[T/N] I apologize for grammar mistakes and incoherencies
Chapter 10:
Our lips met once again, a simple kiss that sometimes could make everything around us fade away. Nubsib's tall figure, which was initially lying on the bed, was now half on top of me with my hands. After I raised myself up, he used his thick arm to wrap around my waist, pulling me in closer as our lips still did not part. Now, we lay facing each other.
Nubsib's skin was hot, but his tongue was even hotter...
“Get on top of me.”
“...”
The other party shifted to lean half his body against the bed, lightly tapping my own thigh with his thick fingers, “Don't you want me?”
“Yes...”
“Then get up on me.”
The face and voice were still soft, but a smile at the corner of their lips seemed deceitful. My eyes looked straight ahead, slowly placing my hand on the bed. They motioned for me to sit closer, wrapping one arm tightly around my waist.
Our lower bodies pressed against each other with no space in between, my face changed instantly as I felt the hardness that pushed against it.
Nubsib's slender index finger undid the buttons of my shirt lightly, “Take it off.”
“...”
“If you are not going to do it with anyone else, then you don't need to say anything.”
“Of course.”
“Oh!...”
As soon as my hand left his strong chest, I took off my outer fashion suit jacket. The moment it dropped off my shoulder, I felt my fingers trembling slightly. The motion of pulling my arm out was hesitant, but the person in front just smiled lightly and sat still as if it was amusing, which made me decide to quickly pull it off and toss it somewhere.
Then it was time for the inner shirt. In the end, there was nothing left to cover my body, and I felt a slight shiver. As I finished taking off my shirt, I remained silent, looking at their faces and eyes as if asking, 'What's next?' Nubsib made the decision.
My mind recalled various stories I had read.
“I don't like it!”
“...?” His eyebrows furrowed, “If you don't like it, then what is it?”
A questioning tone made me lower my head and I saw that the zipper of my jeans had been pulled down, and his other hand was close, touching me in a way I didn't know since when it started. I was wearing black boxer briefs, and at this moment, my lower part had risen up to reveal everything, opening up all the sensations of touch and intimacy I had.
Nubsib used his index finger to wipe away the dampness in circles, causing me to shiver even more when touched.
“...”
As for me... I just widened my eyes, looking foolish.
The men always have done it with their hands one or twice, I know, men all over the world know, being a man must sometimes help himself with their hands, but just never thought that being touched by a man could make my shaft react like this.
“Don't…” The word “grab” had not yet slipped out, Nubsib's hand was already intimately attached to that part of me. His slender fingers gently squeezed lightly, then slowly and gently alternated with heavy.
“Nub...oh.” My voice was changed against my will. I intended to scold him, but it turned into a whimpering moan.
The sensitive center of my body was grabbed with a moderate force, but as soon as that hand moved up and down slowly, I had to grit my teeth. I bent down, leaning my cheek against the shoulder on the other side, trying to hide my face and searching for support when I felt that I couldn't stretch my body straight anymore. The turmoil made me want to twist my body to express my emotions.
“Uh, uh...”
From slow, it turned into fast, then stopped. Initially, it seemed like I was about to erupt but then Nubsib slowed down until the thing that was about to soar back was restrained, slowing down in this manner until I could barely stand it.
It feels like my head is being held down. Yes...I haven't gotten drunk yet.
“Take off your pants a little, please.”
That hand suddenly stopped. My face turned red and felt hot. Nubsib's voice made me look up, but it was a hesitant look. As my blurry vision met the eyes of the person in front, he just stared blankly.
Finally, he kissed me with a loud smack.
“Take it off. Come on, you want me, right?”
“…”
I was still motionless as Nubsib moved his hand down and pressed against my bottom provocatively, “So lift your hips up, I'll take care of you.”
Maybe because the middle part of my body that was being touched by someone else had a sensation, and maybe because of being drunk...and maybe for some other reason, I moved according to this guy's guidance. Eventually, my naked body stood in stark contrast to the other person who was fully clothed.
Nubsib's cheek pressed against mine. As his lips were near my ear, I heard a faint chuckle.
“Embarrassing, but can't stop. It's already like this.”
The phrase 'like this' from Nubsib referred to that part of me, because as soon as he finished speaking, his warm hand seized the opportunity to grab it again in his hand.
“Oh.”
Maybe it was already sensitive. Touching it again, my facial muscles twitched uncomfortably, feeling the heat almost making tears well up.
“Do you want me to help youfirst?”
