techniques to impress that having sex with him was sweet and satisfying.
However, while waiting in front of the door for over ten minutes, Jaeyoung’s imagination ran wild to the point where he almost lost control of his body. And it was difficult to endure until the appointed time, so he tried to use that intense heat to melt the cool other party like ice. But during the struggle, he accidentally said something inappropriate. Furthermore, even after putting it in, the other party still didn’t seem to feel anything and asked to take it out.
Even though it was already inserted, he wondered why the other party still couldn’t concentrate. Was it because it was their first time having anal sex, or was it because they had a special “centerline”? Jaeyoung was struggling in a difficult situation and ended up feeling too overwhelmed in the end.
Moreover, he unintentionally became more aggressive than intended.
Sangwoo walked into the bathroom without saying anything. In the room, only Jaeyoung remained. He leaned against the pillow and pondered about the sensations he experienced last night, realizing that humans have sexual feelings 24 hours a day.
Jaeyoung lay still for a while before getting up from the bed and walking to open the window. Then he walked around the room to pick up the scattered remnants of last night, picked up his clothes, threw away the trash, put the bedsheet in the laundry machine, and tidied the room. He didn’t like cleaning and wasn’t skilled at it, but if he didn’t do it, Sangwoo would have to do it, so he had no choice.
Sangwoo came out of the bathroom when Jaeyoung finished sweeping the room and was drinking water. The other party was in a state with wet hair and wearing both the upper and lower parts, different from when they entered with only underwear. Seeing that the other party took a long shower, Jaeyoung made a sarcastic remark.
“Were you jerking off in there?”
“...”
He just said that, but it seemed true judging by his expression. Sangwoo stood still with an anxious face. As he handed a glass of water, he drank it all at once, and his gaze carefully looked at Jaeyoung’s face.
“You’re not leaving, huh?”
“Going.”
Looking at the clock, it was almost noon.
“Lunchtime, huh?”
“I’ll find something to eat myself.”
In the cupboard, there were only ready-to-eat authentic curry dishes. He wanted to buy food for him, but judging by his expression, he would probably be rejected with the reason ‘I want to be alone’ That’s probably it.
Sangwoo hesitated as he tried to sit down on the chair and ended up sitting halfway. When asked what was wrong, the other party gestured for him to hurry up. Jaeyoung knew that now was the time to retreat, but he couldn’t bring himself to step back.
“Do you have to go part-time today?”
“I will take a break first, then go.”
Where are you going in that condition? Where is your phone.”
The other party’s face seemed puzzled as to why he was asking like that. Jaeyoung glanced around the room before walking over to search Sangwoo’s backpack and took out his phone. Sangwoo simply drank water and slumped onto the desk as if he didn’t care about what Jaeyoung was going to do. Jaeyoung looked at the other party thoughtfully, dialed the game store owner’s number, and made the call.
[Sangwoo. Is there something wrong?]
“Hello. I’m a close friend of Sangwoo’s. Today, he’s not feeling well, so I’ll work in his place.”
[Oh, is he really unwell?]
“I don’t think he can go anywhere today.”
[Have you worked at a game store before?]
Although he had no working part-time anywhere other than a restaurant, Jaeyoung chose to answer yes. The store owner told him to come in thirty minutes and expressed concern for Sangwoo. After hanging up, Jaeyoung turned to face Sangwoo, who was staring at him.
“...I don’t think you need to do that.”
“You can stay here.”
“But there’s a lot of cleaning to do. Plus, organizing the storage room, preparing food, and handling the money.”
“I’ll take care of it myself.”
Sangwoo sighed with a face that Jaeyoung couldn’t tell if he didn’t trust him or if he felt guilty.
“Thank you. I’ll transfer today’s wages to you once the salary is out.”
Jaeyoung blinked his eyes. He didn’t expect to receive such a simple thank you, but he didn’t miss the opportunity for a good gesture.
“Don’t worry about the money. Let me ask something else instead.”
“What do you mean?”
“Starting tomorrow, save me with a new name.”
He said as he slipped the phone into Sangwoo’s hand, actually accidentally seeing that his own number was still recorded as ‘NonPaddler 3’, in the midst of searching through the address book. Sangwoo responded casually, as if it wasn’t a big deal.
