Their I was laughing and joking around like a one happy human being even though everyone around me knows what's happening in my life they don't care
They didn't care if I was broken
They didn't care if I was suicidal
They don't care if I am moody they don't care if I am depressed they don't care if I break down cause for them it's not a big deal and I am just overreacting or being lazy
I tried I really did
I explained to everyone hoping that someone may understand if I explained but what did I get only to be called a weakling
So what did I do
I became what they wanted me to be
They want me to act like a fool
I did
They want me to act like the idiol they think of me
I did
They want me to look stupid
I did
They want me to do what they asked me to do
I did
Why did they want that because for them I am supposed to be the source of comedy rather than emotions
But now I am here and thinking about it I wish I really wish I could have been more independent than being so dependent
They will only use you if you let them in too much
I learnt it the hard way I guess
Thanks to all the toxic people of my past for my anxiety issues depression anger issues and my trust issues you gifted me..