“Oh...um.”
“Um what?”
“...” I couldn't make out the question at all. Besides, shifting my body slightly, without realizing it, felt cramped and uncomfortable. It seemed like my brain was heating up, with thoughts and reasoning becoming even more muddled than before.
Just feeling like I can't take it anymore...
When I didn't respond, Nubsib didn't ask again. This time, his hand willingly moved easily. The other hand lifted up to caress the corner of my lips lightly, gently slipping inside. Using his index and middle fingers, he entwined them with my tongue, softly.
I felt my emotions rise... rise. As Nubsib withdrew his finger, I bit my own lip forcefully. At that moment, I closed my eyes, following the body's urging, but before a minute passed, I had to break away.
“Uh, ah!”
“...”
I was startled, and suddenly felt the touch of fingertips on the sensitive part between my cheeks.
Emotions swirled, and I raised my head to look directly at the person in front of me with a sudden alertness. Seeing his calm, observing gaze made me increasingly aware of certain feelings rising within me. It felt like the hand resting on Nubsib's shoulder both stiffened and trembled. Eventually, my hand unconsciously moved away from the weight of his hand, but it seemed like Nubsib had also sensed my trembling emotions.
Just when I thought that only I could feel the touch, someone else might have noticed it even more. Nubsib’s hand and fingertips retreated.
... my ears heard a faint sigh floating by.
Even though my consciousness was still unclear, everything felt confusing and strange, “Nubsib...?”
“Sorry, I don't have any lube here.” the person spoke with a smile, even though Aey's voice was hoarse, “Let's do this for now, okay?”
“...”
“But next time, if there's a lube, I won't change my mind.”
I couldn't speak, I was intending to respond, as the thick hand touched me again. The hand pressed me closer towards him, and the other hand held my hand close to the zipper area of his own pants as well. When he lowered them, he immediately pressed my hand against his hot resistance, as if he had endured more than enough..
Nubsib used his hand to push my back closer to him than before. Meanwhile, the other hand caressed that part of us at the same time. Under this kind of fierce attack, I could do nothing but let out muffled sounds in my throat alternating with pursed lips.
A handsome face could be seen trying to control some sort of restrained perseverance through a vague, blurred gaze.
I leaned in closer, pressing my lips against Nubsib's once again…
…
The eyelids that closed tightly for who knows how many hours slowly opened up. The first thing I saw was the clean white ceiling in my own bedroom. The neon light bulb still shone the same as always, but now everything looks blurry. Combined with the dizziness and the gradually creeping headache, I chose to close my eyes again and try to fall back asleep. Open and close a few more times, trying to focus on resting a little longer, but...
Hold on a minute.
My eyes widened, my body jolted up from the queen-sized bed. A corner of my brain sent a warning signal.
Last night...
The flashback lasted less than a minute. Every detail floated back into my head, playing back slowly, one by one. I remembered that I had a date with an old university friend because Ai'Tor said he would treat us to several drinks. Then it seemed like Nubsib was supposed to pick me up, but how did it end? I couldn't remember. All I knew was that he carried me into the room quite closely, and...
“I want you.”
“Oh...”
My face turned pale.
The alcohol made me feel confused, as if I was on the line between dream and reality. But that didn't mean I couldn't think at all when drunk, as if my body controlled my mind. Because I was deeply worried and everything I was thinking was revealed, I was stressed about the original sex scene of myself and then handed over to Nubsib...pushed onto the bed on the other side.
What did I just put myself into?
No matter how it's reviewed, I'm still unsure of what happened to me and Nubsib. Even when I lay on the other side of the bed, I fell asleep like that, didn't I? There shouldn't have been anything more than that, right?
There's nothing... right?
My body must not have been all right because when I tried to move or get up, I didn't feel any pain at all. I confirmed that everything was normal for me, but... Nubsib.
“...”
I was frozen in shock on the bed, and even when the door opened I still didn't feel myself. I was shocked when my name was called.
“Khun Gene.”
“...!”
The tall, well-proportioned figure familiar in comfortable attire stepped in. The handsome face still had just a faint smile as always.
“Why do you look like that?”
“...”
While Nubsib smiled, I made a face as if I saw a ghost. The more I was questioned like this, the more off my facial expressions became.
The rhythm of deception was still lingering, as Nubsib slowly approached. He sat down beside the bed, just a few inches away from me. His eyes examined me openly, almost a minute later, he grabbed my arms on both sides, warm hands enclosing them, pulling me close.