“Sure.”
The condition is that you must add a special symbol.”
“What symbol?”
“There is a prohibition , no words like graphic, design, artistic, intense, hyung, included.”
Sangwoo’s face seemed to say, ‘I don’t understand what you’re talking about at all,’ for a moment before changing back to a calm expression.
“Understood.”
“Then take a break.”
Jaeyoung licked his lips on the other side and headed towards the door.
‘Why do I have to have sympathy to this extent?’
He wondered as he walked down the stairs, why he had to pretend to be sympathetic. Although he was skilled at pretending to be gentle, fundamentally, Jaeyoung was a human who cared little about others. Wherever he went, he always maintained basic manners, but he hated annoying things and wasn’t a soft-hearted person. However, he didn’t know why Jaeyoung felt sympathy for the person sitting hunched over the table.
Jaeyoung started the car and drove out, but his destination wasn’t home. He headed towards the most delicious restaurant in the area, bought kimchi stew, spicy tofu stew, and two servings of rice, wrapped them up, and bought skinsoothing ointment from a pharmacy for the swollen, discolored skin. He stopped by a convenience store and picked up drinks, seat cushions, snacks, eggs, fresh meat, stir-fry dishes, and fruits according to his thoughts, then paid and realized he was holding two large plastic bags. Finally, he stopped by a bakery and bought some bread before driving back to Sangwoo’s house.
After knocking on the door and waiting for a moment, the door opened, and he walked past Sangwoo, who was standing in an unusual posture, and placed the six bags on the floor.
“Eat this now, and save this for a warm meal later.”
He took out the stew and placed it on the table, put the seat cushion on the chair, and stored the bottled fruit juice, yogurt, other snacks, and fresh fruits in the refrigerator.
“The rest, if you’re hungry, take it out and eat.”
He placed the box of fruit, the bag of chewy snacks, and the bag of bread on the floor, all of them before picking up the medicine in the small leaf bag and squeezing it into Mr. Sangwoo’s hand.
This part is for applying when it hurts.”
Sangwoo frowned as if he didn’t understand. Jaeyoung walked to the door, determined to really leave this time. But in the end, he couldn’t take it anymore, turned around again, kicked off the single shoe he had on, threw it halfway, and walked back into the room, grabbing the absent minded figure of the man and hugging him tightly. Sangwoo handed himself over quietly without resistance.
“Last night was really great.”
Jaeyoung spoke softly. Even though he acted as if he didn’t feel anything, deep down in his mind was filled with Sangwoo’s joyful expression. After a moment, Sangwoo responded.
“No, that’s a lie. You didnt cum, hyung.”
“Well, I cummed once, isn’t it?”
“Because I’m not good enough, right?”
“Not even a bit.”
Even though Jaeyoung had to both coax and comfort the other party, and even had to endure some insults, in the end, things turned out fine. It was a bit regrettable that it was mistimed.
“Take a break. And don’t think about practicing anything strange.”
“Okay.”
Jaeyoung hurriedly left, thinking that it wouldn’t be safe to stand so close together like this. Sangwoo didn’t stop him.
Jaeyoung descended the stairs clumsily. As soon as he came out of the building, he was greeted by the clear sky. However, he didn’t go straight to the car, but instead stopped to bask in the sunlight next to the bike parking area, smoking a cigarette.
‘Have you achieved your goal?’
After being rejected so earnestly, despite having an important matter ahead of him, how difficult it must have been. Jaeyoung squeezed out every trick in the book to try and sleep with Chu Sangwoo once, and he had to use superhuman patience to avoid touching the other party even by a fingertip. When he got what he wanted, he should have felt relieved and ready to dump him, but behind that satisfaction was a sense of uneasiness that he didn’t understand.
Jaeyoung didn’t like this clouded feeling at all.
“Or is it because I did not cum like that kid said?”
He smiled slightly and extinguished the cigarette he had just smoked, tossing it into the trash bin after only half a drag.
⌘W.
The next day, Sangwoo appeared in the office at the same time with an expression as if nothing had happened. Jaeyoung hoped to see the other party not wearing a helmet because he left it in his car, but the man put on a slightly older-looking helmet that had a similar design but seemed more worn out. He didn’t expect there to be a spare one. “We haven’t seen each other for a while.” Yoona greeted and glanced at Jaeyoung.
