When I was a child, I thought like a child. Back then, as a teenager, I would go to the fields (as we used to say, “go to work in the field”) to earn money to top up my phone so I could send text messages and stay connected to the world. Today, I reflect on how much my current priorities, ambitions, and goals have evolved since those days.
As we grow into adulthood, we often leave behind our childish pursuits and step into the adult world, driven by the desire to climb the ladder of success. Sometimes we get lost in this rush and forget about our innate talents, we stop developing them because they don’t seem profitable, and instead, we take on jobs that ensure a decent living for our families and make a good impression on others. We become more attractive to the world. But in doing so, we forget our truth, who we really are, how God created us. He knows us perfectly, just as He made us, and there’s no need to hide anything from Him because it doesn’t even make sense. His purpose for us is clear, but we often try to escape from it. At least, that’s how it was in my case.
For a very long time, I was running away instead of facing my demons. Situations escalated, repeated, and looped back, maybe in different places and with different people, but it was always about me, about my inner world, about how I perceive the world and what paradigms I live by. What do I want for my life? What kind of reality do I want to see around me, and what kind of people do I want to have by my side? People who bring me down, or those who see the light in me? Do I focus on the positive aspects of every situation, or do I only see the suffering?
I’m reminded today of a situation from my very rebellious high school years. In the first year, during the first semester, I had six failing grades. I missed a lot of classes and had huge gaps to fill. Somehow, in the second semester, I pulled through and passed into the second year. Faced with a crisis, I felt motivated enough to fight until the end. That “somehow” was my brother, who bet me a thousand złoty that I wouldn’t pass—he was angel number one at that time. Angel number two was my neighbor, a classmate who saw potential in me and tutored me because she was a genius in all the subjects I struggled with the most.
Another critical point was getting pregnant at the start of my third year in college. Thanks to angels like my child’s father, my family, and friends, not only did I graduate on time, but from the next semester, I was already enrolled in full-time master’s studies. I didn’t give up. My determination only grew stronger. Though the support from others was immense, the greatest credit goes to something within me. Something indescribable, some connection to the absolute that gives me the sense that no matter what happens, everything will be okay.
Modern science has a lot of research on consciousness, and I’m very interested in this topic. Even though we live in a material world and perceive objects, it’s fascinating that these objects change under observation. Quantum physics tells us that energy creates matter, our thoughts are energy, and the whole world we see around us, on some level of our mind, consciously or not, was created by us.
The change must always start within us; we must make decisions for the external world to begin reflecting what we want to see, and that always involves work. Don’t look for rationalizations and excuses; they weaken your energy. My story may seem dramatic. I grew up in a very poor, dysfunctional family, my relationships with men were a disaster, I had very low self-esteem, I lived in fear of what others would think of me, fear of failure and ridicule, but somehow I made it through. From working in the fields to accounting, single parenting, project management, coaching, and now writing my own novel—that’s a brief summary of my career.
Now, at thirty-three, I feel like everything has come together and represents my greatest success and fulfillment in life. Every seeming failure, setback, hurt, guilt, and shame has been healed, and I see them as blessings because without them, I wouldn’t be where I am today. With my true soul mission, courage and love in my heart, and truth on my lips. This level of truth is like the Holy Grail, a barrier in life that, if you manage to overcome and start living authentically, miracles begin to happen, and you experience what’s known as a quantum leap, and your reality takes on a rosy hue. Yes, new challenges will come, but you’ll already know how to handle them and what values to guide yourself by. It’s beautiful; it’s a true blessing.
I invite you to share your story. Have you ever run away from something, only for it to come back like a boomerang in your life, just with different people? From this place, I want to thank you for being here ❤️ Did you make it to the end? 😁 Share your thoughts! Have a wonderful day! 🤗💕