“Feeling unwell?”
“A slight headache.” I replied absentmindedly.
“Alright, then. Let me get you something to eat before taking some medicine.” he said, getting up.
“Wait!”
...I realized my own actions when I reached out and grabbed Nubsib's arms, pulling him towards me, using all my strength, causing him to take a step back.
“Yes?”
Nubsib raised his eyebrows, looking at me. I could only hide my eyes.
“Um, last night...”
“Last night? What about last night?”
“Last night, I...”
Suddenly, I felt a lack of confidence in myself, and when I glanced at Nubsib, I could see a hint of amusement in his eyes.
“Last night... Was there a problem?”
“A problem?” One of Nubsib's eyebrows raised, “What problem?”
“The problem between you and me.”
“No. There was no problem.”
“What do you mean? I didn't do anything to you. Everything is normal between us, right?”
“...”
At this point, Nubsib fell silent, my face turning sour again, “Why are you quiet? You usually answer quickly that everything is normal. I haven't done anything to you. Is that right?”
Please, just answer that I haven't offended you yet, damn it.
“If you're talking about doing something... there was nothing.”
“Um...”
“But Khun Gene, you grabbed me there and even forced me to kiss you several times.”
“Damn it!” Before I could even exhale, I turned my head in anger, pushing the hand on the other person's arm away like touching a hot object.
Grabbed him there? Forced a kiss!?
Me and this guy...
My eyes glanced at my own hand that had just “grabbed someone else's thing” and it looked as foolish as looking at a dummy's organ.
At last, I tried to control his mouth, “Grab... grab right there. For men, it shouldn't be a problem.”
“...”
“I'm a man, you're a man, I don't know either. Don't think too much...”
“Think about it.”
“...”
The comforting words were abruptly cut off, “If it were you being grabbed by someone else right there, wouldn't you think about it?”
“...“
Encountering this kind of situation where he couldn't come up with a response, he tried to relate to himself based on the words of the other party.
Alright. Certainly, I have to think about it. I don't know how many men in this world watch adult movies with their male friends and dare to jerk themselves or jerk each other grab and be grabbed. But I am just not that kind of person. Even if in the future, I will have a girlfriend or wife, I have to be the one who brings happiness to her. I won't let her help me touch myself, no way.
Even though I wanted to answer in that way, I didn't want the kid to think too much, so I responded differently, “I don't think...”
“Your face says otherwise.”
“Alright! The truth is I've thought about it and I will defend myself if someone tries to grab my crotch. Why didn't you defend yourself when I grabbed you back then? You could have punched me until my mouth was bleeding to defend yourself and then pushed me away, if you had done that, it would be the end of it.”
At this point, Nubsib's face immediately changed to a frown, “How am I supposed to do that?”
“How can you not do that?”
Although waking up in pain would be bad, it would still be better than waking up and realizing that he had kissed or grabbed another guy’s crotch.
“I don't want your face to be bruised.” Saying this, Nubsib gently touched my cheeks again with his hands, his gaze slowly dropped down to the fingertips that were lightly brushing against my skin in that area.
Next, he changed to a gentle squeeze, “If I had done it for real, it would hurt a lot. Can you handle it?”
“I can handle it!”
“But I can't handle it.”
“....” I grimaced and pulled the other person's hand away, “You're not the one being grabbed, how can you not handle it?”
“If I see you in pain, even just a little, I can't handle it.”
“...”
“Another thing... If you report this to the authorities, you will be punished.”
“The point is, you're not the one being grabbed. Alright, I give up. I think it's better if we go back to how things were in the beginning. In summary... I am the one at fault in this matter. I apologize, but the situation has already occurred, and it cannot be reversed.”
“If that's the case, then... Khun Gene won't take responsibility for your actions?”
“Take responsibility? Responsibility for what?”
The other party shifted his lips slightly, the handsome face approaching mine until I leaned back. It reminded me of the time when I pressed the other party down on the bed and couldn't hold back the heat rising in my face.
Nubsib's soft and tempting voice was slow, as if being seduced and led astray, “Well you did grab my crotch?”
“Do people take responsibility... for that?”
“I don't know about others, but I do.”
“You do!?”
Nubsib was so impossible, I felt my heart flutter as if someone offered me a hundred million for free.
“Yes, I do.”