“Yes.”
Sangwoo strode in, placed his backpack on the empty table, unzipped it, and took out a notebook. After plugging the mouse into the computer, instead of sitting down, Sangwoo picked up something and threw it to Jaeyoung. In a white plastic bag with the pharmacy’s logo, there was a belt buckle, a pair of black shorts, and a folded pair of Jaeyoung’s socks, as if they had been washed for him.
“Giving you the things you left behind. I want my hat back. And then...”
The other party spoke calmly. Then they turned to make sure Yoona was looking the other way, then leaned in closer to Jaeyoung before using their hand to cover their mouth and whisper softly in his ear.
“Did you put on my underwear? Bring them back tomorrow.”
“Ha? Oh...”
Jaeyoung spoke hesitantly, like a timid person.
“And I did as you requested.”
Sangwoo handed him a phone. When he received it and unlocked it, he found a contact list. He scrolled down with excitement, searching for the name that used to be around but is now somewhere else. He scrolled and scrolled, continuously, and finally found it.
[Jaeyoung, ㅅㅂ♨.]
“...”
Although he did not expect the other party to save his name as “JaeyoungHyung♥.” immediately, he thought it was a bit too much. And even though the words “Hyung, ㅅㅂ.” were considered prohibited terms which meant “elder brother.” he saw them as something else now.
“Translator’s note: ㅅㅂ. In this case, it is an abbreviation for 선배, which means “senior” “Sunbae = elder brother”. However, by chance (?) the word 씨발 or 시발 is pronounced as ‘sheebal’ or ‘shibal’. The ‘shee’ part of the first word is pronounced heavier is a curse word meaning fuck, shit. And its abbreviation is ㅅㅂ, just like this.”
“Are you satisfied?”
Sangwoo took the phone from Jaeyoung’s hand, who was still staring at the screen until it was almost dark, and put it in his backpack.
“This symbol, what does it mean?”
“Do I have to tell you?”
“Hmm.”
“I’ve tried looking at all the symbols. That one suits you “hyung” the most.”
“It’s not a star ☆. It’s not an emphasis symbol, ※. It’s not a musical note, ♬, which means relaxation, but it’s ♨, which means a hot bath. Just kidding.” “Well, it’s always boiling hot. When I’m with you, hyung.”
“...”
Chapter 60: Yellow #2.
Accidentally, it’s impossible. There are surprises form Sangwoo all the time, a certain and intentional heart that intends to bite the other side disappears in the blink of an eye. Even though the name ‘Jaeyoung ㅅㅂ♨’ is not as pleasing as ‘Jaeyoung-Hyung♥’ after hearing the explanation, he felt somewhat pleased. However, the fact that he upgraded from ‘NonPaddler 3’ is a good encouragement. Otherwise, he would not have escaped and become ‘Sunabe Jang Jaeyoung, Virtual Arts Design’ like everyone else. As soon as he sees Jaeyoung’s face, Sangwoo speaks up.
“Don’t get too immersed in data for just a few bytes.”[1.]
“Who’s getting too immersed?”
“Both you and my father, that’s it. It’s just a few characters, it can’t be a big deal.”
“And how do you like it? If I still remember your name as a bad person.”
“I don’t care because I’m not a bad person.”
Sangwoo spoke as if it wasn’t important, but then he raised his hand as if he remembered something.
“Let me see. What did you save my name for?”
“... It’s a secret.”
Jaeyoung took out his phone and hid it in his shirt pocket. Sangwoo quickly gave in. The other side went back to sitting in its original place, examining the schedule with an indifferent expression, while Jaeyoung stuffed a white plastic bag into the drawer.
“I have to put on the sound this week. I’ve found some free sound effects that are usable without copyright and I’m about to send the link via email.
Please check and let me know how it goes.”
“How is the sound quality?”
“It varies. I think if I look carefully, there should be something usable.”
“The sound effects may not matter, but it would be better to have a looping opening song and BGM. Let me gather information on that.”
“Okay.”
