I don't think I need to explain how heavy life gets... That seems obvious.
I don’t think I need to express anything in direct relation to my mental state as you can tell I'm not great right now...
But.
I do want to apologize to the community-at-large.
I hate for anyone to see Sad Boi come out... but spirals happen sometimes. It's a truth of my existence... but we work through them. Best as we can. Moment by moment.
Please know: Your presence is something; means a lot to me as I started trying to regard this platform as... well, my place of unbridled truth.
There are just times when the silence gets really... REALLY loud... and unmanageable.
There's also the fact that... : Confession time:
I'm doing the work of several teams, mostly alone right now... and it feels like I'm not getting anywhere.
At times, I used to live in a constant state of panic because of forgetfulness... then I got an assistant who helped make everything attainable.... I kinda felt like we could do anything.
Then, they got chronic fatigue.
So... I doubled down & I did it alone...
I had to... for many reasons...
Needless to say (and as some of you know) that wasn't good for me either.
SO, I'm writing this (and I've been trying to write all day through depression naps) to acknowledge that my capacity has changed... and to tell myself...
It's ok.
Sometimes, we can't do it all. Sometimes, we have to say no. Sometimes, we have to give up/ postpone/cancel.
Sometimes, you are more important that what you produce...
Most times.
All the time.
So, I'm trying to not lose sight of why I'm here... And you all helped me so... Thank you for the messages & pushes forward. We will keep going... if for no other reason than spite. 🥰
Lead with Love.
DC
