Navigating life post-cPTSD is always a roller coaster.
Yes, I truly believe the ‘complex’ aspects of my PTSD experiences are in fact healed, but life is still lifing here and there's always situations which trigger the memory of old stories.
I'm combating that right now by beginning at least 21 days of deep appreciation practice. Shifting my focus further from the old stories that have lingered in my subconscious to fortify and ground in the new stories.
13 things I have to appreciate today then:
1. Waking up on solid ground, because while I love my van, it's nice to feel stability too.
2. The air that I breathe, because bringing my awareness to my breath instantly helps me feel calmer.
3. Brunch with all 3 of my wonderful offspring, because we're not altogether that often any more and they're all so amazing.
4. The £62.85 child benefit payment I received today, because it allowed me to buy us some food to have here at my dad's.
5. Having the use of my dad's washing machine, because I'm able to wash and dry a months load of laundry in 2 days.
6. The sunshine of today, because it always makes everything feel more hopeful.
7. Trying and liking an inclusive cafe in Whitehaven, because hopefully it'll give the eldest a safe space to go and be himself.
8. Windows, because living in a van in a field is cold, so a centrally heated bungalow has me overheating.
9. Friends messaging asking of we are OK following the storm, because it's always nice to know people are thoughtful.
10. Being able to pace outside while making a difficult phone call, because pacing calms my nervous system, and outside has more space, and grass.
11. Kind words from the bank rep on the phone, because she made the tough call easier to handle.
12. My eldest cooking me dinner, because I'm a Taurus and good food is all I need to be content.
13. The neighbourhood cat who visits my dad, because he brightens all our days with his loud purrs.