Then, the sound of keyboard typing and mouse clicks came from the right side, but Jaeyoung’s hand, which had been still since Sangwoo appeared, had no intention of moving again. Jaeyoung sneakily glanced at Sangwoo before lifting his coffee to take a sip. Then he sneakily looked at Sangwoo again and lifted his phone to play with it. Afterwards, he sneakily looked at Sangwoo once more and raised his hand to touch his own collar. ‘How did I let you sit next to me until this point?’
He wants to touch, kiss, and hug the other person from behind until his body is satisfied. Having to come up with excuses just to touch the other person a little bit. Although the relationship has developed to a certain extent, it seems pointless. At least for Jaeyoung, he used to think that once he got a kiss, he would unlock the hand-holding. Once he got a kiss, he would receive a coupon to do whatever he wanted. Once there was sex, he would have the privilege of accessing each other’s bodies, but when it comes to the other person, even just touching their cheek requires thinking and thinking again.
‘Doing something forcefully wont work.’
Chu Sangwoo determines the direction of this relationship. If Jaeyoung is going up the elevator, the other person wants to be going up the stairs. No matter what Jaeyoung tries to do, it turns out that the other person is still down there. sometimes seeming to stop where they were, but as soon as he realizes it, the other person is catching up. Or at least when Sangwoo stops in place. Jaeyoung can only press the elevator stop button and wait without any choice, this relationship continues like that.
“What are you doing?”
A sudden sound caused Jaeyoung to escape from his thoughts. Sangwoo, who dragged a chair to sit next to the light from the screen, looked at the other side with eyes full of the excitement of the other person.
“What’s this?”
Sangwoo minimized the screen, causing the pink circle that had been enlarged to fill the screen to shrink. When it shrank to 100%, the nipple that Jaeyoung had poured his body and soul into the light and shadow turned into just a small dot. Sangwoo sat still, looking at the character wearing a swimsuit ready with a swimming ring around his waist.
“Let me fix the button first. The part that requires money to buy can be done later.”
“I want to do this first.”
The two characters of Veggie Venturer, are named Chuchu and Jaejae, respectively. At first, Sangwoo suggested the names ‘Chelsu and Jaeyoung’. After arguing for a while, they changed their names. They planned to sell it from the beginning of the game. Both characters would wear basic costumes, but when they bought and installed cash items, their performance would be upgraded.
“How far have you done?”
Jaeyoung saved the file before opening the completed part for Sangwoo to see. He has completed all ten, including Lockstar Chuchu, Teacher Chuchu, Dugout Chuchu, Spiritual Chuchu, Mafia Chuchu, Mechanic Chuchu, Savage Tribe Chuchu, Barista Chuchu, Yipsee Chuchu, and currently making Swimsuit Chuchu.
“You’ve been working on so many since when?”
“Look, you can change eye color and hair color too.”
“I’ve never heard of such a thing before.”
“Well, I’m telling you now.”
Every time Jaeyoung presses the keyboard, Chuchu’s hairstyle, holding a carrot with a pouting face, changes continuously, including soft waves, tousled bob, skinhead undercut, crimped, half-up, cat sport. And then tied in a bun. They are all hairstyles that he wants to see Sangwoo actually do, especially the skinhead undercut, because Sangwoo is a person with a handsome bald head, he thinks it would look very good if he did it. Sangwoo hugs his chest, looks at the green-eyed character with brown hair tied neatly.
“That’s good, but as I said, this is not important. And what about Jaejae?” “Did the same”.
Jaeyoung opens the character’s cache item image file for Sangwoo to see briefly, then Sangwoo raises his eyebrows and taps his fingers on the table.
“This is clearly gender discrimination, well done”.
“Why? The number is the same”.
“You think I can’t tell that you just changed the skirt color and copied and pasted it?”
Speaking directly made it seem like he couldn’t figure it out.
“It’s not like that. Make both characters the same quality. And first, start fixing the buttons”.
“Wait, let me finish this...”.
Jaeyoung opens the project file again and zooms in on the right chest of Chuchu in a swimsuit, making a low murmuring sound, wondering what the other party might be doing in the background, then he focuses on adding three-dimensional details to the image.
“Now the hyung you look...”.
“Sexy?”.
“Seems like you have a psychopath.”
“How do you know I’m thinking about indecent things?”
Finally, there was a valid excuse to touch the other party. Jaeyoung reaches out to hug Sangwoo’s waist and slowly slides in to find himself. He extends his finger along Sangwoo’s buttock and speaks softly.