“Um…”
I couldn't say anything. If it were a normal time, I might have burst out laughing, but now I just used my eyes to look up and down at the person in front of me, unbelievable, “You yourself are a man, why bother with these things like a woman, and we're both men.” When he said this, my face stiffened slightly, “Let it go... umm, can't you just let it go?”
Even though we were of the same gender, it was still lascivious and scandalous, not much different from a man and a woman. Nubsib was trembling, thinking that the unbelievable might actually happen. For example, if this guy went and reported that I was reluctant.
“I'm quite... sensitive about these things.”
“Alright, how would you like me to take responsibility?”
With that, Nubsib smiled slightly, “I didn't intend to cause trouble for you, Khun Gene, but because I belong to you, Khun Gene.”
“Huh!?”
“Take care of me as well.”
I almost breathed wrong, widened my eyes, and quickly shook my head, “Are you crazy? I get goosebumps when you say that. Just because I grabbed your crotch you are saying I should take care of you. If I had sex with you without your consent, wouldn't you ask for marriage?”
“Of course I would.”
“...”
This... was the most insane and ridiculous thing I had ever encountered.
“No way, I don't take care of anyone at all. I can't even take care of myself.”
“Does that mean you refuse to take responsibility?”
“Damn, no, I don't want anyone else to take responsibility either. And also... you have to go out on Tuesday.”
“...”
At this point, Nubsib looked at me with a handsome face that hid a hint of mischief, playing with my hair and leaving a big lump of confusion in my heart.
My lips pursed tightly as I tried to think of a solution. In the end, I decided to remove the thick duvet. At that moment, a cold breeze blew in, hitting my legs and causing me to shiver, but the lingering problem made me indifferent. I reached out to grab Nubsib’s hands and stuck it in the middle of my crotch where I was wearing my own navy blue boxers, then quickly released the other hand and let the duvet cover it as before.
“I… let you grab mine so we are equal. This way, we can stay separate.”
“...”
“...”
Everything happened quickly, in less than a minute, but after the atmosphere fell silent for almost five minutes.
“Uh...”
“Say something...”
What broke the silence was a soft chuckle that escaped Nubsib's lips, his face initially tense but then he relaxed slightly, as if trying to hide a smile. He lowered his head slightly, as if intent on concealing his grin.
“What are you being so cute for?”
“Huh!?”
“Just a light touch like this doesn't equal things at all...” He leaned in closer to me, with a hint of a smile on his face, “Because when you did, you grabbed my crotch, stroked and even squeezed like this, making me just touch it doesn't seem very fair, does it?”
Grab, stroke, squeeze!?
“...”
“Khun Gene, you have said that I didn't cause any trouble, so even if I continue to stay here, it shouldn't be a problem, right?”
While I remained silent, not knowing what to do, Nubsib backed away. The expression on his face and the smile disappeared, replaced by a gentle smile that made him look like the gentle prince again. His serious demeanor returned, and the hand of mine that he had stuck into his pocket was slowly lifted up, and when I casually looked at it, I saw that it was placed in the middle of my head.
His slender fingers followed the tangled strands of my hair from just waking up.
“Khun Gene, you aren't disgusted with me, right?”
“No...”
“Khun Gene, you like me.”
“!?”
“When you first saw me, your heart was racing...”
“Oh my...”
Hearing these familiar words, my face felt like it was being engulfed in flames.
‘I still feel my heart racing like when I saw you for the first time.’
Alcohol may not make you forget everything, but why do you have to bring up this embarrassing fate?
“What's wrong?”
“I...I'm hungry.”
The other person smiled and in that smile hid a quick understanding. They lightly patted my face, pulled my hand away, and stood up, “I'll go get it for you. Khun Gene, you said that you have a headache. You should take some medicine.”
“Okay, thank you.”
As the other person looked away, I dared to follow their broad back as they walked out of the room. I took a deep breath, feeling the strange and fleeting atmosphere surrounding me dissipate and lighten.
Khun Gene liked me. 'Liked,' even though the words Nubsib and I exchanged were not meant to be deep or meaningful. Just hearing it made my face feel warm, but my mind tried not to dwell on that warmth.
I didn't respond to the Number Eighteen incident. It was left in limbo. What happened, even though it started with me and wasn't intentional, the intentions of both of us, was just too dangerous. Although I felt somewhat guilty, I tried not to think about that lingering warmth.
Two more days...
I thought about it and reached out to grab my own phone again. I found it lying close to the pillow and immediately opened the Line app.
Gene: Ai'Tum, when are you coming back from the province?
Gene: Come handle this issue for me.