It's been a long, looong hiatus. But it feels nice to be back and feel like myself again.
What happened?
Well, as many may put it, life happened. Responsabilities, work and other things... The expected when growing up. I was not doing a good job at handling everything at once and my attempts at keeping up with it all pushed me towards the worst burn out I've experienced.
I was feeling very sad and upset, I loved art, why was it making me so miserable? I enjoyed looking at people's creations, scrolling endlessly and admiring all these cool ideas everyone had, yet I was unable to put mine down no matter what. In an attempt to cool down from these feelings, I focused on work and life matters only, but instead of getting better the ugly thoughts turned into anxiety and panic. Art didn't feel like a safe space anymore and an infinite loop of work, eat, sleep swallowed me for years.
With time, and with the support of my loved ones, I could come to terms with this feeling and, little by little and with lots of encouragement, I gathered enough courage to pick up my pen again.
The feeling of relief I felt was unimaginable. I was there! Drawing! AND having fun with it! And I am looking forward to strenghtening this feeling and return to my childhood passion.
Despite the burn out, my mind did not stop thinking creatively regardless of the fear of drawing I had developed. I will not hide these ideas in a corner anymore, I will embrace them instead and share them with all the world. Art is something I truly enjoy and leaving a little trace of myself in the world, sharing it with everyone and most importantly, doing it because that's how I feel... This is what I wholeheartedly want.
Thank you for reading all of this, it means a lot to me. Please look forward to more little creations in the future, I am very motivated and I have a lot of brain juice that has been begging to be released for a looooooooong time! ✏