“I am not gentle, you can understand me.”
“How about doing this in the office? We’re not just two people here.”
Sangwoo withdraws his hand and whispers. Jaeyoung laughs, leans closer, and lightly taps his own lips a few times with his finger. Sangwoo sees it and shakes his head, moving away.
“You come here quickly before I go on a strike”.
“Are you crazy? This is the workplace”.
“Otherwise, I’ll take your hard disk and run away. One kiss and I’ll send you one file”.
“How can a computer newbie like you remove a hard disk, hyung?”
“Seriously, I’m clueless about computers.”
Sangwoo couldn’t help but laugh without realizing it. The sight of the other person smiling widely didn’t happen often until now. But it seemed that the reason for the lack of eye contact was not just because it was difficult to see. Originally, Jaeyoung thought of giving up the teasing, but when he saw
Sangwoo moving closer, he started teasing again. As he poked his waist, Sangwoo immediately twisted and put his hand on his back, asking why he was doing this. However, the other party could do nothing but burst into laughter. Sangwoo laughed as if he was about to burst into tears and used his foot, clad in Jaeyoung’s belly sneakers. The gesture looked surprisingly cute.
“Ah, stop, please. I... I’m really tired.”
‘I want to eat you.’
Suddenly, the joking atmosphere disappeared and turned into an erotic one, 18+ only, at that moment they thought they wanted to become animals to know and survive. If they weren’t human, but two dogs, they would probably wag their tails like yesterday.
Bang!
At that time, the person who was completely forgotten made a grand entrance. An orange light glimmered and hit Jaeyoung’s foot. Jaeyoung picked it up casually and turned around slowly, encountering Yoona standing still with a strange shoulder gesture.
Sangwoo quickly pulled his hand away from the table, returned to his seat, and stared at the computer screen as if nothing had happened, even though his ears were turning red.
Jaeyoung signaled with his hand for Yoona to go back and sit down. A few days ago, she came to ask something, so he already prepared a little, but he didn’t know why the other party was so surprised. The sound of mouse clicks and keyboard typing continued in the tense atmosphere before Yoona spoke up.
“Jang-Jaeyoung, do you want to smoke downstairs?”
Jaeyoung picked up the pack of cigarettes and a lighter and stood up without saying anything. When he pointed towards the door, Yoona walked out with the slipper first. Jaeyoung gently brushed the back of Sangwoo’s head before following the girl out.
“Are you two sleeping together?”
Yoona asked immediately upon reaching the first floor. Among the people Jaeyoung knew, Choi Yoona spoke straight to the point without beating around the bush ‘but that was before he had met Chu Sangwoo’ Jaeyoung didn’t rush to answer, but instead flicked the cigarette ash and took a deep drag, Yoona continued with a sharp tone.
“Just interested, huh? But you still managed to deceive a vulnerable kid, didn’t you?”
“What do you want?”
He couldn’t let that remark pass. Jaeyoung exhaled cigarette smoke and glanced at his friend’s tense face. Yoona was not a calculating person, nor a hot-tempered one, but rather somewhat reserved when it came to matters of love. Therefore, if she wasn’t currently involved with anyone, she would often get lost in past stories, and now it was happening again.
“Is that kid the same as well? It’s not like he’s unaffected or anything.”
“Whose side are you on? You should ask me before getting involved, right?”
“It’s not your loss if you’re dating someone else. But that guy has a different story. What are you going to do next?”
The other party’s voice sounded sarcastic. Jaeyoung replied with annoyance.
“And what have you been up to? Who do you think you are?”
Hearing that, Yoona fell silent. She was not unaware that her actions had a profound impact on other people’s relationships. Since they first met and became close, she had never been like this before. Yoona continued to silently smoke her cigarette before speaking again.
“I’ve been concerned ever since I heard from you earlier. But I thought I wouldn’t meddle. But in just a few days, you guys went from one extreme to another. You’re acting irresponsibly. Playing around with a kid like that. And what about when you leave him to study abroad? Is that kid not going to suffer?”
Jaeyoung threw the half-smoked cigarette on the ground and stomped on it with his foot. Who was playing with whom? Who would abandon whom?
