so im sitting at half of my video edited, i rushed myself again and some video things suffered. some parts of the script go on for too long, some too short, the audio wasn't properly edited like it should have been, but now i got the normal question i always get,
"is this worth it?" " is this worth making at all?"
normaly id look at other videos of mine and try to get data on stuff but i cant. every time i open youtube studio im reminded of the big popular video that dwarfs every other one. the comments bit is full of bot comments most of the time and if i let any of it get to me ill just be depressed for the rest of the day. in comparison just subconsciously it makes every other video feel unclean and unwanted, i cant go watch them now because if they are less popular they must be bad in some way, or at least its how it seems. even just the graphs look depressing because of it. i wish i could return to obscurity and build up my youtube profile naturaly.
it just feels like ive fallen, even though i shouldnt feel that way.