Irritating and tangled. Is this the era of Chosun? Just sleeping together once requires a lifetime of responsibility.
“You’re being too harsh.”
He knew that the girl had talked a lot with one guy. She had been so infatuated with that guy that they had an ugly breakup before. And it had left Yoona heartbroken to this day, even after half a year. But that was her business, and he had no intention of allowing her to interfere in someone else’s personal life.
“Just because you choose to date only bad people, do you think everyone in the world is like that?”
“You’re right. Yeah. I’ve been hurt badly by that evil guy. And what you’re doing to that kid, how is it any different?”
“Then why do I have to explain those things to you? If you don’t understand deeply, don’t speak so lightly.”
With hair color faded to a golden hue, swaying in the wind, Yoona’s face seemed to reflect her own sadness.
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[1] Byte, the unit of data consisting of 8 bits, is used to represent alphanumeric characters, numbers, or various symbols. One character is equivalent to 1 byte.
[2] Cash items, in-game items that require spending money to purchase.
Chapter 61: Yellow #3.
Jaeyoung never thinks about the future, as the distant future is just a present of some day. Therefore, he believes in doing what he wants at the moment and living happily, and now, at the present moment. Jaeyoung is currently infatuated with Chu Sangwoo. And what could be the problem with that?
He lit a cigarette and took a deep drag, which made him feel better. Then he exhaled slowly until his lungs were empty.
“I mean, seriously... Why do you care about those things? Who knows if we’ll still feel the same way about each other when that time comes? Just focus on the present, it’s already complicated enough. I don’t have the energy to think about those things.”
Jaeyoung spoke rudely. The other person told him to start counting down the days from today and then practice crying and saying goodbye, make matching rings, and promise not to forget each other even when they’re apart.
It’s pointless.
What’s worse is that Chu Sangwoo, who is afraid of getting bad grades, doesn’t understand that having such a strong sexual desire could be heartbreaking for someone who has to go back to school abroad in two months. They are different.
“Just do those stupid things by yourself. Don’t force them on others.”
Yoona remained silent for a while and just looked up at the empty sky while smoking two cigarettes in a row. Jaeyoung waited patiently.
“That’s right. Maybe it’s because the situation is too similar. I just got carried away.”
Finally, Yoona said what she wanted to say, “Sorry for being confused.” Jaeyoung respected the other’s straightforwardness. Although their personalities and ideas are different, it’s because of that that they have been friends until now.
“Well... have you been gay since the beginning?”
“Probably not. I don’t know.”
Jaeyoung answered directly. He never really thought about it seriously.
“Jaeyoung-ah.”
Yoona only called him that when she’s teasing him.
“Even though you have to part, please behave yourself a little, it will hurt the kid.”
The girl frowned and spoke in a teasing manner, not realizing how he’s been living lately.
“Oh, poor thing... You can tell that kid has never had a boyfriend before. I don’t know what he did to end up with this crazy guy.”
Jaeyoung laughed as if it were a joke. Who knows who’s really caught up with whom. From Jaeyoung’s perspective, it’s Chu Sangwoo who’s caught up with him and is struggling, while the one who’s fishing doesn’t even realize that there’s a fish on the hook because they’re too busy looking elsewhere. Although Yoona may be misunderstanding, Jaeyoung has no intention of explaining anything.
“Do you think that kid is stupid or something? He said he’s had a boyfriend before.”
“He’s lying.”
“What’s the lie? Even if someone like him were to be threatened with death, he wouldn’t lie.”
“I can’t imagine it at all.” Yoona tilted her head.
Jaeyoung didn’t respond. He had thought like that before, but now it was different, like a whirlpool that was hard to see at first glance. Once you stepped in, you could only be sucked down. Jaeyoung didn’t delude himself into thinking that he was the only one who saw the charm of Chu Sangwoo in this world.
“In the end, won’t you still have to leave things off? There are two people in there, do not do the annoying things.”
Yoona ran down the stairs outside the building, waving her hand without looking back. Jaeyoung reached into his pants pocket and looked up at the sky. Then he hurriedly walked back into the building.
⌘W.
“Beautiful, isn’t it?”
The atmosphere was so beautiful that he blurted it out to himself, the sky at sunset chasing after indigo [1] and purple tones.
The atmosphere at dusk looked clear and was perfect for skateboarding, but Jaeyoung was chained to his desk by his evil boss to work like a slave.
The graphics side. There were some changes to Flow Chart [2] and there was a part that needed some minor adjustments, and the main work was to make it compatible with various devices. Most of the design work was done, so he could breathe a sigh of relief, but on the development side, they were fighting tooth and nail against bugs. On Sangwoo’s screen, even people who knew nothing about coding like Jaeyoung knew that it wasn’t a good sign.
‘Because the reset isn’t complete... ‘Blah blah blah.’ The code that manages the data, ‘Blah blah blah.’ As for the central variable…’
He remembered asking the other party what it meant. And in the end, he didn’t get anything back, so he didn’t think about trying again.
Jaeyoung looked out the window for a moment. When he returned to his seat, he saw that Sangwoo had stopped working and was looking at him.
Jaeyoung guessed that the other party might have something to ask for.
“What’s up?”
“I see that you just keep looking out the window.”
“It’s just because the weather is nice today.”
If you want to go out, you can go.”
What was this about? Chu Sangwoo had never allowed him to take a break without reason before. Was he being kind because their relationship was progressing? Jaeyoung thought it would be good if it was the latter.
“Then I am going to go out today. See you tomorrow.” Sangwoo spoke happily and stretched his back.
The other person couldn’t be called stupid. Even though they were just joking around, they were actually someone who didn’t think much. They just thought, “He probably wants to go on a trip,” or something like that. They didn’t think about who he wanted to go on the trip with. Jaeyoung looked up at the sky before spinning his chair in a circle.
“Sangwoo.”
“Yes?”
“Let’s go play basketball.”
The sound of typing stopped. Sangwoo was silent for about ten seconds before answering.
“I don’t think I’m free for that.”
Suddenly, the other person became soft like jelly. Jaeyoung, who originally thought the answer would be “I’m not free,” smiled widely before lazily leaning over and kissing Sangwoo’s cheek without hesitation.
“I’m going out first. Follow me after you finish packing.”
Sangwoo hesitated before following, and the two walked down the stairs without saying anything, as if they were lost in thought until they came out into the darkness. When he saw the other person blushing like when they walked together at the Jeonryundong Wall, Jaeyoung felt his heart skip a beat as if he had just had his first girlfriend.
“Hyung, are you good at basketball?”
The other person asked during that time.
“I don’t think I am bad.”
He answered modestly, but the truth was that basketball was Jaeyoung’s most confident sport. He had been obsessed with it since high school and played it frequently. When he was in college, he even joined the basketball club with his friends and competed in friendly matches.
“Then I’ll probably lose. I haven’t played since the end of high school.”
“Just play for fun. Don’t worry about it.”
Even so, I don’t want to lose.”
When he thought about it, Sangwoo had said before that he wasn’t good at playing games. Even though he was someone who excelled in competition and had higher standards than others, he didn’t seem that way on the outside. That’s why Jaeyoung thought the other person was interesting and suitable for learning, whether it was software or hardware.
“Basketball is over here.”
“I’m going to get it.”
The basketball that Jaeyoung was talking about was at the student club. This was the second time he had come here with Sangwoo, after they had come to find clothes for a short Chinese-language play. While they were walking up the stairs, Jaeyoung asked.
“Have you been here before? Do you remember?”
“On Friday, March 8th, right? That day, you took off my hat in the dressing room. I was so angry.”
“...”
It would be better not to talk about it at that time. Moreover, what made Jaeyoung startled was that it had been two months since then... If he had told himself at that time that the relationship between the two of them would turn out like this, he would not have believed it and would have laughed it off.
He walked alongside Sangwoo until they reached the door. Even though it was late, there were still loud noises coming from inside the room, as if they were having a meeting. During this time, they were preparing for the annual performance, and while he thought that they were preparing inside, he knocked on the door twice. As soon as he opened the door, the loud noise suddenly quieted down.
“I just came to get something. Please continue.”
As he walked inside, the younger members made murmuring sounds.
“Hey, sunbae!”
“Oh, you’re here, sunbae! We’ve been waiting for you!”
“Please have a seat right here, big brother.”
He knew the president, vice president, and secretary, but the other four people were kids he didn’t know. Jaeyoung hid his hand that was trying to grab him. Then he walked to the box to look for something, and the club president walked over and patted his shoulder.
You must be very tired during this time. It’s been tough working all the time.”
“Oh, yes, please take your hand off me.”
It seemed like more of a rubbing of the shoulder than a massage. The vice president handed him a black can of drink and said, “Please have a drink.” The logo on the drink can looked familiar, and he was surprised that there was still “Black Holic” left in the club room. It never expired or anything.
“...It’s better if I don’t drink that.”
He refused politely and picked up the basketball that was in his shoe pile. As he was about to leave the room, he was grabbed by both arms and forced to sit on the sofa. Sangwoo, who was standing at the door, hugged his chest and laughed at him.
“What do you have there?”
In fact, he knew very well that these people had been asking him to play the lead role, direct, and design the poster for the annual performance since the beginning of the year. Although he seemed to have given up on the poster, he was still contacted to participate in the performance until the latest phone number of the club president was added to the spam list.
Jaeyoung had to refuse. The first reason was that he was already busy with part-time jobs, hobbies, daily life, and relationship issues. The second reason was that he had taken on the roles of lead actor, director, and poster designer for the play “The Death of Salesman” last year. Although Jaeyoung had some thick skin, when he thought back to the time when he was promoting the play, “The Final Stage Play” his face suddenly became hot and he wondered how he could show his face in a theater performance again.
“Senior... can’t you help us out? I heard you say that you are busy, so we changed to performing smaller roles instead.”
“Just this once, please? Why won’t you answer my calls lately?”
“We need to cherish our valuable memories before we graduate. Please, can you understand just this once? Can you? There are people waiting to see your final performance, can you give me the list?”
Jaeyoung pushed past the younger students, hugged the basketball tightly, and walked past each person blocking the exit.
“You said it was the last festival I would help with, didn’t you? You said to think of it as if I’ve already graduated.”
But it’s not over yet!” Jaeyoung quickly closed the door before the club president, who seemed to be about to burst in, could come out.
“Hmph.” He shook off his scattered thoughts and straightened his wrinkled shirt. After he tucked the basketball under his arm, he looked to the side and saw Sangwoo covering his mouth and laughing. He didn’t know if he had thought of it himself or if he had noticed the other side’s changing expression.
“Why are you looking at me like that?”
Jaeyoung’s tone indicated that he didn’t really understand. He replied that he didn’t know either and started to walk away. Once outside, he picked up the basketball and headed towards the court. He showed off his special ability by throwing the ball high and catching it. Then he spun the ball on his finger before Sangwoo asked with his mouth covered,
“What role did they ask you to play?”
“It’s a guest role that takes about five minutes. I declined because I’m not available, so I can’t come.”
“What kind of role is it?”
“I don’t know, maybe a pirate or something. It’s a role that comes out for five minutes and then dies.”
Sangwoo remained silent. Although Jaeyoung liked the dry and hoarse voice of the other side, he also liked it when it was quiet like this. Maybe it was because it was a beautiful evening, everything looked good. Although there was nothing special, it was another day that would be remembered for a long time. He felt that today would be like that for sure, the dark purple sky made him feel like he was in a fantasy world, and Jaeyoung liked that he was going to play basketball with a boy who had no romantic angle at all. “It’s a shame.”
At that moment, Sangwoo perked up.
“What’s up?”
“I’ve never been to a drama club performance before. And now I won’t have the chance to see one.”
Jaeyoung turned to look at Sangwoo’s profile. It was an incomplete sentence and didn’t sound like Sangwoo’s usual way of speaking. But he didn’t ask what the other meant. He couldn’t ask such a question before the feeling of suffocation, like drowning, that had arisen during this period subsided.
Jaeyoung started bouncing a basketball.
Inadvertently, they both ended up standing on the green court. Jaeyoung walked to the center line and looked at Sangwoo, who was standing far away. The other’s skin looks paler than usual, having been surrounded by intense ultramarine color [3].
“Wanna bet ten points?”
“Sure.”
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[1] Indigo, a color. Color code: #3F00FF.
[2] Flow chart, a diagram that shows the sequence of movements or actions of people or things involved in various systems.
[3] Intense ultramarine color, the blue color on a basketball court.